Hi UraSatVen1029. Its interesting that the Saturn Neptune natal square is so close. Although there is a natural tension between these functions, they have in common a tendency to make sacrifices for the good of the 'greater whole'. The personal planets which Saturn and Neptune aspect in the natal chart (though not very closely) are in Virgo and Scorpio. Virgo can strive to be useful, and Scorpio can fear alienation - thus there is the potential for you to do what you feel is expected of you rather than what feels authentic.
On the other hand, the Saturn and Neptune functions only feel satisfied when there is a way of participating in the greater whole which feels real and authentic - a periodic sense of disillusionment and futility arises with both functions as an incentive to reassess any allegiances and values which prevent authenticity. Virgo knows that ultimately the way to be of most use is to be true to oneself, and Scorpio knows that to connect with source is the only way to end feelings of alienation.
So I would see the upcoming Uranus transit as being likely to nudge you away from the expressions of these functions and signs described in the first paragraph, and towards the expressions described in the second paragraph. To make the transit easier, you can start to ask yourself in which areas of life you are clinging to certain ways of participating in the greater whole even though they don't feel quite right. And you can start to make peace with the fact that things may well change in one way or another; openness to change can free the intuition to preempt change and cooperate with it.
The Moon conjunct Uranus in Aquarius gives you some affinity with the Uranian process of shattering untruth, but it could be that if you are still more in the first paragraph way of being, this placement has manifested partly as an instinct to adhere to principles which are coloured by the expectations of others.
Whatever change happens, it is likely that you will see it as a blessing in the long run. Give yourself a wonderful gift: give these changes the benefit of the doubt before you even know what they are, and turn our apprehension into a sense of positive anticipation.
Of course you may need to be careful how you express any rebellious, disruptive impulses which arise. But if you are afraid of change, you will tend to bottle these impulses up and then they will suddenly burst out (or come at you from the outside). If you embrace the possibility of change, you will probably have more say in how, when and where these impulses translate into actions and effects.
Best wishes
Miquar
A great reply.
I remember that just a few days after 2016 started on January, our house got caught in a fire (short circuit somewhere in the 2nd floor) so we had to move to another house in the same subdivision, because thankfully not all houses were occupied yet. Then, we had to move another one again because the owner of the subdivision somehow ****** up our living arrnagements, contracts and agreements that the issue was so confusing and foggy. Finally, this year last early June, we moved into a new house that's even bigger and even with a bigger lot that has a pool. Wow, I didn't even expect the pool to be there. I think this was all triggered by Uranus conjuncting my IC angle and then moving into my PoF which is like 3-4 degrees ahead of my IC.
Since it's also approaching my Saturn now, I'm actually starting to feel the effects you mentioned. The first paragraph, as you explained, was what i was mainly feeling months before and after Uranus crossed my IC. There was this dilemma. Since it opposed my Midheaven, career goals in life were now unexpectedly changed, and I was having this dilemma whether I should accept it or not. Finally, I accepted it, but this caused me to drop my first college course. But sometime later, Jupiter also conjuncted my Midheaven, and it indeed boosted my ego and public image, and it also brought me to a better path, more aligned to what I really want and intend to do in the future. The dilemma I was having was whether I should quit this course and be more true to my goals and dreams. It was a fairly hard time because if I had to accept the reawakening of my real passion, I had to drop out and disappoint my parents...
But like you said, I was also finally at peace with myself. I now know what I want and what I really intend to do in my future. I guess this is more of the second paragraph that you explained in your reply. I was initially fearing for the sudden birth of new plans that interrupted the pace of my original goals, and that was to finish the course in 4 years. But in 2016, I joined a competition and I had to skip one semester, meaning I'd be really delayed on my studies. But after that competition, I was changed. I definitely did not want to go back to studying that course because I finally realized what I really wanted and to stay in that school any longer wiuld just make me feel dead inside.
I still wanted to make sacrifices and be of better use to my family's financial goals but I felt like I needed to do it with more authenticity to achieve more success. I feel like I was wasting my time on doing the things that exoected me to do but I never actually wanted to.
I'm more open to change now, but I'm also really craving for that soecific change-- to break free from the usual expectations that my parents placed on me. They want me to finish medical studies, but I just want to get out of it. It's horrible because Med is obviously for people who really has the brains and the will to finish such a difficult college course. This kind of dilemma is actually very common in society, but I'm hoping to get out of it and conquer it when everybody else couldn't. I'm hoping that I could do it differently. But then again, my parents truly wanted me to finish my studies. I mean I understand, but what's the point of spending so much money on supporting me for a career that I'll never probably carry on for more than one or two years? It's pointless, in my perspective. I'd rather focus all my time and energy on developing my natural skills to a more professional and competent level so that I can finally pursue that success I've always wanted for myself and for my family.
I had been hoping for an opportunity to finally break free from it, but I'm not sure if I should even assume that this Uranus transit could trigger it. Changes will probably happen, but I don't know. Maybe its not the change I want, but still a change nonetheless.
Scorpio and Virgo is involved in the energies here, but so is Aries and Capricorn as well. The ambitious and determined dreamer but also the impatient and impulsive go getter. Moon conjunct Uranus is doing me a great job on the insights I'm gaining from all of this.
