I would like some help on my chart regarding the decisions I plan to make...
I often hear people who live abroad how they knew/felt they were going to be living somewhere else.
I have always felt rather suffocated in my country, in this city, and really could not ever feel I fit in with the mentality of people here. I felt somewhere else would be better, like the place itself could be better towards me.
Every short trip I took outside of the borders I felt alive and breathing again, in my case that may be Venus in 3rd of short trips.
I know planets in 9th house are related to long distance travels and living abroad but particualy in my chart 9th is empty, only POF being there - meaning I could be really fortunate somewhere else.
With cusp being in Pisces, that would account for countries by the water - Spain, Portugal, if I am not mistaken. But it could also mean I am under illusion that life somewhere could be better
I was reading that aspects between 4th and 9th rulers are also to be considered regarding this - mine are Venus and Neptune, respectively and they form a square - could signify an inner conflict about leaving vs. staying?
One more thing to add - I once read that Saturn in 4th makes one unhappy in the place of birth and moving makes this Saturn influence less felt -but I also have my Sun there, which is why I feel connected to my roots even tho I am aware I am not good here, nor living up to my potential. I am ambivalent towards this, yes. If I were not, I would have probably find a way by now to leave somehow.
For a long time I am living an unproductive and depressed life, and thru years I had these dreams of leaving somewhere at least for a year, for postgraduate studies or something. I guess it could be seen as a wish to escape current realities, too
Back to astrology - Uranus is transiting my 9th at the moment, but with this opposition from Saturn I feel I should have acted on this earlier
I would really hope and be very thankful if someone could answer in simple terms - do you see any possibility that I will one day make something out of this dream, does my chart shows potential for living soemwhere else in the future?