Originally Posted by vannasan
I would like to know if having Mercury square MC can show problems with public speaking or speaking in a group, or communicating in general.
In your case, no.
I have my mercury in the first house, and it seems to be well-aspected except for the square to MC. In the first house I would think it would mean I would be an assertive speaker and would probably be good at communicating.
In contract, I never speak up in class or in public, even when I have questions or I'm confused because I know I will end up looking silly. If I do try to speak in public (maybe a presentation, or asking questions) as soon as I have the 'mic' my mind goes blank and the words out my mouth make no sense. Because of this I have social anxiety. This is especially weird because I have my MC in Libra, which should mean I would be a good speaker, or at least diplomatic (or is it charismatic?).
So anyone able to shed some light on this aspect, or know if it's easy to overcome. I will also post my chart, so someone can tell me if I'm missing another aspect.
*I've even joined a toastmasters group to help me get over it but...
This challenge has more to do with the condition of your Asc, your basic personality, which will unfold in the Saturnine way - slowly over time. You're still pretty young. And Mercury's conjunction with Neptune. This points to the need to first be very clear within your own mind about what you want to say. This means carefully plot through each word and each image in your mind that you want to portray. Write first. Then learn to speak.
Many great communicators - singers, soloists, orators, etc - have Mercury in angular aspect to the Asc/MC. Such hard aspects with Mercury create drive, tension to be resolved, challenges, a sense of urgency in delivering a message or in developing the ability for communicating. Don't worry that your ability isn't there yet. It is. Just develop it.
Practice at home. Write out what you want to say, first as if you are just writing for yourself. Then practice reading it in front of a mirror - or at first in front of a dead microphone. Maybe for a tape recorder. Get accustomed to the actions of speaking. Go through the motions. Then practice a speech with just family/friends in a totally accepting audience (small).
Don't try jumping right into something big or to speaking before strangers or any other possibly critical audience. Just practice writing and speaking what is important to YOU. Figure that out first. What feels important to you to say? What things do you feel passionate about? Focus more on the passion of what feels important and delivering it well. The audiences can come later.
The anxiety is coming from jumping in too fast. Just go more slowly and methodically. Practice privately to build your confidence.