Advice appreciated :)

[Ish]

Hey everyone

I'm new here and was wondering and hoping some might want to take a look at my charts and maybe offer some advice?

Two points of interest to me are:

- my health - I got kidney cancer and yeah, its a real eyeopener that has already taught me so much about priorities and responsibilities. Ina way, a good thing that happened to me.

- a dream that I'm learning to take responsibility for: I want to become very rich. :O Not for craziness or anything like it but the cancer forced me in a way to no longer ignore that heartsdesire. I'm doing daytrading and so far making money. No idea I actually had that in me. No schooling in that area at all or in any area for that matter. lol

Thank you mucho in afvance.

[waybread]

Ish, I hope your health is improving!

I note that the 6th house rules health, and the kidneys are ruled by Venus. With your sun (identity) Chiron ("where it hurts") and Venus all in the 6th house, opposed by Pluto in the 12th house, you were probably always vulnerable to some kind of kidney disorder.

If we look at your financial situation, the 2nd house rules your personal money and the 8th house rules "shared resources" such as investments.

Your traditional second house ruler, with Scorpio on the cusp, is Mars. It conjuncts beneficial Jupiter, and they make really positive aspects, so that looks good financially. The modern ruler of Scorpio, Pluto, is in the 12th "house of self-undoing". Not so good. This might get you back into your health loop, which I would recommend as your highest priority. Being rich doesn't help a whole lot if you can't enjoy it, other than paying medical bills.

Neptune in your second house is a big question mark because it is antithetical to a solid grounding in reality. It can suggest that you are overly idealistic; maybe even vulnerable to get-rich-quick schemes. Or, it could show that you have a visionary, 6th sense about money. Your experience will indicate which one it is in your life.

With Saturn opposing Neptune from the 8th house, the universe has put your Neptune on a very short leash. If you heed Saturn's lesson's of patience, hard work, and resourcefulness, you should do fine. If you let some idealistic optimism (Neptune) take over, Saturn will appear as the cosmic bill collector. Neptune says, "Something will turn up." But with Saturn in the mix, nothing will turn up that you cannot already measure in a very real way.

Your 8th house, with Taurus on the cusp, is ruled by Venus, which gets you back into your health loop. Please look after yourself! If you can keep an eye on Pluto's transits via an ephemeris (like a train timetable, only for planets) watch out for transiting Pluto in Capricorn squaring your natal Venus. This would be a good time to ramp up your health and fitness regimen.

With your very well aspected Mars-Jupiter located in your 4th house, working from home would seem to be a very fortunate option for you.

[Ish]

Waybread, thank you very much for taking the time to look into my charts and offer advice.

Much appreciated.

Interestingly, I was operated on the tubes - not my native language and I don't know the proper English word for it - that connect the kidneys and the bladder at age 6. So yeah, you are very much right that my kidneys were always vulnerable.

You are right that my health should be my #1 priority but this desire to become rich is something so pertinent on my mind and heart that I can no longer ignore it even though I have for years. In fact, in a dream I was even given an exact amount to amass. This while I really never desired money before; the things I value cannot be bought any way.

And I suspect that the reason why I no longer am able to ignore this desire is exactly because I know I have death breathing down my neck, even inside me. In that way cancer really is like a breath of fresh air as it puts you with your back against the wall; no time left for denial.

You are right on me not being particularly grounded in reality. In fact, I'm very far removed from that. lol Instead I just dream and pretty loud too.

Even as a kiddo I would just dream and meet people there and as crazy as it sounds, I got the impression that I'm now being taught in dreams about stocktrading by this really old guy, like in his 80ies, who appears very fond of me. My Bro is a stocktrader by profession, even once won a national award for best stocktrader of the year, and I sure hope its a gift that runs in the family.

I like to think I may have learned Saturn's lesson's of patience, hard work, and resourcefulness but you never know; I learned that I can be a fool any day of the week. lol But yeah, I spend about a decade, give or take a year, in poverty and never was really bothered by it. Instead I always had this feeling that I was being taught the important lesson on how to handle money, and despite living way below the poverty line I always managed.

Also, to me working from home is really what I want as its where I feel safe, comfortable and just plain happy.

Waybread, thank you again - your reply gave me something to think about.

[Ish]

Originally Posted by waybread

Ish, I hope your health is improving!

I just posted my reply but... you know what? I left this one thing out because I know it sound ridiculous and yeah, who wants to be ridiculed? But here goes, as far as my health, I'm peeing blood every day and there are good days and bad. The bad ones it hurts all out.

In this dream I met a lady I knew from about 15 years ago and she told me I was dying. I really cried so badly and said "But I don't want to die yet!!!"

Then she said "Then you have to go to India."

More dreams and instructions followed; apparently I need to go to quite a few places.

So, right now, for me to get to those places I need to make a lot of money. So, I borrowed all the money I could from the bank - 1600 euro - and WOW! I made some good money with it. On my second stock purchase I made 15,84% in a few days. And then my Dad donated 1k for me to invest with. So yeah, its nerve wrecking but I really have no choice; I'm not going to any of the places without the caching to get me there.

I realise it may sounds incredibly stupid to navigate through life by what you are shown and told in dreams but my dreams have always been reality. I even met my gf in a dream a year before I met her in person on the level of the physical body.

So I am really confident that I'll live and that my cancer is simply there to teach me, not to be the end of me. So, please don't worry about me. I'll be fine and I suspect even better than fine after I got fixed.

[waybread]

Ish, thanks so much for your detailed feedback. It is very helpful as I learn astrology.

Blood in your urine sounds serious, and it can relate to something other than your kidneys, such as your bladder. The bladder is ruled by Scorpio and the 8th house, for example, which is also prominent in your chart. Time to see a medical specialist, if you have not done so already.

[Ish]

I know that it is kidney cancer because I had exams - its pretty advanced and spread out. At first they couldn't find anything, apparently it can actually be hard to spot cancer. That was a surprise to me. So, I just let it rest thinking I was imagining things despite having pain on a daily basis.

Almost a year passed and I started peeing blood and then thought I should really go back to the doctor - something I had postponed as I really felt embarassed at the idea of once again getting exams and then I feared they wouldn't find anything again. More exams followed and yeah, I'm pretty much *******. lol

Makes me sad in a way as its not fun to know your own body is mailfunctioning but I guess it is necessary or it wouldn't be happening and that there are good lessons to be learned from it.

I have no treatment as its useless at the point where it is now - it would just drag it out but I just don't feel like it, in fact, even if I wanted too, I don't feel I have the energy for it. So instead I just go with the flow. I got to admit that it is highly motivational though to work hard at learning the stocktrading in record time! And it does sharpen ones appreciation of life and ones sense of humour.

[waybread]

Ish, your positive attitude is inspiring. Let us know occasionally how you are getting on.

With all good wishes, W.

[Ish]

I'll do that and post a progressive chart along to see how it all correlates.

On a sidenote, in my progressive chart I have Uranus conjunct the acedant, if I read it right, and I thought that this stands for potentially sweeping changes in life but maybe I'm wrong?

To me this really feels like I'm in the process of leaving one era of my life while slowly entering another.

Thank you for your best wishes, Waybread - much appreciated!

[Ish]

Giving this a bump as I'm always interested in more insight.

Many thanks in advance.