I am trying to relocate to London!

[yelena234]

Hello,

Since long time, I am trying to relocate to England, to London or South West Coast. But is not going. I think, maybe I go to wrong direction? Maybe I should go somewhere else?
My life was full of love, when I have lived in Germany and Canada, between October 1969 and June 1976. When I came back, I felt, I am dead. And my heart stayed in abroad.
There is also my health, that is much worse here, than there. I have chronic pains: neuralgias, muscle spasm, dry sinusitis. All around my face, head, neck and shoulder. Now, since long time, I live in the valley of the Alps, where I was working over 21 years in tourism.
From May 2001 I don't work (speak fluent German, French, Serbocroatian, and a bit Spanish).
Since May 2002 live from Welfare, 200 euro and must pay Loan, 150 euro.
In May 2003 was betrayed over Internet, and lost my last money.
After December 2003 have tried suicide, three times, out of the country.
I want to relocate as soon, as possible, and want somebody to tell me, when I am going to move?
My birthdatas: April 27th, 1946 at 4:50 p.m. in Karlovac, Croatia, and live now close to Kranj, Slovenia.
yelena234

[Wave]

Hi,

stop thinking about commiting suicide, it is not worth it, life is too beautiful (although sometimes also difficult)to give it up like this!

I am not a professional astrologer.

I think that the most peaceful place for you would be eastern part of Australia, the best would be to live in one of the places close to where your IC Venus line intersects Australia(Melbourne i.e.). The IC Venus line goes also through Papua New Guinea.

I know that the Australians give a chance to qualified people to immigrate, I think you should try to find out something about it.

You say you have a very little money, try to bite your tongue and use all of your will to make some more money so you can make your dreams become a reality. I know that you are depressed but take these tough times you are having as a test of your will and of your abilities!

I think with ASC Jupiter line going through Greece you could also try your luck in Greece. If you have a possibility to go to Australia - go there before trying any other options.

Wave.

[yelena234]

Hi,

stop thinking about commiting suicide, it is not worth it, life is too beautiful (although sometimes also difficult)to give it up like this!

I am not a professional astrologer.

I think that the most peaceful place for you would be eastern part of Australia, the best would be to live in one of the places close to where your IC Venus line intersects Australia(Melbourne i.e.). The IC Venus line goes also through Papua New Guinea.

I know that the Australians give a chance to qualified people to immigrate, I think you should try to find out something about it.

You say you have a very little money, try to bite your tongue and use all of your will to make some more money so you can make your dreams become a reality. I know that you are depressed but take these tough times you are having as a test of your will and of your abilities!

I think with ASC Jupiter line going through Greece you could also try your luck in Greece. If you have a possibility to go to Australia - go there before trying any other options.

Wave.
For Wave,

Hello,

Thank you for giving me advice.

About Australia: it is a bit to far for me. Maybe, if I was now 20-25, I would go so far, but not now. It is far from everything.

When I was 25 and engaged with American student, he was here in Europe, I was very lucky to go to California. But in that time, I didn't get Visit Visa, altough his mother has sent me all papers.
I went then to Montreal. It was very easy to emmigrate from Germany to Canada. I went there, to come easier to USA, but had to wait one year. As I was affraid of long winter, after five months, I wrote letter to my fiance, I am going back to Europe.
Believe, I am very sorry, I didn't stay there. About climate, here in the valley of the Alps is much worse, than there.
Montreal is city, that has all, I like: two languages; good food; nice big river; nice people. Two days ago, there was movie on the TV from Montreal, and I am always lucky to see this city, or their flag (most beatifull on the world).

About Greece, I will see.

For me are countries, which sign is Aries, because my DC is in Aries: Germany.

Kind regards,
yelena234

[Catatonia]

Yelena, you speak what, 4 languages in all? :eek: You have no idea how much recognition you'd get. Get your life back on track!!! :D

[yelena234]

Yelena, you speak what, 4 languages in all? :eek: You have no idea how much recognition you'd get. Get your life back on track!!! :D
Hello Catalonia,
I am back, and I had terrible time, because I took 20 sleeping pills, after my plan was failed. So, I was 16 days in the Hospital, outside of Slovenia.
Now, I am here again, and must think, how to get job as soon, as possible. Maybe in England (London) or Ireland (Corc and Dublin)?
I want to know, where are you from?
Yes, I do speak four languages! But doesn't make me very happy. If you don't have good health, you have nothing.
Now, I have to earn some money, and pay all my therapies, myself.

With nice regards,
Yelena234

[Radu]

This is terrible news, I so sorry to hear this. Never try that again, would you. There is always hope, they say that when everything goes so bad, it can only improve.

We should try to support you in some way.

