Indications of my schizophrenia in my chart

[freeskyblue]

When I was 19, I started to have auditory hallucinations. After a few years of medical treatment, the volume of the voices I hear has gotten lower but I still feel annoyed by it. Does anyone think that my disease has anything to do with my multiple Grand Cross? Perhaps Neptune aspects with all my other planets indicate my hallucinations? I also have Moon squaring most of my other planets, it might means I am psychologically troubled? I used to be depressed and planned to suicide when I get to a specific age. But after having schizophrenia, I felt that suicide is not too important anymore. But talking about change is about progressions so I'll skip that here. What do you think?

My chart:
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[Lin]

One thing indicated is that your illness is genetic. What is the history of mental/emotional problems in your family (if you care to share that information)
And yeah, Neptune IS very active in your chart. But I hate Jupiter squares more.

Have PHYSICAL conditions been totally eliminated?

What types of MDs have you seen....meaning specialists? Have you had a brain scan?
LIN

[Vista]

Originally Posted by freeskyblue

When I was 19, I started to have auditory hallucinations. After a few years of medical treatment, the volume of the voices I hear has gotten lower but I still feel annoyed by it. Does anyone think that my disease has anything to do with my multiple Grand Cross? Perhaps Neptune aspects with all my other planets indicate my hallucinations? I also have Moon squaring most of my other planets, it might means I am psychologically troubled? I used to be depressed and planned to suicide when I get to a specific age. But after having schizophrenia, I felt that suicide is not too important anymore. But talking about change is about progressions so I'll skip that here. What do you think?

My chart:
http://img337.imageshack.us/img337/5...7824001sl0.gif

You don't have a Grand Cross at all, the orbs are too wide to Mars to be in aspect. What you have are multiple T-Squares not that it makes your problem any less. I look to mostly Moon and Mercury in hard aspect to Saturn, Uranus and Neptune for mental problems of any kind. The more aspects the more challenges to these two planets, the more potential mental problems. Sometimes it can simply be Depression(Sat), Erratic behavior and irritability(Uranus), or Deception, delusion, or substance abuse issues(Neptune). Now, it doesn't' mean you cannot overcome these problems with the right help. I would be careful of what drugs you take it could make the problem worse. Do your own research and don't take one physician's opinion.

[dr. farr]

Mercury (nervous system affinity, also the senses) posited in the 8th house, combust the Sun (higher mind), opposition to Uranus (unusual conditions of the nervous system), plus Moon (brain, emotions) applying to square with 8th house Jupiter ("rational" mind) and in partile square to Neptune (subtle perceptions, can include both striking insights and delusions as well), and also Jupiter (from the 8th house) in opposition to Neptune, along with Taurus (affinity to ears, hearing) ruling the 6th whole sign house (house of potential health problems), might constitute a mixture of natal influences at least partially responsible for some of these problems.

[Moog]

To dr. farr's observations, I'd add that sidereally, The Moon would be in Virgo (mercurial signs generally not good for the moon) ruled by that 8th house Mercury. Jupiter would also be in the 8th house along with Mercury, which is a difficult placement. Also, Rahu makes an aspect to your Moon.

[aquarius7000]

Hello,

For a human being, the mind (Mer) and the emotions (Moon) are the two main factors and energies responsible for his well-being. The mind can be one's best friend, but also the worst enemy.

As per the chart, the main problem lies with Neptune's square to Moon, which is amplified by Jup's square to Moon and opp to Nep. Nep-Moon aspects can cause dissociation (Nep) from reality due to emotional issues (Moon), leading the person to live in a world of their own. Often the problems come from childhood/mother/home (moon), and Nep provides the escape. The mental (Mer) and the emotional (Moon) worlds of the native start creating (Nep) their own reality. The Ura-Moon aspect makes the emotional world rather unsteady, making it a roller-coaster ride, and a challenge to maintain one's emotional and mental equilibrium. One minute, the native may feel elated, the next they may feel down.

Uranus in opposition to Mer firstly means a hyperactive mind (I should know with Ura in the 3rd, besides an Aquarian Mer). However, it can also make the mind very erratic and unsettled making the person a bundle of nerves in the true Uranian sense. The Ura-Mer aspect also, on the upside, gives flashes of genius. All said and done, the mind always needs to be thoroughly occupied, or it can truly become a case of an "an idle mind is a devil's workshop". Actually, with the energy of the aforementioned aspects, with the planets involved, and with the placement of a first house Ura and Nep, one could develop seer's aspects.

AQ7