Why wasn't I born first; why did he have to receive a mercury-laden vaccination in my stead? My parents never had reason to suspect anything amiss in their strong, healthy little boy until the day his routine immunization went horribly wrong.
There are no accidents Aquarian Maverick. Everything is chosen at a higher level for a variety of reasons..this is why I was so honest with in what I found. I think you need to let go of the guilt and tune into the higher purpose of your family situation.