Being cooked alive !!!

[lostsoul79]

The current saturn/pluto square is forming a T square to my N moon in 01 aries, in the 2nd house, * * saturn is opposing it *from the 8th house, and pluto is squaring it from the 1st house, * * * and i feel that i am being cooked alive, *ii have retreated to a very remote place in the mountains as i am finding it very hard to face the outside world, *and i find *the wilderness a much more supportive place to be, * * *have *been feeling that i have reached the point of final defeat, * and that there is nothing left, * i am feeling some very very dark, difficult, painful, deep *and conflicting *emotions, *i feel that i am going to implode and explode at the same time, and i feel very much on my own, * * * * *please can any one who has been through this kind of transit before share their experiences?, * * and any ideas on how to extract the lessons of pluto/ saturn/ moon without *pressing *that final self destruct button?. * *the deeper i go into trying to understand myself and my feelings the more **** i find !!!, * * i have to finally truly consider that, * maybe i *really am just made of **** !!!, who knows???. *( have a N stellium in the 8th) * * my basic understanding of this transit is that my emotions and my feelings about my self and my life in general will be lowered into an active and boiling volcano !!!, and left there for a while, and then it (may ?) be taken out again * * in order to see what is left* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *thanks. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * abbas

[blacksun?]

I dont know how you could really relieve this feeling, but I want to give the information I can give - it sounds really serious, I hope you will endure. The one advice I could give you is to call greater forces to your aid. Pluto is obviously linked to the greater forces, and it seems like you are being called to be transformed, almost like purgatory. Perhaps the way to get out of this is not to understand your feelings to the depths from a personal perspective, but to learn to see yourself from a higher, more objective perspective.

In my own deepest crisis the solution was in surrendering to that which had previously repulsed me. Im not talking about obscenities, but about areas of religion and love that had seemed to me to be for weaker people. It turned out I was one of them.

Certainly probing myself to the depths to find a solution only made it worse. There are always areas of yourself you can't see.
Saturn Moon conflicts are about undermining the fundaments on which your sense of self is built. Pluto helps in destroying these. Don't try to find the answers inside your own psyche, perhaps the way out here is to let go of that psyche, of the way you are anchored in it.

[astrologer50]

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