North Node, film/music/writing?

[cando]

Hey everyone,
I was wondering if anybody would be interested in trying to interpret my Aries N. Node? It has always confused me (Moon is in Libra/opposition to Pluto) and I've been in a very weird zone in regards to the direction I want to take-- what do you think?
I recently co-wrote and co-directed a play that occurred the night before my birthday (May 20th, the day of the recent solar eclipse.) It went good and it's something that I want to keep on doing but I'm also tied to the possibility of going to school (that will leave me a trillion dollars in debt.) Not sure if this is a bunch of Venus retrograde stuff-- I really want to keep on approaching film, writing, directing, and music stuff but keep second guessing the next step.
Thanks--

[cando]

also, does anybody care to share how they read Uranus and Neptune both in retrograde on my descendant and in the 7th house?
I've dated once for only three months and it turned me into a disaster for almost an entire year. I guess the relationship was rebellious considering that he was an instructor 20 years older than I. He was also kind of insane and a huge liar (which I didn't realize until recently.)

[kimbermoon]

According to this chart, there is an opposition of NN with Pluto, however that is in fact an opposition to the Moon: the orb to Pluto is a bit large.
North Node = developmental opportunities and assets, where we are headed in terms of our destiny.
[We can still utilize free will, as denoted by the Sun]
North node in Aries: what to aspire to: independence and autonomy;courage; leadership and belief in your creative talents. Balancing the challenge between socialization and materialism


South Node = baggage carried over from the past, in need of releasing.
With help from Jupiter at the MC, in Pisces, music and writing are aided;
as with Moon/Venus trine, from the 5th; also the Moon is conjunct South Node, denoting emotional issues that need to be sorted out and let go of. While the Sun in Taurus is about building and sustaining security, the Moon has an inherent yearning or need to be socially accepted, and that can set up a polarization between creativity and material security. This is where you ultimately need to find balance.
Things to let go of: tendency to be argumentative in long term relationships; apt to be competitive, rather than co-operative; excess idealism; unrealistic expectations of others; always wanting to be right in a debate; indecision.
And while the musical talents are indicated, and assisted by Jupiter in the 10th house, the Sun in your 12th suggests you might prefer working in a position from behind the scenes, rather than living in the spotlight.
Saturn in the 6th: traditional employment does not suit you well; health problems can arise because of workplace stress; finding your niche in life can be a long term proposition. A karmic need for overcoming pessimism and negativity.
Pluto in the 6th house: another indicator of employment troubles: potential power struggles with authorities and superiors; control issues;

Your ultimate challenge is letting go of the 'fear of failure' and the 'fear of being materially insecure.' Be willing to take some small leaps of faith; learn to not obsess about money; become more decisive.
Do you really want to be tied down by materialism?
In July, Mars will be transiting your house of creativity, thus you are apt to be further encouraged to pursue an artistic career. With your uranus/neptune conjunct I don't think that traditional education is the way for you to go.

Cando Sun 29 Taurus, Moon 13 Libra, Gemini rising