I cannot thank you both enough for responding to my post with such compassion and insight...as you can imagine, this is a difficult topic for me. In some ways, I have been struggling to come to terms with my brother's condition for most of my life, searching for answers that seem far beyond my ability to comprehend. Why wasn't I born first; why did he have to receive a mercury-laden vaccination in my stead? My parents never had reason to suspect anything amiss in their strong, healthy little boy until the day his routine immunization went horribly wrong. I was not alive at the time, but I have been told that my brother (who was about two years old at the time) had a seizure and nearly died...what if I possess that same vulnerability in my genes?
Sometimes I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt for having escaped unharmed...I have been blessed with so many gifts, yet there was a time in which I wanted nothing more than to somehow dispose of the life which, had he been given the opportunity, my brother could have lived so freely. I will review both of your responses again (particularly all of those Sabian symbols) and see if something reveals itself to me. Thank you again!
I am inactive on the forums, for the time being.