I found the cure to Social Anxiety Disorder :)

[FishNChips62]

I had previously written that the CAUSE of SAD was lack of taking responsibility for one's own life and principally..Immaturity. All this has been deleted. Reason: My mom told me all these things that I was just being too immature. but that wasn't it. I thought it was. But it wasn't...I liked to believe it--- I had pleasure believing what she told me because it gave me an excuse to deny myself real responsibility. The truth is, I am truly responsible for everything that's been going on to me, and it was too painful to realize this all too quickly. Blaming it on other people just seemed totally off and so that's why I kept looking for answers.. The real reason for my Social Anxiety "Disorder" is just .. ::sigh:: I CAN"T for god's sake admit that i have human needs!!! I CAN'T admit that i need love and feel bad sometimes, and do need a hug sometimes, I can't admit it, and I can't admit I like someone and that i need love from my father, and that I need attention and want to be funny, and that I love telling stories, and love guys, and especially love being with my friends!! and that I want people to notice me!!. I can't admit all these things and that has been the problem all along!! "you can outrun that which is running after you, but not that which is running within!" --and it's so true.I've been trying to avoid my humanVERY human needs and wants...and Well OMG--I just....*cry*. *Grows silent* I just don't understand really why i can't admit it to myself... This is the cure to all of my worries and whatnot when it came to social situations..i was..am scared of people seeing my HUMAN needs...I think i might be too "PROUD" to admit them. I have a scoprio asc and 3 signs in leo and and well i'm a caner and what else can i say I don't KNOW, but especially i have the moon in leo which makes sense of it all. "Too proud to reveal human needs." According to a karmic reading people with leo moons were satisfied to the Leo extreme {aka in the leo way} in their moon/emotions. But this makes sense..b/c now piecing it all together i get this feeling that I was allowed to feel Like a Leo in a past life and ...And SO! I feel that somehow, I was allowed to get carried away with the idea that i was "superior" to others [this would be in not having human needs of my won..and in that way being "superior" than humans, or at least pretending i was..] and that this happened because other people catered to me and whatnot. And now I still think it's all about me..and get pouty because i feel i deserve all these things, without needing to express any human needs of my own. Because expressing them would equal weakness to me! Does anybody have any advice for me? And also does anyone have any thoughts on this? Why do you think people still stay with the Leo signs in their chart in the next life? Is it only for the purpose of getting rid of them? Actually....I think only people with a nn in the opposite sign would have that soulpath, because mine is in Aquarius! Well this is all making great sense. I kind of feel that none of you have helped much lol. This has all been done by myself..and the truth is seems to be that only i can help myself int he end b/c i'm the only one who really knows what's goin on. Wait, a minute, I don't wanna stop there yet. My north node is in the 4th that makes sens..Capricorn Vs. Cancer...letting our wekanesses show more, totally makes sense. But thtne how does my nn also in 5th house support all this? Also..It has to do with taking hold of my own needs as an individual, insetad of just letting them flow away while melding witht he group too much. GREAT! It all makes sense ot me now! Anyway, i do very much hope any of this helps any of you. Thanks very much for your time!

If any of you need any more help with SAD, I have written more things on my Myspace blog, here. http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&friendID=2252888

If any of you need any help, or are just even slightly confused about anything to do with sad, please let me help, I think i can give you some advice..and I'd love to do specifically for any problem you have. Don't use the computer as an excuse for hiding like I've been doing. I want to help anyone out there who is confused like i have been, Please! Thank you.. God bless you all!

[FishNChips62]

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people the right to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

TRIPLE four hundred five ..thousand.. Amens to that my brother!

p.s. Don't confuse not feeling more important or better than someone with shrinking. People like when you act like you are just like them and just have something to share with them..and not any better or more special than them. People enjoy your company the most when you make them feel like their equal and you make them feel like the beauty in you could just as easily be inside of them. In my opinion, life is about uniting souls and helping people...not "contributing" to the world only to please our egos. It is in getting over our own importance that we feel most satisfied :). Like they say, it is lonely at the top!

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[FishNChips62]

A Spiritual Interpretation of Scorpio Rising

CafeAstrology.com

"You have already taken a few steps on the spiritual path, and you have dedicated your life to your spiritual nature to some degree. The intense desire nature within you continues, however, to pull you toward the physical expression. You constantly find yourself at a turning point between pursuing a material desire and following a more spiritual inclination.

You have the capacity for major changes in your life. Others may find your decisions remarkable, as you can take a 180 degree turn with relative ease. Each of these major shifts brings you closer to understanding the unfolding plan of your spiritual life. At this time you may appear to be motivated only by material desires, but each turning takes you further on the spiritual path. If you look back, you can see that your decisions have all blended into one direction. You see the logical unfolding of spirit woven into seemingly disjointed actions and decisions.

First you test your physical appetites with food, sexual desire and physical comfort. These may become rather boring. Ambition and the desire for power increase the emotional thrill and the momentary pay-off. At the third stage you tackle mental challenges of spiritual pride. If you can transcend all three levels, you then function from a more spiritual base. You cease to seek physical emotional and mental thrills for their own sake, and use your personal power to transform your own life and to help others.

You face a tall order if you are to make spiritual progress. You need to remember your own beginnings as you seek success in any of your endeavors, spiritual or otherwise."