I have a rather abstract question to ask and was wondering if anybody had any opinions or ideas that could help me out a little. It’s long, so I won’t cry if nobody wants to read it. (Ok, I’d cry just a little.)
Here's my chart: [url]http://hugbug.smugmug.com/photos/25955742-L-1.gif [/url]
The two strongest influences in my chart are Capricorn and Aquarius. These are the later signs in the zodiac, and I’ve read that the later signs (Capricorn in particular) are the “elders” of the zodiac.
Just like Aries energy is new, young and vibrant, the later signs in the zodiac would be more stable, secure, serious, responsible, etc. In classical astrology the ruler of both Capricorn and Aquarius is Saturn so the Saturn energy must be very strong in my chart. Judging by my personality, I certainly think it is.
My problem is, I seem to be very reluctant to grow up. It’s weird, because I have always been mature for my age. I have never fit in with my age groups, because I was more serious and mature than my peers. I have always taken life very seriously. I take it so seriously that I rarely ever let go and truly have fun. Needless to say, I was never truly a teenager. Drinking, parties, boyfriends, none of those things ever appealed to me.
I still don’t feel 100% comfortable with myself but self confidence and security probably come with age. I figure I’m too serious to be comfortable being in my 20s, maybe when I reach my fourties or fifties I will feel secure and comfortable, and I will feel like I fit my life right. As Capricorn is an adult energy (the elder), I’d be happier when my life allows me to express that energy. You know, marriage, kids, mortgages, responsibilities etc.
The strange thing right now is that I am turning 21 soon, and my life feels like it is moving along ahead of me. I have a boyfriend, we talk about marriage and kids and moving in together. I’m getting too old for the job I’m doing now and so will have to think about starting a more grown-up job soon.
Being a Capricorn/Aquarius, I should be happy that my life is taking on a more adult, mature path. But I seem to have something in my way, blocking me. I know I should grow up now and become an adult, but I seem to be very reluctant to do that. It’s not that I’m scared of change or of growing up, I think I’m more surprised by it. “What, how can this be happening? I’m only a baby!”
After feeling older than I am my whole life, suddenly my age has not only caught up with me, but is racing ahead. I feel like I’m not ready to be 21 yet.
I feel like there is a block stopping me from growing up any further. I feel like there is something I need to do, or something that needs to happen before I can cross the line into adulthood. I feel like I am not emotionally or mentally mature yet, so things like marriage and careers and all those real life adult things surprise me.
I have no idea what this block is, so I was wondering if there is any answer astrology can provide.
:?
Is there a transit or something that determines the line between being young, and being an adult? Is there some planetary energy I am missing, and must wait for before I can mature, and feel like I fit my age?
You think, being a Capricorn/Aquarius, I’d be happy to mature and take on the responsibilities that come with being an adult.
What could be stopping me?
Any ideas?
Here's my chart: [url]http://hugbug.smugmug.com/photos/25955742-L-1.gif [/url]
The two strongest influences in my chart are Capricorn and Aquarius. These are the later signs in the zodiac, and I’ve read that the later signs (Capricorn in particular) are the “elders” of the zodiac.
Just like Aries energy is new, young and vibrant, the later signs in the zodiac would be more stable, secure, serious, responsible, etc. In classical astrology the ruler of both Capricorn and Aquarius is Saturn so the Saturn energy must be very strong in my chart. Judging by my personality, I certainly think it is.
My problem is, I seem to be very reluctant to grow up. It’s weird, because I have always been mature for my age. I have never fit in with my age groups, because I was more serious and mature than my peers. I have always taken life very seriously. I take it so seriously that I rarely ever let go and truly have fun. Needless to say, I was never truly a teenager. Drinking, parties, boyfriends, none of those things ever appealed to me.
I still don’t feel 100% comfortable with myself but self confidence and security probably come with age. I figure I’m too serious to be comfortable being in my 20s, maybe when I reach my fourties or fifties I will feel secure and comfortable, and I will feel like I fit my life right. As Capricorn is an adult energy (the elder), I’d be happier when my life allows me to express that energy. You know, marriage, kids, mortgages, responsibilities etc.
The strange thing right now is that I am turning 21 soon, and my life feels like it is moving along ahead of me. I have a boyfriend, we talk about marriage and kids and moving in together. I’m getting too old for the job I’m doing now and so will have to think about starting a more grown-up job soon.
Being a Capricorn/Aquarius, I should be happy that my life is taking on a more adult, mature path. But I seem to have something in my way, blocking me. I know I should grow up now and become an adult, but I seem to be very reluctant to do that. It’s not that I’m scared of change or of growing up, I think I’m more surprised by it. “What, how can this be happening? I’m only a baby!”
After feeling older than I am my whole life, suddenly my age has not only caught up with me, but is racing ahead. I feel like I’m not ready to be 21 yet.
I feel like there is a block stopping me from growing up any further. I feel like there is something I need to do, or something that needs to happen before I can cross the line into adulthood. I feel like I am not emotionally or mentally mature yet, so things like marriage and careers and all those real life adult things surprise me.
I have no idea what this block is, so I was wondering if there is any answer astrology can provide.
:?
Is there a transit or something that determines the line between being young, and being an adult? Is there some planetary energy I am missing, and must wait for before I can mature, and feel like I fit my age?
You think, being a Capricorn/Aquarius, I’d be happy to mature and take on the responsibilities that come with being an adult.
What could be stopping me?
Any ideas?