Reconcilation? I need your opinion..

[imo]

Hello guys! I usually don't like to post about synastries, but I think I'm losing it and I could really use your help! The synastry is about a "relationship" I had with someone about 3 years ago.. Even though there were some good indicators I stopped believing in them now. The ending was pretty bad and since then I have developed many psychological and physical issues as well, I can't "talk" anymore and I've become more introverted than ever. Yesterday I went out with a friend and I thought that if I would see him, maybe it could be a sign, if not, I would leave that forever behind. The weird thing is that when my friend was coming out of the metro station, he was going in.So I saw him from afar and my feelings are mixed. :sad:
Back to the synastry chart, I can see that his north node and chiron is in conjunct with my natal Jupiter and DC. plus, his sun and venus is in conjunct with my natal moon in the 7th house. This are supposed to be good aspects for a relationship, but I'm not sure if they indicate just my own feelings but nothing from his side. Plus my pluto is in conjunct with his mars and saturn. I feel this unbearable pressure and the time we were together was a really dark one. Somehow I think that we are "connected" in a weird way. But maybe it's just me again.
Do you think that there might be a chance for something else in the future? I'm sorry if I became tedious but I need something to move on for good this time.. Thank you very much in advance! Any of your help is really appreciated! :happy:

[imo]

Sorry for the 2nd post.. anyone?? :crying:

[Mark]

You probably are connected in some way, but who isn't? Everyone has many more connections than they ever get to know in one lifetime. The trouble is that you're focusing so hard on him that you can't see the whole picture, only him. Whether or not you can have him, the correct course of action is the same. You must become you for yourself. You've been hung up on him so long that you've forgotten what it's like to relax with nothing on your mind. Your answer can be found in the stillness of being. As I commonly do, I suggest meditation and prayer. When the mind is clean and still, the Truth becomes self-evident. You can still have peace and happiness. It just has to be the peace and happiness that you want. You must want that peace and happiness more than you want him. In the end, isn't the pursuit of that peace and happiness the whole reason that you wanted him in the first place?

[imo]

Thank you very much for the answer Mark and your time of course! You are absolutely right on everything you wrote! I was so calm for the last 1+1/2 years! Some days ago, my head started messing with me on this issue, but I feel lucky because I can appreciate now the importance of being calm and relaxed, just hanging somewhere and not necessarily think of sb in particular!
Even though there's not much going on this time, I'm happy! Let's not forget that no news=good news! :wink: Thanks a lot again!!
ps: I'm quite moody! sorry if I sound like a different person! :biggrin: