Guys, I actually have a small update on this situation but it’s too small and well, at first I got really happy but now I feel like I voluntarily agreed to play Russian roulette.
Basically, I reached out to my husband and tried to talk to him one more time and I suggested to try one last remedy: I would go back to my parents (to another country) for about 3 months time, and he would use this time to clear his mind and see if he will miss me. We agreed that if he will miss me, I’ll come back and we start over and if he won’t, than we will divorce. He seemed to like the idea, actually maybe a little too much, but hey, I’m willing to take the risk, I feel like I have nothing to lose, because if it’s not for him, I don’t really want to live here.
Now, I know guys that I could now ask a different horary etc, we all know that, and I probably will at some point, but I just don’t want to right now, I got some hope and for a while I just want to live with that.
Thank you all very much for your replies and advices and support!
Basically, I reached out to my husband and tried to talk to him one more time and I suggested to try one last remedy: I would go back to my parents (to another country) for about 3 months time, and he would use this time to clear his mind and see if he will miss me. We agreed that if he will miss me, I’ll come back and we start over and if he won’t, than we will divorce. He seemed to like the idea, actually maybe a little too much, but hey, I’m willing to take the risk, I feel like I have nothing to lose, because if it’s not for him, I don’t really want to live here.
Now, I know guys that I could now ask a different horary etc, we all know that, and I probably will at some point, but I just don’t want to right now, I got some hope and for a while I just want to live with that.
Thank you all very much for your replies and advices and support!