Arian Maverick
06-18-2007, 03:47 PM
Hello everyone.
I apologize that I have not been as active as I once was on the forums, but I had my senior prom on Friday and am preparing for graduation next week. However, amidst of all this change and business, I have returned due to a personal loss in my family, that of the first pet I ever had--my almost-twelve-year-old black Labrador Retriever, whom my mother took to the veterinarian office this morning and was faced with the painful decision of whether to put her through the trauma of surgery, which the veterinarian thought she was unlikely to survive due to her four arthritic limbs and neck as well as her highly accelerated heart rate, or put her to sleep. My mother chose the latter, for we loved her so much that we could not bear to see her suffer any more than necessary.
I am not seeking condolences from the community; I know I am supported here, and words do not mean much to me now, anyway. However, since I have not yet had the time to come to terms with my beloved dog's death and do not possess the mental clarity needed to examine any transits I am currently undergoing in detail, I would put my Arian pride and independence aside and ask for help. Emotions have always been slippery business with my natal Moon conjunct my Ascendant, but oddly enough, I've always taken news of death pretty well; I knew when I left for school this morning that I would not see her again, although she was displaying some signs of increased health. I accept her decision to leave this plane of existence, and I thank her for her service. However, I still wish to understand how her death fits in with the grander scheme of astrology--possessed with the inner knowing that she would be put down today, I calmly requested that my mother record the moment of her last breath. I do not yet have this information, for my mother left the dog with my uncle so she could pick me up for lunch and tell me the news, yet she told me that she made the same request of him and I hope he remembered. He may not, for even I forgot to check the time in my anxiousness to hear the outcome which I intuitively knew from my mother's lips, yet I think I could create a chart with an accuracy within five minutes of when I first heard the news. This may not be incredibly important to understand transits, but I am appealing to my Virgo South Node to help me cope.
Any help or insight would be greatly appreciated. Thank you all in advance.
Arian Maverick
I apologize that I have not been as active as I once was on the forums, but I had my senior prom on Friday and am preparing for graduation next week. However, amidst of all this change and business, I have returned due to a personal loss in my family, that of the first pet I ever had--my almost-twelve-year-old black Labrador Retriever, whom my mother took to the veterinarian office this morning and was faced with the painful decision of whether to put her through the trauma of surgery, which the veterinarian thought she was unlikely to survive due to her four arthritic limbs and neck as well as her highly accelerated heart rate, or put her to sleep. My mother chose the latter, for we loved her so much that we could not bear to see her suffer any more than necessary.
I am not seeking condolences from the community; I know I am supported here, and words do not mean much to me now, anyway. However, since I have not yet had the time to come to terms with my beloved dog's death and do not possess the mental clarity needed to examine any transits I am currently undergoing in detail, I would put my Arian pride and independence aside and ask for help. Emotions have always been slippery business with my natal Moon conjunct my Ascendant, but oddly enough, I've always taken news of death pretty well; I knew when I left for school this morning that I would not see her again, although she was displaying some signs of increased health. I accept her decision to leave this plane of existence, and I thank her for her service. However, I still wish to understand how her death fits in with the grander scheme of astrology--possessed with the inner knowing that she would be put down today, I calmly requested that my mother record the moment of her last breath. I do not yet have this information, for my mother left the dog with my uncle so she could pick me up for lunch and tell me the news, yet she told me that she made the same request of him and I hope he remembered. He may not, for even I forgot to check the time in my anxiousness to hear the outcome which I intuitively knew from my mother's lips, yet I think I could create a chart with an accuracy within five minutes of when I first heard the news. This may not be incredibly important to understand transits, but I am appealing to my Virgo South Node to help me cope.
Any help or insight would be greatly appreciated. Thank you all in advance.
Arian Maverick