LoneStar
12-16-2007, 10:46 PM
Hello Everyone!
I am wondering if anyone can help me understand if the current period is a good time for me to be actively pursuing an intimate relationship? My progressed chart is what I'd like to use to help guide my course in the upcoming months.
One after another, I have had a series of relationships, all of which were meaningful and very passionate learning experiences, but something always got in the way of my staying long enough to establish a deep or lasting bond. And I think it was my natal Leo Saturn in the 7th.
I haven't met the right person yet, I feel, but I am wondering now if that person actually exists for me. The profoundly deep and lasting union is really what I want, even though it is a desire which feels deeply frustrated by so many other contradictory forces in my life at this point. Especially all the past hurts and "learning experiences" that have happened along the way.
I know perfection does not exist, but my heart tells me that I can have someone in this life to meet me at all levels. I've fallen in and out of love so many times in the pursuit of this ideal, and while I have learned so much from everyone and every experience I have ever been involved with, I also feel like I have suffered too many broken bonds and too much change to keep the flame of love's hope alive. I want to keep searching for that partner, because life seems meaningless without someone to love in my life everyday, but at this point, I honestly feel damaged by all the "losses" and change and disappointment I've suffered through. And now I'm having a hard time feeling courageous enough to express my love again.
I really feel strongly that with my recently passing Saturn Return, some very major transformations have occurred within me and I feel very much like a changed person. I feel I am in a whole new field of possibility, which is why I'm choosing to rely more on my Progressed Chart than my Natal Chart like I used to. I feel profoundly (and uncomfortably) alone for the first time in my life, and I really want to keep seeking someone to share the journey with, but not against all sensible odds. Transitting Chiron is on my Aquarius Ascendant now, which is another indication, I believe, of the feelings of hurt and isolation I am fighting against right now.
....What do you guys think?... Are the Cosmos telling me I should actually be alone for a while, or is that special someone just around the corner, praying to himself that I don't lose hope and wall myself off? Should I remain open to love's potential, or just call it quits?
Also, can a progressed chart indicate what sort of person or relationship I am likely to attract at this time? I ask because I'm not so sure I like the aspects to my Progressed Sun right now. Coupled with that Pluto and True Node and Vertex in the 7th and I don't know what to think... Looks like any relationship I get into it could be intense or destructive...??.
And one more question: does anyone know if a progressed chart can indicate the level of relationship I am currently capable of bringing into a situation? Where can I look to determine my current strengths and challenges in love?
Thank You!
I am wondering if anyone can help me understand if the current period is a good time for me to be actively pursuing an intimate relationship? My progressed chart is what I'd like to use to help guide my course in the upcoming months.
One after another, I have had a series of relationships, all of which were meaningful and very passionate learning experiences, but something always got in the way of my staying long enough to establish a deep or lasting bond. And I think it was my natal Leo Saturn in the 7th.
I haven't met the right person yet, I feel, but I am wondering now if that person actually exists for me. The profoundly deep and lasting union is really what I want, even though it is a desire which feels deeply frustrated by so many other contradictory forces in my life at this point. Especially all the past hurts and "learning experiences" that have happened along the way.
I know perfection does not exist, but my heart tells me that I can have someone in this life to meet me at all levels. I've fallen in and out of love so many times in the pursuit of this ideal, and while I have learned so much from everyone and every experience I have ever been involved with, I also feel like I have suffered too many broken bonds and too much change to keep the flame of love's hope alive. I want to keep searching for that partner, because life seems meaningless without someone to love in my life everyday, but at this point, I honestly feel damaged by all the "losses" and change and disappointment I've suffered through. And now I'm having a hard time feeling courageous enough to express my love again.
I really feel strongly that with my recently passing Saturn Return, some very major transformations have occurred within me and I feel very much like a changed person. I feel I am in a whole new field of possibility, which is why I'm choosing to rely more on my Progressed Chart than my Natal Chart like I used to. I feel profoundly (and uncomfortably) alone for the first time in my life, and I really want to keep seeking someone to share the journey with, but not against all sensible odds. Transitting Chiron is on my Aquarius Ascendant now, which is another indication, I believe, of the feelings of hurt and isolation I am fighting against right now.
....What do you guys think?... Are the Cosmos telling me I should actually be alone for a while, or is that special someone just around the corner, praying to himself that I don't lose hope and wall myself off? Should I remain open to love's potential, or just call it quits?
Also, can a progressed chart indicate what sort of person or relationship I am likely to attract at this time? I ask because I'm not so sure I like the aspects to my Progressed Sun right now. Coupled with that Pluto and True Node and Vertex in the 7th and I don't know what to think... Looks like any relationship I get into it could be intense or destructive...??.
And one more question: does anyone know if a progressed chart can indicate the level of relationship I am currently capable of bringing into a situation? Where can I look to determine my current strengths and challenges in love?
Thank You!