madsketcher
07-11-2007, 03:42 PM
Hi all,
I am seeking some assistance to bring further light to a subject. There is the issue of my natal chart, which has like a zillion oppositions/squares. One of them that seems to be prominent is my Pluto (1st house) square to Mars (4th house). I have a lot of opposition in life – more recently lots of secret/occult opposition. But there is also some occult help. My story is vast but I won’t go into it. To make things brief, I’d rather just go to the present. I’m suspicious that my roommate “chose” me to live with him (though it was me who answered his ad) and I’m not entirely sure what his intentions are outside of psychologically screwing with my head. I have met plenty of his friends; he is in some sort of a circle. But it’s very hush hush. How do I know? You tend to pick things up after a year. There may be intentions to help there, I sense… but you cannot have your cake and beat it, too!
My birth info:
12/26/80
Chicago IL
11:29 pm
Roommate’s info:
Kurt
9/9/68
Flushing, NY
8:10 am
An abridged natal comparison on astro.com reveals that we can grow to seriously hate each other (ego conflicts) and I’m afraid it’s close to that point, though I am not a hateful guy. He, on the other hand, has some dark power in his chart. I sense that he sometimes is jealous and threatened of me (He’s got Mars in Leo – ugh), so would rather put me in the part of “that silly stupid weird drawin’ guy who I can show off to my friends like some sort of pet” – he works with autistic people and often “jokes” around that I may be autistic, because I’m a bit of a clown… and a bit slow at times, but come on. He’s an art historian who I feel does not like that I have not studied art in a traditional sense (at least historically).
His best friend (his former roommate and co-worker) is even worse in that she makes a concerted effort to not talk to me about my art or even acknowledge it. She’s seen plenty of it and has been in my room several times. She goes to museums so it is no excuse! She doesn’t seem to see me as a real person, but rather projects an image of some kind of animal on me. Our interactions are always casual, even superficial, but I eventually get comfortable enough to express myself around her… I don’t think she knows how to deal with me expressing that I am in fact an intelligent, real person around her. So if I start bringing myself out around her, I will usually keep it light and airy… but that’s not enough for her. If I were start talking about deeper subject matter, she’d find another reason to discount my personality. She really likes avoiding my creativity! On the flipside she has a very warm energy when she is around. Guess it’s a moody Cancer thing. She claims to know nothing of astrology, yet has a Cancer tattoo on her. She told me she was a Sagittarius during the “roommate screening” process. She is heavily medicated for depression. These people just confuse me.
Her info:
Brittany
7/7/80
Pittsburgh, PA
Time unknown but I used midnight
Should I move away from Kurt? Just cut him off completely? I make it an obvious point that I do not even like talking to him anymore. It’s pretty clear, and I think he may try his best to win me back (because he is eerily magnetic), but for more ridiculing? No thanks. If there is one thing I can’t stand, it is being laughed at or lied to – especially simultaneously. This guy has major issues and I don’t think anyone will ever see who he really is… not even me. But I’ve seen enough!
A side note: Is it paranoid to think he calculated our roommate cycles? After I moved in, we had a male aries, then a female aries… and then a female Gemini, and now a male Gemini. These people seemed very agent-like, except the new guy because I can’t get a feel of him. The apartment we live in is an occultist’s wet dream, with not one centimeter of space that isn’t filled with something (he owned an antique shop). There is even an illustration of a freemason on our bathroom wall, giving that ol’ secret society salute with his index/pinky fingers. Since 2004 I have had open encounters with occultists and even found out that one of the people close to me was involved in the occult last year – though I’m not sure what I was to her, exactly. It seems to be a theme with me. Surrounded by secrets! Before you ask me about paranoia, I’d just like to say that these secret people are a minority as far as the bigger picture is concerned (with my life). I’m cheerful. I do have real friends and loving family members. I’m coming into my own power, but I still am curious about the depth that these charts may signify. I’m not an expert at astrology by any stretch of the imagination.
I suspect that a major factor in this treatment is that I have some kind of MS/muscle fatigue/neurological condition. Physically, it’s not that noticeable. It does cause cognitive difficulties at times. The doctors say that they can’t find anything… I’ve had EEGs, Cat Scans and everything else… yet nothing is detected, though something is there. I felt sorry for myself for a couple of years, but that is way gone at this point. The problems with these people stem around this, coupled with my disregard for so many rules. I’m being laughed at for it! It’s also carefully crafted, though. Sometimes when I get a ring in my ears around Kurt and poke around in there, he’ll immediately follow me and do the same thing. And once I had a strange, artificial sort of itching feeling on my stomach. A few minutes later, he came home and declared what a strange sensation he had on his stomach while scratching himself. I don’t know what other types of magic are used, but lots of weird stuff goes on around here. After I posted about him in another astrology thread, I found my white Hyundai covered in brown splatter at the metro parking lot – while the cars surrounding it were completely spotless. And even our neighbors (with their fairy books and whatnot) seemed to be “in” with him.
And one more thing... does anyone see any psychic ability in my chart? I get flashes/dreams sometimes but I never realize what's going on until later. I'd like to work to develop these powers and I don't know how much work I will actually need. Okay, enough… any thoughts? Thank you.
And one more thing - any active psychics on the board? I'd like to consult with a few if possible. Please refer me to anyone reliable. Thanks!
