Getting into the chart's aspect patterns is entirely too time consuming for me to do. I leave these to you to disect, however in regards to your Mars taking a beating, I'd be happy to go into this briefly.
I bet. But if you do have time sometime in the future, either short or long term, I would like to hear it; especially for a second view on the same information. I'll try to read up on this stuff, but I haven't had much success in finding a solid starting point.
A T-square is comprised of two planets in opposition that then go on to form a square to a third planet creating a trinangle. The planet that receives the squares (in your case this is Mars) becomes the outlet for the other two planet's opposition. Instead of the two planets in opposition duking it out with each other, they focus their attention on trying to get the apex planet to fix the situation and give them what they want.
Interesting...
How this works for you with these specific planets is that Jupiter tells Mars that whatever it does, it needs to do it big no matter what. And Mars being in one of the signs it rules, has no one telling him NOT to. No one can, because he's boss dog in Aries. From the other side, Uranus is encouraging Mars to take extreme risks and push the envelope. When Mars and Uranus get together, they are not thinking of anything but themselves and what they want and how to get it NOW. So you can see how these three planets making negative contacts to one another can create issues in your life. The houses effected are your 9th, 6th and 3rd houses. It looks like interruptions to early education, or unorthodox early education (Uranus in the 3rd) flies in the face of you receiving a higher education (Jupiter in the 9th) and comes out as thwarted advancement and movement in your job (Mars in the 6th). I encourage you to look into and explore these houses, as they are involved in 2 t-squares and are thus vitaly important to you.
I see the connection, but it might be in the wrong tense or wrong wording.
I didn't receive an unorthodox early education...unless you would consider kingergarden or learning advance mathematics (which is not much advance, just equivalent to mathematics many grades later) by the second grade to be unorthodox; I was always many grades ahead for my times, so in that sense, maybe unorthodoxed. I'm very moral driven and somewhat/quite conservative in many of these moral rulings.
I'm having issues in my higher education, but there are more due to medical reasons that a doctor quite overlooked or didn't understand. I'm going into aerospace engineering, and the **** I had to go through was by no means helping...for reasons directly anyways.
You are a Gemini with an Aquarian Moon, you definitely possess a fine mind, this doesn't mean though that you come off this way. Instead what you project is an attitude of "I know it all, already and I can't be bothered to hear what you have to say."
That is quite commonly said, that's for sure. lol. By half the population anyways...
This projection receives further boost from your Pluto on your Ascendant which makes for a very private person that expects full disclosure from other people.
I'm quite surprised that you would say that, as that is not exactly parallel but very similar to how I'm quite private but also quite expressive or needing to be with others; I don't like to be alone but definitely very internal. But again, I think "expecting full disclosure" is a lack of better words. But again (again), I can see somewhat ya...but somewhat nah.
Remember that Pluto is relentless and extremely powerful, so even when you are trying to sugar coat things, Pluto's power is very readily seen by others. It can be very intimidating and combined with your energetic and self involved t-square, can make people wary of your approach.
If legit, this might bring something to the table, especially if I'm being gudged in quite the mistakened aspects.
I did write overdue when i meant overdo.
Hehe.
You say you feel quite guilty and that your parents tend to play on this guilt. I'd consider the effects of your Chiron extremely revealing in this because Chiron in Cancer has everything to do with an inability to let go of our early conditioning and home environment. The strings to 'home' take a long while to be cut for these individuals and for you is exacerbated by Jupiter sitting in an exact conjunction to this.
Heh.
Pluto being the bucket handle of your overall chart pattern means that it is important. It stands alone in an area of the chart that you are not naturally focused on. Because of this, you (and others) notice it very readily, kind of like one person standing off by themselves away from the group.
but also that one person people are heading towards...
I think I know why you took an interest in Astrology.
Are you saying you have serious relationship issues or major family problems? Your chart suggests in your life the overall opposite (at least for relationships) and if you are facing such issues its because of progressions and/or transits suggesting such (I haven't looked to see if this is the case). Your 7th house ruler is dignified (you will have no problem getting mates) and your 4th house of family is not afflicted my any malefics in the chart and it aspects venus. Also, the moon which, represents family has no serious afflictions to it. The 4th house lord is moving into opposition to saturn so this might show any major problems.
I do have serious family problems and it is more then likely because of my parent's history trickling down on the rest of the family. There are things that they have gone through that impact much of their behaviour towards me. Let alone, throw in my OCD, which is another source my parents like to use in retaliation, in their minds anyways - thinking that this is a "war" or "game" of some sorts, what garbage - and the issues just deepen. It surely isn't a one-way street, it goes both ways, but you can't expect a child (when many of these issues developed) to have experience and or knowledge of an adult at such a young age...we are only human, we make mistakes.
The odd thing is, is that you are on to something. I've noticed, for a lack of better words without coming off of a self-righteous cow, that people gravitate towards me. I don't have any serious or long term enemies, and in-fact, many of these enemies still want to renew a friendship after everything that has happened. I can call these people everything under the sun and they'll still show up to my door. But frankly, I feel uneasy to renew such friendships for words I can't really describe right now; could be either of lack of trust, wanting to venture into the unknown, or feelings to start a new and, like Bon Jovi says, "I ain't going back to the pain."
People enjoy me, want to be around me, but only in the sense of a friendship. I have tried numerous times to develop a serious relationship and frankly, it has only caused heartache. It doesn't seem that anyone, in-fact, no one has ever said they "like me" in any means. Some of female friends like to state that they might feel intimidated, but I don't agree with that.
I am very family oriented, and that is probably the case why it has been so hard to leave the family. Furthermore, regardless of what my parents say, they still want to hold on to me. When I tell my mother that "the moment I'm free, I'm not coming back" she is illy effected; which tends to be the exact opposite that she tells me and others.
Thanks again for the comments. Hope to hear more from you guys.