I thought about starting a thread about Nep/Mars square,
but you beat me to it.
The best description about it I've seen in astrodients.
Here's a part of it;
"Your problem in life will be discouragement, which you will always have to fight.
At times you feel that everything works to defeat you and make you lose.
Everyone feels that way on occasion, but you seem to take it more seriously, as a sign of your own unworthiness.
Instead of just chalking up a defeat to experience, you condemn yourself."
Yeah, the story of my life!
Lately it's been causing me so much trouble that I've started to get depressed again.
It honestly feels like the universe is against me. It seems so stupid, but thats how I feel.
Example; I do something good and slowly after that, something horrible happens that has to do with that 'good' thing I've done.
It's so bloody unfair. Not to mention that this aspect is exact.
Im very good at controlling myself when Im out with people, talking and such...But when it comes to controlling my fears and such, it's IMPOSSIBLE. And because I have a strong Saturn/Pluto I have the need to be able to control everything about myself, and when I can't = anxiety.