unlawfulfalafel
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This was a 3+ year relationship with someone I care about more than I thought was humanly possible. It started when we both were entering major Saturn transits (Saturn return for me; Saturn opposition for him) and ended right around the time those transits finished up.
Our breakup was ugly, abrupt, and so painfully angry, but later opened the doors to some of the most emotionally healing communication I've ever had. Very much symbolized by the Chiron conjunct Venus/Jupiter in synastry. I'm now in the process of reflecting on the relationship, honoring its gifts, and understanding why it ended. We endured an unbelievable amount of trauma together (deaths, finances, physical endangerment, health crises, etc.) and as a consequence, spent our resources battling hardship after hardship instead of nurturing the relationship and each other.
Part of the problem was that despite our conjunct moons, there was an emotional barrier caused by mutual insecurities and fear, along with difficulty expressing the great amount of love that existed between us (possibly the 0'04 square between Saturn and Venus in the composite?). I also think that my sun being unaspected by his planets, and a bunch of his planets being in my 12th house, contributed to a sense that we didn't really "see" or know each other despite being together for so long. Neither of us could quite get past our walls when we were together, though ironically we were able to start tearing them down after we broke up.
I would love any input about what shows up in our charts, and whether it's healthy for us to remain in each other's lives at least as friends. I love this person in a way I've never experienced before (I've often had the thought that I was his mother in a past life and he somehow died young under my care -- leading to a desire to protect him and make life safe for him this time around). I also want to do what's best for both of our personal and spiritual growth, even if that means fully letting go.
Any insight would be incredibly appreciated. Thank you!
Our breakup was ugly, abrupt, and so painfully angry, but later opened the doors to some of the most emotionally healing communication I've ever had. Very much symbolized by the Chiron conjunct Venus/Jupiter in synastry. I'm now in the process of reflecting on the relationship, honoring its gifts, and understanding why it ended. We endured an unbelievable amount of trauma together (deaths, finances, physical endangerment, health crises, etc.) and as a consequence, spent our resources battling hardship after hardship instead of nurturing the relationship and each other.
Part of the problem was that despite our conjunct moons, there was an emotional barrier caused by mutual insecurities and fear, along with difficulty expressing the great amount of love that existed between us (possibly the 0'04 square between Saturn and Venus in the composite?). I also think that my sun being unaspected by his planets, and a bunch of his planets being in my 12th house, contributed to a sense that we didn't really "see" or know each other despite being together for so long. Neither of us could quite get past our walls when we were together, though ironically we were able to start tearing them down after we broke up.
I would love any input about what shows up in our charts, and whether it's healthy for us to remain in each other's lives at least as friends. I love this person in a way I've never experienced before (I've often had the thought that I was his mother in a past life and he somehow died young under my care -- leading to a desire to protect him and make life safe for him this time around). I also want to do what's best for both of our personal and spiritual growth, even if that means fully letting go.
Any insight would be incredibly appreciated. Thank you!
