Yesterday at new year's party was a person i had a crush on and then he liked me (and how i told in the other thread the moment he liked me - i stopped liking him and that happend not just with him ). And he flirted, tried to make a move.. and then i realize he's repulsive to me. It's like i'm afraid of physical contact with
him. And that's not the first time that happens. I thought my problem was the opinion of the others but it really isn't just that. I always try to be happy-go-lucky kind of person but about this i'm not and i don't know why.
I'm 18.. sometimes i feel sexually attracted to someone (So it's not like those people who don't feel it). But the moment someone is going even to kiss me i start thinking that then he'll probably want to go to bed and do i wanna have sex with him.. huh.. NO! So i decide to have nothing with him. Oh.. i know i sound crazy but i'm really confused - i even thought i'm a lesbian.... but i'm not! I don't like girls - i like boys ! But i have pretty big expectations.. and this repulsive feeling.. i can't explain this really.. it's like if i give it a try - i will like it but to do that i must overcome this feeling...
Is there anything wrong with me ?
P.S. Happy New Year