Re: Sagittarian Sun with Moon stuck between two signs. Is this a cause for my imbalan
I'm wondering if some of your issues described are partly due to your venus/pluto conjunction in 12th (its really hard to tell the houses. I can't make them out at all). That is a very powerful and emotionally intense aspect.
Then your moon square saturn is a depressive aspect. It tries to limit you. But then you have mars in sag which is not a very stable position in some ways. Not that its bad, it would be fun to have for sure for some people (me included, my scorp/cappy planets are kinda downers sometimes). It adds energy, though inconsistently, and might add drama mixed with your venus/pluto positions.
Your mars is prominently placed too but sort of a firecracker as I see it! It might be easy for you to express that side of yourself but maybe hard for your tough venus/pluto since it is hard to express such feelings anyway (the intensity) but it being in the 12th suggests maybe you try to hide it? Maybe true to Scorpio form you let it build until it explodes?
I always wonder how people express contradictory emotional aspects. Your venus/pluto suggests an intensity of feeling, perhaps jealousy and control issues, but then moon square saturn suggests holding back and repression of emotions.
These are just my late-night rambling thoughts, btw ;-)