It is strange that whenever I wanted something really hard and I fought for it, it never happened; instead, I have received things that I didn`t even think about and they finally turned out really great for me..but they were not my dreams
Oh yeah!! I could've written this! Saturn square Neptune, that's exactly how I feel, that my dreams never come to happen, but I am pushed to places and events that I have never dreamed of, and yet, they turn out to be quite a blast! Thanks for the description, I never heard a better explanation of Saturn square Neptune.
Honestly, I don't know what we can do to take life in our hands!!! :rotflmao:
When I saw your Saturn, ruler of your 4th, I had this idea that maybe you are not supposed to structure a family life and retreat into that. not so soon. Maybe you are supposed to be in some other place and situation. if you retreat into family life and kids too soon, you might not accomplish everything you should.......
But your Saturn is not drowning in Neptune's sea, he's got a good friend, Uranus in 2nd house. I don't know how it works for you, but other people I saw with uranus in 2nd often receive money out of the blue from unexpected sources.... And maybe Saturn in sextile with Uranus can help you turn this money-making into a stable process, I mean, receiving money. Don't know how you'll make it, just throwing the ideas out there.
You could be a good fund raiser, who knows?
Now, I don't know how you'll find peace, that's a tough call, I'm still looking for peace for myself...
But I think your venus in midheaven indicates you might be a "social mother" somehow.... The 10th house indicates how we want to be known, the kind of thing we want to be acknowledged for. You have Cancer in MH, and Venus, which means you might be happy to shine in a maternal, domestic role. Which means you will have to combine a social standing and a motherly role. How do you do this? I don't know, ask Angelina Jolie!
Now, what I am trying to say: You might want to be involved with a different kind of motherly role. Instead of being a stay-at-home mom with kids, you might want to engage yourself with a larger group of people who take care of kids, or other people or creatures in need... That kind of thing.
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