learning to let go...

[hvnlystarz]

hello everyone :) i am so glad i found this site!!! it seems like one of the biggest with a lot of posting daily- which seems hard to find. i enjoy reading everyone's questions- and hope that one day after i advance in my astrology studies i am able to write and answer people's questions :)

my question is about the man in my life. we are on a 'break' right now- and i am wondering if we are meant to be. i feel that in my life right now i am being asked to learn to let go- but is it of him? or just of outdated beliefs and attitudes that hinder our relationship with eachother?

i have had two astrology sessions with different astrologers who gave me entirely different readings :( one said he was indeed my soulmate and really, really good for me- and the other said he wasn't the one for me and that it would be over by this summer. i don't know why i could get two very different readings like that- but i did.

personally i feel we are karmically linked from past lives (which i believe in). there is a sense of belonging that i have been fighting to be honest- and have been able to connect with in our time apart (since jan 21st). it would be sad to only come to realize this and then have it be over :(

any advice and insight into our charts would be much appreciated :) i also wrote a post on the medical horary board about grad school vs. having kids- in case anyone knows about pregnancy transits. obviously having kids won't happen if we don't work out- but if we do then it's a pressing issue. that post is listed under 'in a quandry'.

i will attach our charts here and also include our birth data.

thank you!!!

me:
6/24/1978
11:48pm
san francisco, ca

him:
7/18/1964
5:54am
hanover, new hampshire

[wilsontc]

hvnlystarz,

You said:
i have had two astrology sessions with different astrologers who gave me entirely different readings

And here is yet another astrologer with yet ANOTHER reading. Choose which one you want! Ask enough astrologers and you just might get the answer you are looking for! ;)

Since you have very few connections between you to the Personal planets (Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, and Mars), there is not much of a "personal" connection between you. There is also a STRONG possibility of anger, since between you you have Uranus (friends, also rebellion) conjunct (energy is combined with) Mars (being, also anger), Saturn (duty, also restriction) opposite (energy is over-excited by) Mars, and Pluto (transformation, also control) opposite Mars. "Who's the boss" struggles are also likely with your Saturns in opposition.

I don't believe in "soulmates" since that implies that relationships just kind of "work out" or don't "work out". In reality, relationships take a LOT of work. And this one may take more work than many other relationships! ;) But if you both REALLY want to make this work out, you can! :)

Happy relating,

Tim

[rahu]

hi starz,
the composite chaert shows a venus/sun conjunction in camcer opposed to the moon.this shows a very loving,emotional/sexual interaction. uranus is square this conjunction giving a more intense sexual/emotional experience,but uranus also indicates a unstable relationship.it is very intense but it does not last.with uranus square the moon[you] there is a almost "psychic" feel tothe relationship.chiron is also square to the venus/sun conjunction,this is a much more critical aspect,it indicates that for all the good times ,there is always a harchly critical appraisal of you that brings you down to earth.saturn is opposed to neptune,whcih can indicate that there is not complete openess and it can show hidden feeling or deceit.it also many times shows that meds/alcohol are part of your relationship.pluto/mars midpoint is T square saturn and neptune.this brings a very malicious tone to the relationship.there is a controlling sexual energy.there is deception and there is control.this is a very mean streak which attacks your self esteem.the saturn /pluto midpoint is conjunct the sun/venus conjunction,so even the love of the venus element is brought down to control and depression.
the sun/uranus and venus/uranus midpoints are on the nadir.this indicates that the sexual/emotional intensity is the sustaining quality of the relationship.simply put,it feels so good that you put up with all the negatives because of the sexual/emotional completeness you feel.this relationship has such high and lows that it must be considered a bipolar relationship.the problem is that you are the one taking the emotional brunt of this insanity.
break it off and regroup.you will need time to heal yourself after you get away.

rahu