Am I Crazy?

[Radyance]

Hello, if anyone would be so kind as to say a few words in response I'd appreciate any insight.
There are some things I've been struggling with my whole life and I've always wondered if these are reflected in my chart. I'm also wondering if there are other places in my chart that if I focused on could help me move past these certain bumps.
A big one is that no matter how amazing and compatible and in love I am with a person, I always feel trapped in my relationships. Even if founded or not I constantly feel like my self-expression is dampened because it seems threatening or misunderstood by my partner. I've always been in long term relationships, am currently in one I've had for 5 years that is still amazing BUT my sense of freedom is hampered. I have very intense energy that I feel like keeps building and building and no way to expend it without just going off the deep end. This includes sexual energy, creative energy, emotional energy, and mental energy, but it's like with everyone I've been with, the more I express it the more "Saturnian" they become, warning me of the perils of being wild and/or closing off and wounding themselves because I've been untactful and said the wrong thing. This is similar to how I feel in the world as well, so many ideas but not enough resources or help from other to get them off the ground. I feel like I keep coming up against brick walls and in the past used to procrastinate on EVERYTHING because I knew or felt I'd somehow be let down or let myself down by expecting too much out of myself and others.

How do I focus this crazy inner fire without burning the ones I love? Or am I just attracting the wrong people who can't handle it? The person I'm with has sun, moon, mercury, Venus, mars and Uranus in Scorpio 4th and 5th houses, Jupiter in Leo 1st house, cancer aacendant. And how do I get ahold of my earth energy and manifest my passions and ideas without them constantly being put on the back burner due to lack of resources? Also what does Jupiter being stationary mean?? I know this is a lot and imnot expecting miracles just hoping to gain some insight. There are other issues and I feel like they all tie in so if you have any thoughts on anything I haven't mentioned here please feel free to give your input on anything.

Here is link for chart because I can't upload it for some reason (hope that's ok?): http://m.flickr.com/#/photos/69528878@N06/6320789925/
Thanks so much

[Radyance]

I know I have no thumbnail of the chart and no chart in my qlbums but it's because I access this site from my phone and it won't allow me to upload pics

[capricorngrl]

Radyance post your info. DOB, time, and place. I will post a chart for you

[Radyance]

10:59 pm September 1st 1984 Tacoma Washington
Thank you!!

[capricorngrl]

No problem, you're welcome .

[capricorngrl]

I am not a pro and hopefully someone with more knowledge can give you more insight, but I can provide you with a hint of why you feel this way. You have the planet Uranus in your 7th house of partnerships. On top of that your 7th house is completely enclosed in Sagitarrius. Uranus is the planet of the unconventional and this says that you would need a partner that gives you room to breath and also is a friend and not just a lover. It being in Sagitarrius also adds to the need for freedom and independence. You have Mars in there and that also indicates the type of partner you are attracted to, so yes definitely a partner that will love freedom and adventure just as much as you do.

This probably explains why you feel trapped in your relationships. Just noticed that you also have your moon in Sagitarrius . The person you are with has a lot of personal planets in Scorpio. Scorpios are intense individuals who can be possessive, jealous and controlling with their loved ones. This doesn't mean that they are all that way, but it is something to think about. So while you want your freedom, they may want to keep you closer .

Your partners chart would have to be fully examined with yours in order to get an accurate reading of your relationship. What I provided you with is just a general idea.

[Inconjunct]

Originally Posted by Radyance

Hello, if anyone would be so kind as to say a few words in response I'd appreciate any insight.
There are some things I've been struggling with my whole life and I've always wondered if these are reflected in my chart. I'm also wondering if there are other places in my chart that if I focused on could help me move past these certain bumps.
A big one is that no matter how amazing and compatible and in love I am with a person, I always feel trapped in my relationships. Even if founded or not I constantly feel like my self-expression is dampened because it seems threatening or misunderstood by my partner. I've always been in long term relationships, am currently in one I've had for 5 years that is still amazing BUT my sense of freedom is hampered. I have very intense energy that I feel like keeps building and building and no way to expend it without just going off the deep end. This includes sexual energy, creative energy, emotional energy, and mental energy, but it's like with everyone I've been with, the more I express it the more "Saturnian" they become, warning me of the perils of being wild and/or closing off and wounding themselves because I've been untactful and said the wrong thing. This is similar to how I feel in the world as well, so many ideas but not enough resources or help from other to get them off the ground. I feel like I keep coming up against brick walls and in the past used to procrastinate on EVERYTHING because I knew or felt I'd somehow be let down or let myself down by expecting too much out of myself and others

To my mind, this sums up exactly that Moon, Mars, Uranus three way conjunction in the 7th. Interestingly, they all square your Sun in Virgo in the 5th, indicating tension, energy created as a result of that tension and all in the house governing your creativity. Couple this with a Gemini ascendant, which probably gives you a great deal of nervous energy, lack of concentration and makes you a huge social butterfly, it's not at all surprising that you can't settle.

How to focus this? Well, for my money, you couldn't do much worse than look to that Sun-Virgo placement and the conjunction with the retrograde Mercury. Now Sun-Virgo likes to classify, Mercury retrograde tends to turn their thinking inward - your post demonstrates a good degree of self-awareness which is what (among other things) I think this particular planetary combo could indicate. Keep working on that, but also perhaps find something that might absorb some of that mental energy, something that requires close attention to detail, something that really draws out that Virgo inside you. There's a sextile from the Sun to Saturn, one of the few aspects to that disciplining, grounding, brake-applying planet - again, use the opportunities presented to you to "be Saturnian", to encourage self-discipline, hard work, persistence and perseverance.

I hope that helps.

[astrologer50]

Gemini Asc (along with pisces) is probably one of the most difficult in childhood. I call gemini risers the 'why children' wearing parents down asking questions, why why why. How does this work, why does that do this? sometimes I think parents 'switch off' from constant questions and then the child feel alientated, misunderstood, bit like a square peg in round hole. does this resonate?

Gemini, pisces and libra are all rather similar, restless, procrastinating and indecisive. Gemini is notorious for sitting on the fence and not making decisions, if they can get away with it. I have a saying for librans,"they used to be indecisive, now they can't make their minds up!"