Re: Mercury square Midheaven - problems communicating (especially in public)?
I think the thread also disappeared from my subscribed list when it got moved, as I did not realize there were so many answers.
Thanks for all the insight, and I can connect with them all for sure. I realized I had a moon sq. mars, but did not have agression issues from it. I actually shy away from expressing agression as Miquar pointed out. But with the Scorpio mars, sometimes if it is something that is attacking my values (Moon in 2nd H), it's almost as if my anger just smolders beneath the surface. Though most times I tend to forget what makes me angry and I'm not sure why this is.
LazarusX, I also like to write responses, rather than answering on the spot questions, because then I have time to mull it over and make sure my answers are what I want them to be. I also write poetry to express my feelings, somehow I can't express my feelings any other way. I joke with my sister that I may be aloof to my own feelings (Moon in Aquarius maybe?)
Waybread, I also need visual cues, like a powerpoint to remember what I need to say. But in some ways I find that if I use cue-cards or have a podium or anything inhibiting in front of me, it almost makes me more nervous. I feel that if I memorize something or have it on cards and I mess up then it's hard to find where I was, so now I tend to just remember a few key points then just play around with it when I'm in front of people, also that way it seems more like a conversation. BUT I'm still not comfortable, so it seems more like a contrived conversation, hehe.
tsmall & sandstone - I think your ideas about my problems stemming from Saturn in 12th are interesting. I had not really thought of this before, and can see it as a likely culprit. I had only thought about Saturn in relation to my Sun and Asc, and not being able to truly find myself, since Saturn was in 12th. It could well relate to my mercury and not being able to communicate the real me.
I wonder, what is it like for a Saturn return aspecting the 12th house?? Would it be heavily felt, or behind the scenes?
Waybread also mentioned Neptune, and I know that for a Capricorn, I daydream more than what I would like to consider "normal". I read once that the outer planets (Neptune, Uranus and Pluto) are beyond our control since saturn is as far as the ego can control. Is there any way I can control this Neptune, or make it work to my advantage?
Miquar - you mentioned something about Chiron in Gemini. Since Chiron shows where our wounds are and Gemini is about communication, would this also be an issue?