Re: help/... too much rage inside.. too many bad aspects??
Hi. Because your chart is so dominated by T squares involving Pluto, Mars, Venus, the Moon and the Sun, it could be worth you concentrating some energy on the 'empty leg', which here is in Leo in the 11th house. So something like finding a group environment through which you can express who you uniquely are, or aligning yourself with a socially progressive cause which you feel wholehearted about and perhaps which involves helping to create a society where people can express themselves. These are just broad examples of course, and from what you said in the original post, it would be no picnic for you to be in a group. But its a commonly espoused idea about the empty leg, so it might be worth some thought.
Generally, it sounds like you'd benefit from ongoing therapy to get to the root of what you are really angry about - to get into all those feelings of competitiveness and rage in a safe environment where there are no repercussions for your friendships, etc.
If this course of action does feel right for you, it could be worth starting this year. Transiting Saturn hits the T squares next year, and building a solid foundation of self-exploration in advance could help to bring out the productive and liberating potential of these Saturn transits.
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no strength that could not become a defect
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