Gemini Sun Libra Rising Pisces Moon
My joining here is part of... let's just say a major turning point for me.
I've been fascinated with astrology since reading the astrology section of our local newspaper when I was a kid. I asked my cousin about it (well, she's not into astrology, but she knows the basics, at least her own sun sign - by the way, we're both Geminis).
Over the years I've read bits and pieces about it... just skimming through the different signs, elements, planets, some of the basics... just my normal reading so that I can answer my friends when they ask me if they are compatible with their boyfriends...
I remember one of my friends in college asked me if she's compatible with a guy she's seeing. She's Pisces and her new guy's Scorpio.
With all confidence, I told her, yes. You are compatible... You'll have a great time with him... Sparks will fly I assure you...
Was I a good Astrologer or what?
But then, as I was telling her all about it, deep inside, I had this... questions, but just whispers, not strong enough to compel me to investigate more. Are you sure about what you're saying? Is that it? If you're a Pisces and He's a Scorpio, does it automatically say, you'll live happily ever after?
Many years have passed, and my friend and her new guy moved on to their separate paths (they didn't last a year, I think), and now, I am part of the workforce - and where I am right now, is where the ambitious and the driven are: the corporate world.
This is the place to be!
Or so I thought.
I often catch myself daydreaming at work. One moment I'm working with the report I'll have to submit within the day, the next, I'll have to rouse myself from a very beautiful dream where all things are colorful and peaceful.
And I'm bad at recording the minutes of meeting. Very bad indeed. Whenever I'll be assigned as the minute-taker, at the end of each meeting, I'll look at my word pad, and see a few phrases typed.
Holy s**t! I spaced out again! And I'll have to ask my boss what she captured during the meeting...
Oh, and staff meetings are horror to me. I felt as if all the bosses are constantly zooming in on us, compelling as to talk, to give ideas, to contribute to the team. And I was paralyzed with fear... because I can't think of anything to say... Oh, fantasy land is much much better...
Periodic performance evaluations top the dreadful-things-at-the-office list. And I want to have a good performance rating?
I've read a lot of self-help books (and this is with great resistance on my part, because its a sign of weakness). I will be revitalized after reading the book, then after a few weeks, I'll be back to where I started. And its a cycle for me...
Then I snapped out of it. Clearly, I am not happy where I am right now. I need to know myself more, what I really want to do, and I had to do it now!
At first, Astrology was just a small part of my plan, just a tool to know myself more. Before I knew it, I was digging deeper, wanting to know more, because I realized Astrology is more complex than I thought... and my fascination of it is growing stronger everyday... believe me, this is a miracle for me, as attention and focus has never been my strong point.
Astrology gave me attention and focus.
I am so looking forward to learning more...
Hope I'll make friends with you!