neptune has been hovering over my sun for a few years, moving towards my moon then mercury (sun 8deg pis, moon 16deg pis, merc 22deg pis).
my dad died, had to let go of outworn ways of being in order to manage my families affairs. a lot of sacrifice there.
moved across the country where i didnt know anyone, went through a period of extreme loneliness, was betrayed by a few people i thought were my friends. lost money.
bought a house, only to find out that the plumbing was all out of whack.
got burnt out at work, had to leave my dream job, and take another that i'm trying to make the best of.
was extremely tired for many months. had no energy for anything but what was essential. slept constantly.
overdid it with drugs/alcohol to escape, walked the line of addiction, then started becoming extremely sensitized to all those same substances, and had to cut down.
started praying.
developed idiopathic itching and hives, i still itch and go red and get hives for no reason. also developed heartburn.
started going very grey all of a sudden.
went from being a pretty sexual person all my life, to essentially celibate. my attitude towards sex has drastically changed. its not that i dont desire sex anymore, but the thought of sleeping with someone that im not in love with and vice versa almost repulses me.
now i'm going through this period of hypersensitization. i was always empathic to a degree, but its to the point where i always know how people are feeling. i can literally feel peoples emotions, i can talk to them and automatically know things about them and how they feel. people are drawn to me and confide in me constantly. it can be overwhelming at times. its on some deanna troy level. i need to spend even more time alone to recharge. i used to be a party animal in my youth but i hardly go out to parties now.
recently i radically changed my diet. i feel a pressing need to meditate, which i dont do enough. i generally feel a pressing need to become more spiritual. i listen to a lot of spiritual talks. i feel a pressing need to take care of my body and heal myself of all my past traumas, which keep surfacing here and there.
i've always been sensitive to music, but its next level now. i have to be very careful of what i listen to because it can totally affect my mood and give me anxiety. if music is too loud or abrasive or has negative lyrics, it really unsettles me and i have to get away from it immediately.
i have a lot of anxiety over the thought of neptune moving towards my moon, because i am afraid that my mother will die.
i thought that neptune transiting my sun would be a great experience as a pisces - in truth its been the most challenging time of my life, even though i see how it is benefitting me in the long run.
edit: my neptune is in my first house.