I currently hold a first class degree in Psychology, a subject I am crazy about, and I am now in the process of selecting a masters. When I have had my chart looked at previously and elsewhere, I was told I would make a good psychologist/therapist; there was much focus on me in relation to understanding ‘patients’. However, the masters and career that I feel drawn toward most strongly is, in practice, very different to that. I would like to INVESTIGATE the neuropsychological functioning in severely brain damaged patients, who can’t speak, such as those who are minimally conscious or vegetative. (In a nutshell,) Ultimately -- we DO NOT (and yet cannot) know whether these patients are even conscious inside, as they cannot tell us. Clearly, this consideration impacts on the quality of life and maintenance of life, in these individuals, as well as existing theory.
This involves a great deal of knowledge of neuroscience and investigation via brain scanning, for the most part. I have so far shown the academic ability to do excel in this area (through related research dissertation, examination, etc.), however, I wondered if there is anything in my chart that may suggest possible, noteworthy contra-indication/s? Or am I on money (metaphorically)?
My quandary is fuelled by the fact that, on the one hand, I love the autonomy (ruler of 1st in 12th; ruler of 6th in 10th) this type of work gives me. It means that I can spend most of my time working independently (Venus and Mars in 10th; Ruler of 10th in 1st), ANALYSING, fine-tuning, second-guessing, (Virgo MC) which I simply love. From the intense amount of concentration/time that this work requires, I feel it gives me respite (and healing) and (psychologically, the right) balance from the crises that often surround my life (Chiron and 12th issues). The work is incredibly meaningful to me and constantly stretches my ability to the max., which in turn maintains my drive and sense of achievement.
On the other hand, I have niggly doubts about whether this is the right career path. This is because:
* This work would require an enormous amount of academic writing, so
to publish interpretations of my results in academic journals. Am I supposed to be good at writing? Or is this afflicted? Right now, I do well, but I find it hard, this is my main concern. English is my second language. Is this confidence issues (with writing)? Are these afflicted?
* This work would also require some public speaking
: giving (university) lectures; oral presentations etc., And, I love speaking but detest
being in the spotlight. Is this afflicted negatively, also? Or is this again a confidence issue? (I know Scorpio AC doesnt help.)
But then my Vertex is in Gemini:
VERTEX IN GEMINI
“You are expected to bring your ability to communicate or write to the fore, and to use hard-core facts to clarify situations. People expect you to come up with ideas and present them clearly, speak, write, or instruct, debate your own view point, and gain a position as a spokesperson.
Doing these things may improve your ability to get your ideas across to others because you learn to choose your words carefully and have the facts to back them up. You also gain the confidence to speak out because you have developed communication skills and maintained a youthful curiosity.” (Taken from Cafeastrology.com)
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But then I am unsure what, in this (professional) context, the significance is of my Vertex being in 8th
(death & sex). Or, could this relate to the understanding of POSSIBLE hidden islands of preserved consciousness, or at least, inner world of the patients I refer to here?
Also, with my NN in Gemini too, does this mean that my Vertex interp above is an important part of my NN karma?
* Lastly, I always feel like I just want to help. My help in this world is needed, my capacity for that is huge and nothing satisfies me more. I am intensely curious about your interpretations
regarding whether my ‘help’ should come in a verbal, 1-1, very interactive way (as in therapy) or
the more anonymized, behind the scenes, very debilitated patients, diagnosis and scientific research, kind of way? I used to be a hairdresser, and I know with the former (1-1; interactive), that I shine. Would this shine be subdued if my input came through paper instead, or should/could I still embrace it as a lecturer (in the future)? I need the shine (Venus/10th).
* Lastly, lastly, with the P.Fort. (Saturn?)
I have tried to understand what the aspects and its sign mean, but there is no information out there. Does this hold any special significance to my question? Such as the conjunction with the moon; sextile mercury; trine mars; Q-Saturn. I cannot make heads or tails of what this means and I have tried
in advance for the long text, I just wanted to be as clear as possible. Any insight you could provide is very much appreciated! Thank you muchley
! Love and light, X