I'm going to offer you a few suggestions here. Remember...these are suggestions...not absolutes. Choice is up to you. Read on....
Thank you for the advice. I did not mean to sound like I was asking for advice, but it's appreciated all the same!
Wow...I get the intensity of everything. Very plutonian. Soon, Mars in Scorpio will be in square to that Leo energy at the New Moon. So, if you are not listening to your heart, and are in survival mode, Mars will not act very nicely around the New Moon. My sense is you need to exercise. Otherwise, that mojo will fill up the mental channel and make life noisy.
I never thought of it like that. I guess I have gone into 'survival mode' without realizing it. I am trying to listen to my heart, but things are oddly "Plutonian". The other day I decided I wanted to have grilled salmon for dinner, because I wanted a good meal and I had salmon, and I decided that no matter when I got off work or how tired I was I was going to start up the grill (no lighter fluid, matches only baby
) and grill my dinner because "dammit, I'm in
control of my life and I can plan my day accordingly." My goodness that sounds Plutonian now that I think about it.
Mars at 14 Cap is being heavily aspected by Uran/Pluto. Something new wants to be born at the same time something wants to die. That mouse is a good example of the death part.
Cap Moon (I have one) points to responsibility, unless you shift it to something more in alignment with your Mars. Mars in Cap ultimately needs to be self-sufficient (work for yourself with help from others), otherwise you put yourself on the responsibility treadmill. I'd say the past Venus and Mars retrogrades have turned up the vibrational juice on your Moon. All designed to "encourage" you to take a leap of faith.
I suggest you start now exploring ways you can earn money the way you want to earn it, rather than everyone else's way. Transiting Mars will pass over your Moon soon to complete its retrograde cycle. That ought to free up the energy. Again...perfect time to exercise. Your body will be happier, and it will stop giving you symptom warnings. Good luck!
I hope so! I want to do all those things. I am in a situation where I've been given a lot of freedom to dictate how I run the business. Even though there is freedom, the lack of boundaries for that freedom is distressing.
I'm a laboratory analyst, but I'm also a receptionist, the hiring manager, quality control officer, courier, janitor, marketing specialist, supervisor, groundskeeper, contract officer, and all sorts of miscellaneous duties. I've never worked in this industry before or had any of these kinds of jobs, but then the support from my supervisor was dropped like rock when they fired 3 people at the main office and had no time to pay attention to this office anymore.
I ask for a price list and it's been three months and they still won't give me one, so I've been
making up prices for our services. And I ask if this is ok and they say the equivalent of "sure, whatever." I contact the company owner who is in charge of the accounts/purchasing when one of our shipments doesn't arrive and I'm told it wasn't paid for, and I basically get the response: "I mailed the check so it's not my problem."
I feel like I've been abandoned at work, but I'm still accountable for the success of the office. They call and ask, "so have you brought in new clients?" while I'm just trying to stay afloat with the business we already have! BY MYSELF. I don't think I like this "responsibility treadmill."
But what needs to be born and what needs to die is completely internal, I'm sure. Saturn return is also beginning with Saturn in the 6th house (my Mars/Moon ruler).
I've been wanting to exercise more if I wasn't so tired. I do a lot of repetitive motions, walking and standing at work but it's not the same. I'm really glad my body so far holds up really well under pressure and is fairly resilient and has minimal medical problems, despite being mistreated sometimes (definitely a lower tolerance though compared to when I was 20). I am happy for that every day, and I'm trying very hard to treat it the best I can.
Thank you for this again!
). I just have to keep going and try to remain optimistic. I feel like Jupiter may be helping a lot here. I feel like I can keep above my fears more than usual, and at least try to succeed and take risks where I'd usually hide in my Cancer shell.
