Re: Am I scared for nothing?
Are you scared because something about death? Well, I`m not quite deep in solar returns as in other subjects, but I could tell you some things (if I`m wrong please someone correct me). I don`t think that many signs in your chart mean YOU`ll dia or something like that. I think it coulda happen that stuff like that would happen in your life. For example: someone with a similar chart: saturn retrograding in 12th and first house scorpius with ruler in 4th, had his grandparent died that year. And that was the most important situation in that person`s personal year.
About the feeling you have to prepare, I read that thre months before and three months after you birthday are the most powerful months of your return, which means you`ll have the most important feelings and tension at this time. Maybe you`re already starting to feel it.
I hope it was useful for you
"Stars do not force, they induce" (Saint Thomas)