We are a big community of wonderful people and I'm sure that together we could make some difference in your life for now. If there're people from the UK or Ireland and they feel they could help you be accomodated and also contribute to get you a job there, this could be great. I live in Romania, have only a few connections there, but I'll ask if they can help.
We could also do some fund raising, in order to help Yelena get to UK and stay there for a while until she finds a job. Please everybody contribute to this cause.
A fellow astrologer needs our help, more than nice words and good posts and interpretations. Let us lend a friendly, helping hand! I'll contribute with $100. Please everybody send as much as you can. God bless you!

Yelena, please tell us a convenient way for you to receive money (Western Union?) and give all necessary details.

I started a new thread on this topic in the General chat section Let's help Yelena ! (http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=3097)
Let us discuss it there, not in this Horary subforum.

[yelena234]

Dear charmvirgo,

Thank you for this short answer.

You know, that I have made many mistakes, but this with Montreal is one of worst. I left because of cold winter, and came to Alps area, where is not only cold, but what is worse, the weather is very changeable. In Montreal is very quite summer, not to hot, and winter must be cold, but the temperature is not going up and down, like here.
Here is, one day is 35 degrees (in summer), next day, 20 degrees.
In winter is the same: much snow, as in Montreal, but worse.

I miss my Montreal: the food; kind, charming people; two official languages; most europian city; the atmoshere. Whenever I see Canadian flag, my heart is lucky.

Greetings to all in Montreal,
yelena234

[yelena234]

Dear Charmvirgo,

We all do the mistakes, when we are young, and pay later.

In my case is something else:

1. I pay my mistakes from Past life (I was hanging myself because of the
man, I met in this life, twice, but destiny didn't give us, to be together,
better said, I didn't believe to him)
2. I have personal number 4 (27.4.), and I pay SINS of my grandparents
(they emmigrated to USA, PA, had my father as a second son, my
grandmother brought him to today's Croatia to his aunt, and went back to
USA. They had four more sons. My father did never seen neither his parents
nor his brothers). My grandmother has written and sent money, as long as
she has lived. My father died 1955, and she 1961. I must have lots of
cousins and other relatives, but I have no energy, to look for them.

Kind regards,
yelena234

[waterlilly]

Yelena Hello!

Could I suggest starting a support group where you are living? I doubt you are the only person feeling the effects of the weather system and giving your age, some of the issues you have discussed here. you could put a card in your local library and News Agents. I lived in Ireland in the most south westerly region and had to move as the weather was sooo morbid.

I think you have a few options that will involve you finding the strength to carry on. 1, Please try to find some work through charities in your country. Like the Red Cross or salvation amy. If you seek volunteer work with them it's likely that they will be able to post you abroad/ or elsewhere in Europe after a few months. I think your right to stay in Europe for now as, flights are as litle as £15.00 to certain destinations.In addition , take your mind off of your own situation as, you'll be working for a larger cause. I would also suggest finding work in Homeless shelters over the festive season to stop you being isolated. For some people this is the worst time of the year.

2, I would suggest changing your signiture to a daily affirmation, something that means something to you.There maybe people who could offer you these words of inspiration here.

I would also consider getting checked your a condition called S.A.D (I can't remember the correct name) where people do indeed feel absolute deppression during the winter months with no or little sunlight. Can I also suggest a Vitamin B Complex suppliment that you take daily! In addition, finding your local swimming pool or leasure centre and start moving those endorfins.

On the New moon 20/12/07 please write out your goals for the next three months. taking one month at a time. these need to be bite size chunks!...meaning don't set your self something you can't realistically achieve. This may be as little as visiting a friend, going shopping, writing out your CV.

I don't want to take anything away from the severity of your issues but, you have to keep moving forward and rise above your problems.

Please keep in touch :9:

All that wander are not lost

[yelena234]

Hello Waterlilly,

Thank you for post.

You believe or not, but I had chance, to get job in UK, about 10 days ago. In two cities. But, I had terrible pains.

I want to leave from here, because I am very unlucky since very long time, healthy, private, and all else. Climate is worse, than in England. It is mountains area, valley of the Alps. I have all this pains, where changeable weather is bad for me.
Maybe you don't believe, but I was in December 2004 in London, and felt much better. Also, April 2005, I had chance to work in Corc, in International Camp, in your country. That time, I have got kidney inflammation.

I must leave from here, but need some health support, somebody, who has something similar, as I have. There are muscles, especially the big shoulder muscle, that makes pressure on one nerve, between neck and shoulder, and that goes to the face, sinusitis maxillaris and eyes.

I don't know, where are you now, but I will stay in touch with you.

Kind regards,
Yelena

[archergirl]

http://thepowerpath.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=77&Itemid=64

Those who are troubled in life and spirit feel that it's all 'out there', somewhere else. Actually, it's all 'in here'. You only need to look inside to find it. As Captain Picard puts it: 'Make it so'.

