Please help....going under!!

[Ifwhen]

Hello. I have been researching my chart, in an amateurish way, for a year or so but am struggling to find the positives in it. I have been going through a really tough time recently - lots of introspection, unable to find any inner peace and feel as if I have to come to terms with my destiny - whatever that is! It doesn't feel as if it includes a positive long term relationship - nothing in my 7th house - and that is hard to deal with as it is something I would love to have. I've just come out a relationship and am struggling with not being able to let go of it, which is a repeating pattern. I do think my chart is a hard one - and wonder why me? What is it I am supposed to do to make the best of it? Any help would really be appreciated as life doesn't feel so good right now.

http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?lang=e&gif=astro_2gw_01_fiona.77152.30126.gif&res=100&va=&cid=napfilebFSVSz-u1336600301

[Chalk]

One thing I do know about Taurus is that is hard to let go. They are very stubborn since they are a fixed sign. The one lesson here is to learn to let go and move forward.
Life Purpose -
True Node in Virgo in 9th house.
Your Life Purpose is founded on Order and is directed towards Exploration. A tendency to avoid dealing with the details and practicalities of everyday life, to lead a rather haphazard and unorganized existence, to avoid formulating clear goals, and to put too much faith in a grand plan while neglecting practical concerns are some of the issues this position suggests. With this position, we need to work on developing some healthy and practical routines and schedules. Otherwise, we may be victim of vague worries and anxieties. Winging life is fine to an extent, but without clear goals and some orderliness, we can easily feel like we are not in control of our lives. With this position, we have great compassion for others. Taken too far, however, we risk getting used. Our goal should be to establish limits for others and ourselves, to develop a more focused mind and orderliness that will empower us with confidence in ourselves and our lives, to develop systems that will help us to be more productive, and to pay attention to deadlines, details, and rules that will enrich our lives. By structuring our lives, we will be able to come closer to achieving our dreams.
A tendency to be overwhelmed by information overload, to be mentally over-stimulated to the point of not being able to make effective decisions, to be bound by logic and swamped in details at the expense of our intuition, and to miss the "big picture" are some of the issues this position suggests. With this position, it can be difficult to commit ourselves to any one thing. We need to learn to trust our inner guide—our intuition—in order to uncover more meaning to our lives. Our decisions tend to lead us astray, as we rely too heavily on logic and miss out on the exciting adventures generated from the thrill and satisfaction of following a hunch or a vision. We need to allow ourselves to believe in something that doesn't necessarily make sense, but that frees us from mental anxiety and stress. When we don't commit ourselves to something, we run the risk of appearing superficial or flighty to others. Worst of all, the passion of true discovery eludes us, and we cannot feel whole or satisfied. When we don't have the faith to know who we are and what we believe, even without knowing, we will never come across as sincere or truthful. We cannot inspire others to have faith in us when we do not have faith in ourselves. When we act bravely and impulsively, working on intuition and faith, we free ourselves from the inner turmoil of doubt and too much logic, and find an inner balance that enriches our lives and our souls.

[gen6k]

repost chart.

[Ifwhen]

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Apologies - didn't realise it expired!

[situla88]

Save your chart to your computer or upload it to an image hosting site like photobucket or imageshack. Imageshack is easy and self-explanatory..you should be able to repost your chart from there without it expiring.

:smile:

[Ifwhen]

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Thanks for the tip - I'm not very technically minded!

[Ifwhen]

Thank you so much Chalk. This is so me! I do really struggle with knowing what us intuition as I over think everything. Does the reality of the North Node lesson get activated at a certain point in one's life? In the last year I have become so aware of having lived my life to date in a disordered way and that I need to do things differently - it's been an uncomfortable ride.

[Chalk]

Thank you so much Chalk. This is so me! I do really struggle with knowing what us intuition as I over think everything. Does the reality of the North Node lesson get activated at a certain point in one's life? In the last year I have become so aware of having lived my life to date in a disordered way and that I need to do things differently - it's been an uncomfortable ride.

Here is a link for you. I hope you find this information helpful.
The North Node of the Moon is also a very important indicator. The North Node is activated when someone important comes into our life, and is associated with finding a soul mate. If you or your partner's North Node connects with a personal planet in the other chart, this is a very strong clue that you could be soul mates. So you can see there is much more to finding your soul mate than simply the sun sign. If you are not too confident of finding your soul mate through astrology yourself, have your charts checked out by a professional astrologer.
http://www.doityourself.com/stry/findsoulmate#b