I was born July 2, 1955 at 9:42 P.M. EDT in Hagerstown, Maryland USA. I need some answers and have no money to pay a professional astrologer or psychic. Here is my story.
My father (born July 20, 1915 in Zullinger, PA) and mother (born March 20, 1921 near Chambersburg, PA) were married for 14 years before I was born. Very early in their marriage they had a son and a daughter. My brother (may 26, 1942) and sister (September 16, 1943) each lived only 3 hours. I too was born very premature (due August 22, 1955) and they almost lost me a few times in the early weks. All this made Mom and Dad very very over-protective and over-sheltering in ways that were not always good. I grew up with a lot of fears about the world around me.
School was very difficult for me as a child with some of my fears and my teachers' attitudes. I also grew up with a very strong fear of failure. Though I have now largely overcome them, my fears have over the years kept me from working and from really having a life.
I won't bore you with all the details but beginning in February, 2000 I have now had just over 13 years of absolute total living h--l of one thing after another and another and another back to back each thing as devestating and stressful as the stroke my had.
On top of that For 15 years from 1997 to 2012 I was primary caregiver for my parents and during most of that time caregiving made employment impossible. I am an only child and had no one to fall back on.
I lost Dad Fabruary 26, 2001. Mom was even then having significant health issues and told people were it not for me she would even then have been in a care facility like a nursing home. On April 24, 2008 Mom suffered a massive stroke that paralyzed her entire left side and caused swallowing problems. The nursing home provided extremely poor care. They refused to follow any of her stroke specialist's orders and even refused to regard them as being a doctor's orders. As a result her recovery was very poor. An independent therapist told us if the nursing home had followed her doctor's orders Mom would have made far more progress and had a much higher quality of life.
In August 2010 I brought Mom home from the nursing home and cared for her here at home. Hospice provided about 6 hours per week. I did all the rest. I lost Mom on October 10, 2012.
Now at almost 58 years of age I have no job, no income, I am years out of the job market, burned out, worn out, and stressed out from all I've been through. I now am faced with losing everything I have including my 3 pet cats and my home and of having nothing at all. Since Mom passed in October I have been trying to find a job, not easy at 57 or 58 and 15 years out of the job market, and so far I can't find anything. And I am burne, worn, and stressed out. Understandably there are times I just want it to all be over.
I have had some positive feelings about Jupiter's move now into Cancer and what that might mean for me. I look at what all I have been through for years and at what I now am facing and I say that somehow h--l has to end, it can't go on and get even worse. H--l has to end.
What does anyone see in my chart or what can anyone tell me? As I said, I do feel some hope with Jupiter's move into my natal sign of Cancer. I have also read some things about for example a Grand Water Trine and other astrological things in the end of June and through July.
What is the best positive way for me to work with energies such as Jupiter in Cancer and the other astrological things coming up? I really have had a very long very rough period of years. I'm not sure what to do or which way to go and I'm hoping astrology can provide at least a few answers. Many thanks to anyone and every one who can help me find some answers.
My father (born July 20, 1915 in Zullinger, PA) and mother (born March 20, 1921 near Chambersburg, PA) were married for 14 years before I was born. Very early in their marriage they had a son and a daughter. My brother (may 26, 1942) and sister (September 16, 1943) each lived only 3 hours. I too was born very premature (due August 22, 1955) and they almost lost me a few times in the early weks. All this made Mom and Dad very very over-protective and over-sheltering in ways that were not always good. I grew up with a lot of fears about the world around me.
School was very difficult for me as a child with some of my fears and my teachers' attitudes. I also grew up with a very strong fear of failure. Though I have now largely overcome them, my fears have over the years kept me from working and from really having a life.
I won't bore you with all the details but beginning in February, 2000 I have now had just over 13 years of absolute total living h--l of one thing after another and another and another back to back each thing as devestating and stressful as the stroke my had.
On top of that For 15 years from 1997 to 2012 I was primary caregiver for my parents and during most of that time caregiving made employment impossible. I am an only child and had no one to fall back on.
I lost Dad Fabruary 26, 2001. Mom was even then having significant health issues and told people were it not for me she would even then have been in a care facility like a nursing home. On April 24, 2008 Mom suffered a massive stroke that paralyzed her entire left side and caused swallowing problems. The nursing home provided extremely poor care. They refused to follow any of her stroke specialist's orders and even refused to regard them as being a doctor's orders. As a result her recovery was very poor. An independent therapist told us if the nursing home had followed her doctor's orders Mom would have made far more progress and had a much higher quality of life.
In August 2010 I brought Mom home from the nursing home and cared for her here at home. Hospice provided about 6 hours per week. I did all the rest. I lost Mom on October 10, 2012.
Now at almost 58 years of age I have no job, no income, I am years out of the job market, burned out, worn out, and stressed out from all I've been through. I now am faced with losing everything I have including my 3 pet cats and my home and of having nothing at all. Since Mom passed in October I have been trying to find a job, not easy at 57 or 58 and 15 years out of the job market, and so far I can't find anything. And I am burne, worn, and stressed out. Understandably there are times I just want it to all be over.
I have had some positive feelings about Jupiter's move now into Cancer and what that might mean for me. I look at what all I have been through for years and at what I now am facing and I say that somehow h--l has to end, it can't go on and get even worse. H--l has to end.
What does anyone see in my chart or what can anyone tell me? As I said, I do feel some hope with Jupiter's move into my natal sign of Cancer. I have also read some things about for example a Grand Water Trine and other astrological things in the end of June and through July.
What is the best positive way for me to work with energies such as Jupiter in Cancer and the other astrological things coming up? I really have had a very long very rough period of years. I'm not sure what to do or which way to go and I'm hoping astrology can provide at least a few answers. Many thanks to anyone and every one who can help me find some answers.