I am seeking some assistance to bring further light to a subject. There is the issue of my natal chart, which has like a zillion oppositions/squares. One of them that seems to be prominent is my Pluto (1st house) square to Mars (4th house). I have a lot of opposition in life – more recently lots of secret/occult opposition. But there is also some occult help. My story is vast but I won’t go into it. To make things brief, I’d rather just go to the present. I’m suspicious that my roommate “chose” me to live with him (though it was me who answered his ad) and I’m not entirely sure what his intentions are outside of psychologically screwing with my head. I have met plenty of his friends; he is in some sort of a circle. But it’s very hush hush. How do I know? You tend to pick things up after a year. There may be intentions to help there, I sense… but you cannot have your cake and beat it, too!
My birth info:
12/26/80
Chicago IL
11:29 pm
Roommate’s info:
Kurt
9/9/68
Flushing, NY
8:10 am
An abridged natal comparison on astro.com reveals that we can grow to seriously hate each other (ego conflicts) and I’m afraid it’s close to that point, though I am not a hateful guy. He, on the other hand, has some dark power in his chart. I sense that he sometimes is jealous and threatened of me (He’s got Mars in Leo – ugh), so would rather put me in the part of “that silly stupid weird drawin’ guy who I can show off to my friends like some sort of pet” – he works with autistic people and often “jokes” around that I may be autistic, because I’m a bit of a clown… and a bit slow at times, but come on. He’s an art historian who I feel does not like that I have not studied art in a traditional sense (at least historically).
His best friend (his former roommate and co-worker) is even worse in that she makes a concerted effort to not talk to me about my art or even acknowledge it. She’s seen plenty of it and has been in my room several times. She goes to museums so it is no excuse! She doesn’t seem to see me as a real person, but rather projects an image of some kind of animal on me. Our interactions are always casual, even superficial, but I eventually get comfortable enough to express myself around her… I don’t think she knows how to deal with me expressing that I am in fact an intelligent, real person around her. So if I start bringing myself out around her, I will usually keep it light and airy… but that’s not enough for her. If I were start talking about deeper subject matter, she’d find another reason to discount my personality. She really likes avoiding my creativity! On the flipside she has a very warm energy when she is around. Guess it’s a moody Cancer thing. She claims to know nothing of astrology, yet has a Cancer tattoo on her. She told me she was a Sagittarius during the “roommate screening” process. She is heavily medicated for depression. These people just confuse me.
Her info:
Brittany
7/7/80
Pittsburgh, PA
Time unknown but I used midnight
Should I move away from Kurt? Just cut him off completely? I make it an obvious point that I do not even like talking to him anymore. It’s pretty clear, and I think he may try his best to win me back (because he is eerily magnetic), but for more ridiculing? No thanks. If there is one thing I can’t stand, it is being laughed at or lied to – especially simultaneously. This guy has major issues and I don’t think anyone will ever see who he really is… not even me. But I’ve seen enough!
A side note: Is it paranoid to think he calculated our roommate cycles? After I moved in, we had a male aries, then a female aries… and then a female Gemini, and now a male Gemini. These people seemed very agent-like, except the new guy because I can’t get a feel of him. The apartment we live in is an occultist’s wet dream, with not one centimeter of space that isn’t filled with something (he owned an antique shop). There is even an illustration of a freemason on our bathroom wall, giving that ol’ secret society salute with his index/pinky fingers. Since 2004 I have had open encounters with occultists and even found out that one of the people close to me was involved in the occult last year – though I’m not sure what I was to her, exactly. It seems to be a theme with me. Surrounded by secrets! Before you ask me about paranoia, I’d just like to say that these secret people are a minority as far as the bigger picture is concerned (with my life). I’m cheerful. I do have real friends and loving family members. I’m coming into my own power, but I still am curious about the depth that these charts may signify. I’m not an expert at astrology by any stretch of the imagination.
I suspect that a major factor in this treatment is that I have some kind of MS/muscle fatigue/neurological condition. Physically, it’s not that noticeable. It does cause cognitive difficulties at times. The doctors say that they can’t find anything… I’ve had EEGs, Cat Scans and everything else… yet nothing is detected, though something is there. I felt sorry for myself for a couple of years, but that is way gone at this point. The problems with these people stem around this, coupled with my disregard for so many rules. I’m being laughed at for it! It’s also carefully crafted, though. Sometimes when I get a ring in my ears around Kurt and poke around in there, he’ll immediately follow me and do the same thing. And once I had a strange, artificial sort of itching feeling on my stomach. A few minutes later, he came home and declared what a strange sensation he had on his stomach while scratching himself. I don’t know what other types of magic are used, but lots of weird stuff goes on around here. After I posted about him in another astrology thread, I found my white Hyundai covered in brown splatter at the metro parking lot – while the cars surrounding it were completely spotless. And even our neighbors (with their fairy books and whatnot) seemed to be “in” with him.
And one more thing... does anyone see any psychic ability in my chart? I get flashes/dreams sometimes but I never realize what's going on until later. I'd like to work to develop these powers and I don't know how much work I will actually need. Okay, enough… any thoughts? Thank you.
And one more thing - any active psychics on the board? I'd like to consult with a few if possible. Please refer me to anyone reliable. Thanks!