Lazy Cat
Well-known member
Hi everyone!
I’d like you to read my chart in hope of learning something new about myself, or maybe finding some sense of direction.
I feel I’m a very lucky person, considering nothing too serious or dramatic ever happened in my life. I’ve had a happy childhood, always liked school, had some friends, was shy and quiet… All very common and “boring”, but happy. And I always had a good notion of what I wanted (and didn’t want).
I used to feel like I was much older than my friends. Nowadays, it’s the opposite, I feel like a child in the grown-ups world.
As I grew older, and life actually started happening, I gradually became lost. I lost sense of direction and purpose. I lost interest.
Right now, I’m 28 and I (still) don’t know what to do with my life. I don’t have a job (I’ve had a few, in the past), and I’m not looking for one, because, in a way, that doesn’t make sense to me, that’s not want I want (working for someone else). I want to have purpose, and work for that purpose, not for the money, but for… something else. And I want to make it by myself. I don’t mean alone, but by my own hands, my owns beliefs.
But life’s tough. My Reason says, I should get off my lazy *** and get a job, stop being useless. My Heart says I shouldn’t let go of my dreams, my beliefs. Ever! That’s the only way to go, that’s the only path that will lead to happiness. Right… but I do I get there?! It feel like there’s this big step I have to take, but I don’t even know where to look for it. Also, I feel like I have everything I need to get there, but I still can’t find my way. It’s frustrating, tiresome, and makes me feel bad about myself, like I’m useless, a disappointment, and worse, like I’m “making fun” of everybody else, who actually have a job (cause they have to) and not much of a life… if that makes any sense.
Anyway, my Heart is quite strong and stubborn, and it always wins. I always follow I, cause that’s what I believe in.
Ok, here’s my chart.
I’d like you to read my chart in hope of learning something new about myself, or maybe finding some sense of direction.
I feel I’m a very lucky person, considering nothing too serious or dramatic ever happened in my life. I’ve had a happy childhood, always liked school, had some friends, was shy and quiet… All very common and “boring”, but happy. And I always had a good notion of what I wanted (and didn’t want).
I used to feel like I was much older than my friends. Nowadays, it’s the opposite, I feel like a child in the grown-ups world.
As I grew older, and life actually started happening, I gradually became lost. I lost sense of direction and purpose. I lost interest.
Right now, I’m 28 and I (still) don’t know what to do with my life. I don’t have a job (I’ve had a few, in the past), and I’m not looking for one, because, in a way, that doesn’t make sense to me, that’s not want I want (working for someone else). I want to have purpose, and work for that purpose, not for the money, but for… something else. And I want to make it by myself. I don’t mean alone, but by my own hands, my owns beliefs.
But life’s tough. My Reason says, I should get off my lazy *** and get a job, stop being useless. My Heart says I shouldn’t let go of my dreams, my beliefs. Ever! That’s the only way to go, that’s the only path that will lead to happiness. Right… but I do I get there?! It feel like there’s this big step I have to take, but I don’t even know where to look for it. Also, I feel like I have everything I need to get there, but I still can’t find my way. It’s frustrating, tiresome, and makes me feel bad about myself, like I’m useless, a disappointment, and worse, like I’m “making fun” of everybody else, who actually have a job (cause they have to) and not much of a life… if that makes any sense.
Anyway, my Heart is quite strong and stubborn, and it always wins. I always follow I, cause that’s what I believe in.
Ok, here’s my chart.
