Will I see my father again

[Neptune Rising]

Hi

My relationship with my father has never been steady. I last saw him over 10 years ago, that was a volcanic parting! Before that I saw him rarely, once a year since my parents divored when I was 5.

I think of him and sometimes wonder if I should try and get in touch again. I am hesitant though, painful fear of rejection. He is in touch with my mum, her sisters, my stepdad, everyone except me it seems. I look at our synastry chart, his Saturn conjunct my soutn node on my Descendant. I am wondering if that means we will be permamently seperated in this life, if that is the way it is meant to be?

This is what the synastry looks like:

http://img376.imageshack.us/img376/2591/synastrydadmedd8.th.gif (http://img376.imageshack.us/my.php?image=synastrydadmedd8.gif)

I'd appreciate any views.


Neptune

[starlink]

Dear Neptune, I feel that you would really like to meet and see your father again and that is a very natural thing. If he is in contact with your mother, even stepdad! and your aunts, what keeps you from writing him a letter and just tell him that you so much would like to have contact, even if it is only by writing, with him. I dont think he will reject that, why would he? He does not even reject your mom. He maybe has no idea how to approach you. Give it a go. Have you spoken to your mother about this? I wonder what she has to say about it. The Nodes show how you relate to your environment, past and future karma (dharma). The south Node showes what you have developed in your former live(s), if you believe in that. It shows what comes naturally to you (sometimes to the expense of your North Node qualities). Now, your southnode is in Gemini, communication!! (by the way, your dad's Saturn trines your Venus, very encouraging I would say). With this South Node there could be a refusal to take chances and a distrust of any type of indirect communication. Probably you use your father as an excuse for not getting in communication with him, telling yourself that he probably would not like to hear from you. Try to overcome your insecurity, dare to take the first step!
There is an expression in Dutch that says: "a NO you already have, but a "Yes" you can get. Try to go for the "Yes", you cant loose.

[Neptune Rising]

Hi starlink

Thank you for your encouraging words. You're right that I would love to have some contact with him again. I never considered the writing, that maybe that would be easier, if he wanted to, rather than seeing each other face to face.

I never saw his Saturn trines my Venus, and Mercury, yes indeed looks promising. I am definately going to try writing, I see no other option so I'll go for it!

Many many thanks

Neptune

[starlink]

I am very glad to hear that!