DOB 30/04/1972 3.15 am Halifax West Yorkshire Uk
I guess Saturn moving over to conjunct my natal Pluto and the Pluto Sq Pluto action going on have brought all this to the surface, I know this is something that a lot of people are questioning at the moment, but I think I have one of the worst set of aspects possible to ever having children either biologically or adopted. It doesn't really matter which house system you use this is what I have.
I have Saturn (Gemini) opposite Moon (Scorpio), moon close to the mid-heaven and saturn either in the 3rd 4th or even 5th dependent on which system you use ( I take this to mean barriers within myself that restrict me from being a mother..In my case I put this off until I felt an emotionally and physically strong women and I could be a good mother, I had a difficult relationship with my mother she had me when she was very young and was not really emotionally ready, she suffered with depression and my grandparents took over the role as parents until my early teens. Hence the Saturn possibly in the fourth or my mother was more like a competitive sister when I was younger Saturn in the 3rd. I have no siblings.
I have since reconciled with my mother we have a great open and honest relationship she is very nurturing now and has been very supportive.
Lets look at the 5th House well depending on which system you use Mars Venus falls in Gemini either in the 4th or the 5th, ok that sounds good right
Twins, but no this is where the real nasty double whammy comes, Pluto in Virgo squares them both, it sits possibly on the cusp of the 7th or in the 8th house, This means more restrictions right, and this time its either the limitations of a relationship 7th House or worse 8th House death or financial.
This is true either of these could indicate my current situation, I am financially not in the best situation and I split up with my previous partner a few years ago he never seemed ready to make a commitment. My current partner has financial concerns and worries about my health, which is a possible issue. So there we are stalemate.
How does this effect adoption, well I'm not really sure, perhaps again I would be turned down because of financial issues, or perhaps my partner will not feel ready for that.
Ok, here some weird positive aspects that I can't interpret and not really sure if they have any relevance at all, but I stay positive and hope they do.
The Moon is close to the mid-heaven so this is extremely important to me to
be a mother and to be a great mother. (yeah and all the negative aspects to that are like some cruel joke)
Venus and Mars are trine Uranus, I have noticed this sometimes indicates a child through IVF or through unusual circumstances.
Also Pluto is also sextile moon which I don't really know what that means
it's a soft aspect so I guess it can't do a lot to over-ride the other negative elements. Pluto is also trine Saturn and I'm not really sure what that indicates either. I also have Path of fortune trine my moon as well. Path fortune is in Cancer. I used to be a very creative person I lost my confidence for a while in my artistic skills and it doesn't come easy some times, I wonder if this also has a lot to do with these aspects. However I have in the past been incredibly successful as an artist, so I do have the energies to overcome these negative views I find I do it through sheer hard work.
Looking at this bunch of horrible aspects can anyone see a way of working through these energies and coming out with a positive solution, at the moment I guess I have Saturn and plutos blinkers on and can't see anything but doom and gloom.
Any input would be truly helpful, I guess one indication I have seen is Fostering...6th House path of fortune Cancer...Working with children.
but I'm not sure this will ever fulfill the ambitions of that Moon sat on the 10th house with that need to build a family.
Right now I feel I have all this nurturing to give and I have been offering it to friends, family, strangers but I can't seem to get the energy to work for the things I want out of life and I wonder why I bother.