It's easy to feel victimised by life/circumstances/'issues'/etc. and to feel you have no control over anything. Suicide attempts are often a way of 'taking back control', e.g. I can't control anything else but I can control whether or not I'm alive. You are allowing your health issues to 'hold you back' from taking other, riskier opportunities.

It's also easy to look back and regret 'mistakes' you've made, and to feel 'if only I had done this, my life would be better', which is a false belief. The more you live in regret of the past, the more you will become paralysed in the present, for fear of 'making another mistake'. There ARE no mistakes; there is only learning. What have you learned? How can you move forward?

I pay my mistakes from Past life (I was hanging myself because of the
man, I met in this life, twice, but destiny didn't give us, to be together,
better said, I didn't believe to him)
2. I have personal number 4 (27.4.), and I pay SINS of my grandparents

I'm sorry, but this is rubbish. This is like 'Catholic guilt'; I did something 'bad' or someone else did something 'bad' and now I must pay and pay and pay. Rubbish. This is an excuse to feel like a victim, or to explain why 'bad things' keep happening to you.

I want to relocate as soon, as possible, and want somebody to tell me, when I am going to move?

Yelena, you are asking other people to make your decisions for you. You will move when you decide to move, no sooner than that. The only thing stopping you is your refusal to make the decision. Once you set your intentions to leave/take action/do something, nothing else will stop you. But you have to have the *belief* that you can do it, first. Why have you stayed so many years in a place where you are so deeply unhappy, when you KNOW you have been happier in other places? Is is actually that you *enjoy* being unhappy, being a 'victim of life', having people feel sorry for you so you don't have to make a choice for yourself?

The answer to ALL your problems is to take responsibility for 'where' you're at, and move beyond it, and accept that 1. You ARE in control of your life and your attitude toward life, no one and nothing else is; and 2. You are never, ever alone in the world. Help is ALWAYS there, but you have to ask for it, and then you have to accept what is offered, even if it's uncomfortable, even if it's scary.

I wish you all the very best, but YOU have to do the hard work, not someone else.

AG:)

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[Natasha]

No matter where we go we are there.. It could be your destiny in this life to find happiness & peace & love in your own skin.
Well I think actually most of the planet has this goal in one way or another.

I suggest you listen to Louise L Hay Cd's. Louise understand about how we can feel down & talks of positive ways to love ourselves & find joy in life.
Its little by little tho but each little step is a step.

She has a nice CD called Forgiveness & loving the inner child which is a nice start. Also some positive affirmations which lift the spirit.
Louise also has a nice little book & a tape (I dont know if its on CD) about Heal your body. it has an affirmation for every part of the body & pain illness.

Also Louise' self healing cd is fabulous.. She says "I am willing to release the pattern in me which is creating this epxeriance or condition" If we can say this & practice believing it, you will be astounded at the results. Even saying I am willing to... forgive relase etc shifts something in us.

Meditation and yoga are also a wonderful assistant to help

Start a journal of your dreams.

Have an astrolgical consultation particularly if you can find an astrologer who will talk to you about familial issues in your chart and within you. ie a psychological astrologer.
Change your diet to eat more fresh fruit & veggies. In fact grow some veggies & some flowers - even a pot plant to start.
Write positive affirmations on your fridge which say " i love & forgive myself just the way I am now" At first it will not seem authentic but keep going it will happen but try little by little to be positive & have some faith.

I believe we come into a life to learn and if we cut it short by suicide we just return to try again. Find out about the wonder of you.

[yelena234]

My dear Natasha,

You have my Christian name translated, means I could be also Natasha.

I have two books from Louise Hay since 1996. That means I know her.

