Wow! Ok.. Where do I start? Lol
My boyfriend (the father of our son) I have always felt wouldn't be long term.. Psychics, tarots and dreams have told me he's too controlling (even friends and family). He is a great dad and I feel sad that I don't love him but he loves me.. (Another horary chart showed that).. I care for him though a great deal.. But with all that said I never have and never will cheat on him. The most I WANT to do with my ex is talk. (He's the only person I can talk to about metaphysical, spiritual, universal and astrollogical things... My friends make fun of us and my bf calls me the crazy cat lady...)
Hmm you said there may be friend opposing our relationship together which is actually one of the major reasons, family set aside, we could never be together (his family included) I destroyed that! But even while we were still together he assured me that they didn't matter.. But the pressure caused by me did not make me feel any better...
So am I the only one who feels this strongly? I mean like... He doesn't have these strong feelings either? (The pisces DC does that only count for me or him too?)
The moon moon aspect.... Means that the feeling being soul mates will go away? And therefore the relationship won't be lasting?
(I just want to add.. I did my solar return chart for next year and it showed break up and court *i guess for our son* as did a few psychics predicted about my rellationship... We don't live together, we're off and on but the whole time I've been faithful to him and have never been with anyone else even during our off times..... But! I also made a horary chart asking if I would ever get back with my ex and it said yes....)
Alright lets do this = )
sun square moon, your moon squares his sun, you will be too emotionally attached, and he will be to fixed for your emotions, moderate your attachment to him, and he will be more flexible with you.
more specifically, this:
Orb 4°10' Separating
Aspect is Hard
'Opposites attract' could the theme for this combination of personal planets. There is an instant spark when ariana and horay meet, whether they choose to enjoy a friendship or a more intimate relationship. The world seems more exciting when they are together. When together ariana and horay are able to broaden their horizons in ways they had not thought possible. Each one seems to fill a void deep inside the other. In astrology it is considered important to have a combination of personal planets in order to enjoy a deep relationship, but this can be a difficult combination once the initial excitement has worn off. Friction easily arises and what was once attractive becomes irritating. The success of this relationship largely depends on each person's ability to accept the other person's differences. horay may eventually have difficulty understanding ariana's emotional nature. horay may feel impatient and frustrated by the limitations placed on him by ariana. ariana may feel overwhelmed by horay's personality. The initial excitement of the association with someone so opposing in nature may be replaced by feelings of insecurity. It's important for both ariana and horay to continue to appreciate each other's differences at all times and to realise that this relationship is potentially very rewarding if the difficulties can be faced and resolutions found.
^ keep in mind, this is a hard aspect but waaaay outside of orb, 4' is pretty far, and though it is still doing something the energies are not so bad, more than likely this is just a sexual energy than not.
Having the pisces descendant doesn't mean you will cheat on your current bf...persay, it just means you may disillusion yourself on the current and past relationships you have had (I.E. this one) and in turn, you are mentally cheating on your current bf (admit it or not, you are not being faithful) because I"m pretty sure the current one doesn't know just how strongly you feel about this past bf (or perhaps, he does) in which case, you are STILL contributing to an ultimate breakup.
Please be wary of psychics and tarot, wile I don't deny any power the cosmos wields, it is best to understand that a chart is an intention of a person, not a finite definition of who or what we have to be, we have a human element, and you have a choice to chose which direction you want to go.
the moon conjunction is permanent, you will both feel a strong connection, not just you, but him too.
you're not the crazy cat lady, judging from the way you talk about astrology, you're smarter than most, and that's a good thing, build on it, and you can always chat with one of us about your astrology, although not the same, can still prove a good creative outlet for your pent up energy of the subject.
IF you and this ex weren't to last, it would be because of your over attachment to him, he is attached, for sure, but he has a bigger picture he is trying to work on (his career or something in general) the GOOD news is you trine with his north node, and he trines with your midheaven, but you SQUARE against his, so your emotions are getting in the way of his work, and thus he will feel distance from you if you are not careful for letting him pursue what he needs to in this lifetime. this relationship between you and him is actually VERY strong! You already know it, and I know it, there is just a few bumps to work out. even strong aspects and conjunctions and sextiles etc don't mean the relationship will work, it's a matter of fact that sometimes squares are necessary for a real lasting connection (a saturn square north node, for example) so there is always a give and take depending.
again as I stress, you are being a negative factor in your CURRENT relationship, either conciously or unconcious (more than likely both) because you are accepting and contributing to the eventual break up and end of the relationship. does that mean you should stop? no, that isn't for me to say, the stars are how they are and more than likely you two SHOULD break up, I haven't heard you talk very nicely about your current man, so either you don't like him much or you're too hung up on the previous one, either way I understand your pain, neptune on a descendant is rough, it's powerful and all consuming, and sometimes to the detriment, and I also understand how deep and powerful you go, and I sympathize and appreciate your deep affection.
I wish I had better advice for you, but chances are you already know the outcome, because you have more or less set the works for them to happen, all I can say is, take care of yourself, the children, and be good to one another.
oh and yes, the friends are gonna be a problem (vesta square north node) if you can, try to keep the relationship as personal as you can, and do things your own way. now I say this loosely, because this can also be that your friends (or I.E. me or this community) will try to direct you and you will resist, this is most likely true, and if you think it is then you've confirmed it, you'll have a natural resistance to friendly advice, specifically about him and the direction you are going in life, just remember that people are objective, but ultimately have your best interest, if they are good people and true.
(I'll have a look at the solar return and get back with you)
also fun fact, your moon trines his pt fortune, and his moon conjoins yours, you two make eachother pretty darn happy.
even more fun fact, my mercury trines with your moon, our saturns conjoin with sun and mercury, my neptune sextiles your sun, and my moon conjoins your pt forture, so you'll enjoy this ^_^ but I will need to be careful of my force on you, you wont like it, so take my advice as lighthearted as you can, I mean no harm (my sun square your mercury) = )