Worst time around home ever...
I'm having quite a hard time at home now.My mom is quite emotinally imbalanced and nervous and sometimes,she just has some scary anger outbursts.When I was younger,the doctor prescribed her some pills because of her nervous,inconsistent behaviour;besides it,when I was born,my mom was diagnosed(I don't know if this is the proper word,hope you understand)with Lupus,so maybe that has made her even more nevrous and emotionally imbalanced.Since both Bipolarity and Schizophrenia run in her family,I fear that she might have one of those disorders as well...Sometimes,she even tries to attack my father.She just had one of those explosions last time when they where arguing about money.When my dad called me,she was about to hit him with a plate and she had already throwed a spoon at him.I felt very scared with that and told her that she needed to see a Psychiatric...She stared at me for a while,then said:"So do you!"Then I went to bed,and she appeared at my bedroom's door saying that she was not gonna give any money any more in my entire life(I actually don't know why she said that;I think it was just all her anger).Now,she doesn't talk to me(I mean,she talks to me when she wants to ask me to do somehting for her,but she always uses a very cold tone...)
I'm not worried about the money.It's the whole situation that bothers me.Just this year,my dad has already stopped talking to me because I impulsively said something that hurted him,although I still think he exagerated a lot.I told him I was sorry,but he still didn't talk to me during at least one month and half.My mothers sister had Bipolar disorder and she commited suicide last year,so I whenever my mom has one of her big emotional explosions I fear that she might do something without thinking about the consequences...
Actually my parents have had lots of this discussions when I was a little child,but my mom got a lot more calm and loving when my brother was born,by the time I was9years old.Now,she's getting worse again.I know my parents love me;I just think I can trust them or rely on them for emotional support.Usually,when my mom has her emotional explosions,I'm quite capable of getting back with life without letting it take control over me,but this time,whne she doesn't even talk to me,I'm begining to feel a little bit hurt...
I would like to know when this is gonna stop.I would also like to know if there's any indication of familiar problems in my birth chart,and what can I do to deal with my parents,or anything that says that my parents would split up...
I didn't know where to post this thread,so feel free to move it if you'd like(I don't know how to move a thread from one place to the other :S)
Thanks in advance..
All the best
(Forgot to mention I was born March17,1991,at 2:40AM in Oeiras,Portugal)
I was born with the wrong sign /In the wrong house /With the wrong ascendancy
Last edited by Lissa; 01-04-2007 at 07:55 PM.