Other thing, here important, there are problems with my health, if you read all post from me. And you know what: the only pills that help me a bit are from London. They are special pills, you can't find anywhere in Europe except maybe in Ireland.
I was in other Forum for about 6 months and after that one member has sent me mail to my Email address: those pills are in Malaysia to buy, what means,they from UK export pills to Asia, but not to Europe. I have to send money to UK, to get those pills.
The same happened to me 1991: one English woman (tourist here) has asked me what kind of pains I have? Then she gave me pills, they have helped me for one year. She had the same problems with health, so she knew they are good for me.
About food, I was in the Hospital in Austria (took more pills) and medical doctor there told me, that I have wrong food. I should eat more meat, because it was manque of B12 and other things connected with my blood and muscles. They gave me always two pieces of meat other people have got one piece. I didn't like to eat meat and milk very long time and all I have liked are just vegetables and fruits (that means your advice is a bit wrong). What do I have from it? Have you ever seen people, they are Vegetarian? They look, like any moment could die. I was working with tourist groups from abroad and know their situation.
I have started to eat meat 10 years ago. In May 2001 because of terrible pains from the top of the head (and all over, right side,) I had to leave my job. I didn't get any money from Employment Office. One year I have lived from my savings and after that have got 200 Euro, Social Help. Beside that, I had apartment Loan, 150 Euro (now has Insurance Company and my apartment and me are on the Court).
From 2003 till 2006 it was terrible time for me. I had pains (nobody can give me right diagnosis and Head CT scan, MRI show enough, to help me) and no money.
2004 I went to London, because of Job, but have got terrible Neuralgia pains.
In the church I have cried and there was priest who has helped me. I have stayed more days with him and his wife. The very last day went to one Pharmacy, had not enough money for Sudafed. The man there has asked me again, what kind of pains I do have? He went back and brought me other pills. After I came here, the pills were right and helpful.
So, you can see, that not everywhere is the same. Somebody is happy at home, somebody not.
We have in ex-capital one Astrologer who tells to his clients where to go, to be happy! That is charm of Astrology.
I know now, that I need other climate, other country and other doctors. I don't need any Astrologer. Why? I was in so many Forums (from last year), that I know now, what does help me and what not! Now is too late, when I have lost all. I have no money for any meat (don't misunderstand me, I am just telling my story).
You have no idea, how many people with Neuralgias try suicide? Louise Hay can't help here. Vegetables and salad I have eaten more than three other people of my age.
How many people have relocated, because their child had Asthma?
Why I had to meet two English persons to get right pills? Why not here?
There was also one German Neurologist, that gave me (in Germany) just one injection on the right place and I was good for five years. Why not here?

I am going to write a book: My Health Story (with many mails from Health Forums all over the world), with many diagnosis and letters (11) from German medical doctors (1993-2002).

On the end: only somebody who has or had the same as I have so many years, only such a person can give me advice.

Yelena

p.s. Be glad, if you have good health. Without that all else has no sense.

[Natasha]

I wish you a speedy move to the UK kind regards Natasha

[yelena234]

Hello Natasha,

Sorry, I didn't answer to you.

That question is history, it is from last year. It should be Horary question and not like that.

I don't care, where I go to, only need somebody to help me for my health. I would go to Iceland, if I would know, that my health would improve.

Just now, I have pressure on the nerve, that is terrible pain.

Nice regards to you and Australia,
Yelena

[chinkey]

Hang in there yelena234!

ok, it'll feel as though your blocked into tiny space in your mind right now, but relax and dig deep. Often these things that test us intensify and then they go away!

Before you set off anywhere with your backpack and packed lunch, spend a tiny amount of time thinking things through and what it is you want to achieve when you leave and when you arrive! Make the things very small and dont try and set yourself too many goals....

Say "ok, things havent gone well with health, so i want to spend some time and look after myself a bit better" or "i want to earn a bit of money, but only enough to survive", have you thought about taking a TEFL course and teaching somewhere spiritual like thailand or india. Thailand is better as the terrain is less harsh and the people are adorable and poor, so they are very welcoming and love to learn english and all the other languages you speak aswell!

Think positive and things will turn around ok, the world has got some good people in it...

Chinkey! Forget the escapism and move towards freedom...

[yelena234]

Hello chinkey,

Sorry for late answer.

Thank you anyway. I am not going to escape, but you must know, that I feel since 2001 like in prison.
Here, where I am is very changeable weather. Many people ask why I always talk about London:
1. I was working many years with English people (in tourism),
2. About 10 years I have got so many post and gifts (don't think I am after somebody's money; here that means I was working well with tourists. As AC Libra I am very kind and friendly),
3. 1991 and 2004 I have got right pills from English people: in June 1991, when the war has started here one woman gave me right pain killers (drugs) and at the same time she has invited me to England. I had only in June 1991, 6 invitations, but went to the main leader and owner of the Tourist Agency (and his wife) close to Chester, UK. I knew them for 6 years. He died one year later and she three years later.
2004 I have met new friends in London. Because had terrible pains and all my plans failed, I was in the church crying. The man, priest came to me. After that he and his wife have invited me to their house, close to Hammersmith. I had wonderful time. What was most important, the day before departure I have found right drugs for my pains (just to relief). That is what counts! Here, I always get drugs they make my health much worse (and we have double medical insurance to pay).

When I look my Natal Chart:

1. There is luck in abroad: North Node in 9th;
2. Ruler of my 9th, Mercury is in the 6th (health); therapy, drugs and all other come from abroad:
3. Ruler of 5th in 9th: you know what that means?
4. Mercury in 6th in good aspect with Uranus in 9th: work with foreigners or in abroad.
5. Pluto, ruler of 2nd in sextile (?) with Uranus in 9th: money from abroad (for me that is wide sextile).

Greetings from the Alps,
Yelena