Loneliness, love and struggling...

Akeru · #1 07-18-2012, 07:35 PM

Hello,

I am new here and need help. Since last year i developed interest in astrology but unfortunately did not have the time to learn all i needed.

Basically, i would greatly appreciate if someone can help me explain some of the following issues:

- permanent loneliness
- meeting someone for 1st time, intense relationship (2010) extremely painful break up
- 1 year later still struggling with severe depression, hopelessness, etc.

This is my natal chart. Does it show anything like.....hope....

I have been through a hard and painful transformational period (i guess it is due to Saturn in 5th house) but yet i see no light in the tunnel. My relations with family and friends have been worsening. I feel more than lost.
I will be grateful to anyone who looks into the chart and shares his/her opinion.
Thank you!

Caro · #2 07-19-2012, 07:38 AM

On the chart posted saturn is not in 5th house, it is in libra in the 11th house. Saturn is currently transiting that house.

moon in aqua in 3rd - maybe you need to pursue your hobbies and interest in astrology and meet new people that way.

Akeru · #3 07-19-2012, 07:45 AM

Yes, i meant that Saturn is currently transiting 5th house.
And maybe the Saturn`s return....i do not know.

Caro · #4 07-19-2012, 07:54 AM

Saturn is currently transiting libra too(not pisces or aries) so in your 11th house.(you have saturn in libra natally which is a good place to have it) could be why you are feeling lonely. as you are re-evaluating friendships. it will soon move into the 12th(oct time)

Akeru · #5 07-19-2012, 08:04 AM

Thank you, Caro, yes it might be...
But i was looking more for an answer to the more painful question - why have i always been alone? For 30 year i have had only one relationship that was destructive and brought me more negative experiences than positive ones. And will it always be like that...

Bina · #6 07-19-2012, 08:41 AM

Your difficulties with relationships could have something to do with Chiron closely conjunct your Descendant, Chiron also forms a yod pattern with Neptune in 1st and Pluto in 11th.

from http://www.aquarianage.org/west/planets/ch-nat01.html:

Chiron in Libra or the Seventh House: This placement indicates some kind of wounding or rejection related to relationships. Because this person is sensitized to the emotions and reactions of others, they may be quite sensitive and even psychic. They definitely need to learn grounding principles, and need to demark strong boundaries between themselves and their loved ones to prevent or stop a cycle of codependency or abuse. Unfortunately, they tend to define themselves through others, through those they relate to, and they are often disappointed when others do not rise to their expectations. They may find art and past-life therapy to be helpful in their personal and spiritual growth.

The following link gives a good description of Chiron in 7th house as well:

http://chirotic.wordpress.com/2008/0...houses-part-2/

and another Chiron link:

http://members.wizzards.net/~magyan/chiron.htm

The other aspect which can cause hardships in relationships is your Saturn inconjunct Venus, Venus also squares the Moon, while Saturn trines Moon. This whole pattern is linked to the Nodes, Saturn squaring Nodes, Venus sextile and Moon inconjunct NN. A complex pattern, possibly karmic. I suggest you read up about all these aspects and try and find out more. A great site for aspects:

http://members.wizzards.net/~magyan/aspects.htm

Your Saturn return last year would have triggered all the Saturn aspects in your chart, the whole pattern, possibly the reason for your difficult relationship.

Keep in mind all challenging aspects also have a positive potential when understood and integrated, it often just takes longer..

Akeru · #7 07-19-2012, 08:49 AM

Yes, Bina, thank you so much!
I have also read something about (Chiron) that but could not understand it.
I will go read further on that.
Hopefully this is surmountable....

Thank you!

beginner · #8 07-21-2012, 06:33 PM

saturn is not in ur 5th house, u can say that saturn is aspecting ur 5th house from 11th

Akeru · #9 07-21-2012, 06:47 PM

Beginner, that is pretty accurate in terms of my feelings. My ex started dating one of my friends immediately after the break up (why men always do that - my father cheated a lot, all of my male relatives too, talk about karma, i know)..... That was and still is one of the most hardest things i ever experienced.

Do you have any other observations?