Ebenia
06-15-2010, 07:48 AM
I don't know if this is the right area for this topic, but I had this urge to talk to everyone in here about this topic, that has been very influencing theme in my life for all most all of my life and it has affected me tremendously.
So, my mom is an alcoholic and has been as long as I remember. When I was very young, like 0-5 years old, I believe that my mom was sober, but after that she has drank more and more and to this day, she has ruined our family with her drinking and it has hurt me more than many can imagine. When my parents got divorced, my dad and my brother moved away and I wanted to stay with mom, because I thought that someone needed to take care of her. I was 13 then. I lived with her from 13 to 17 and those were the unhappiest years of my life. My mom drank all the time, she was very resentful towards me and was very mean and angry even though I saved her many times from dying or something bad happening. She used to call me names and never appreciate that all I tried to do is love her, even though she made it so hard.
I moved away when I was 17 and our relationship was better for many years. We are in some way very close to each other, but at the same time she is so wrapped up in her problems that it is very hard to receive unconditional love from someone who hates themselves. Impossible I would say.
My mom has just got kicked out of her job because she drank in the office (very sad) and she is now unemployed. She promised that she wouldn't drink any more and she was sober for about few weeks and now she has started again to drink little and it's going to get worse when she realises the situation that she is in really - unemployed over 50 years old woman is not in a good place right now to have a job and "move on". She is going to get married this July and I think it's an idiot movement from her boyfriend, who does not understand how serious her problem is and it is not going to get better even though she was "sober" for few weeks, she still has huge problems.
Well, anyway. This is my and her story in short. I don't really need too much advice, I am very much in a good place right now, I am moving to UK in few months and I will have an opportunity to cut our bond. I have done a lot of crying and lot of pain and lot of thinking and I am really getting better and I am the happiest that I have been in my life ever. :)
I just wanted to share this with you and see if there is anyone out there gone through similar experiences and how they have coped and what they had to do to get over these experiences. Especially one hard thing for me is to trust anyone when the person you trusted the most has betrayed so many times. Sometimes it's hard to believe in people.
So if someone has any wise words or experiences to share, I would love to hear and see if there is anyone out there. :)
Peace and Love,
Ebenia :love:
So, my mom is an alcoholic and has been as long as I remember. When I was very young, like 0-5 years old, I believe that my mom was sober, but after that she has drank more and more and to this day, she has ruined our family with her drinking and it has hurt me more than many can imagine. When my parents got divorced, my dad and my brother moved away and I wanted to stay with mom, because I thought that someone needed to take care of her. I was 13 then. I lived with her from 13 to 17 and those were the unhappiest years of my life. My mom drank all the time, she was very resentful towards me and was very mean and angry even though I saved her many times from dying or something bad happening. She used to call me names and never appreciate that all I tried to do is love her, even though she made it so hard.
I moved away when I was 17 and our relationship was better for many years. We are in some way very close to each other, but at the same time she is so wrapped up in her problems that it is very hard to receive unconditional love from someone who hates themselves. Impossible I would say.
My mom has just got kicked out of her job because she drank in the office (very sad) and she is now unemployed. She promised that she wouldn't drink any more and she was sober for about few weeks and now she has started again to drink little and it's going to get worse when she realises the situation that she is in really - unemployed over 50 years old woman is not in a good place right now to have a job and "move on". She is going to get married this July and I think it's an idiot movement from her boyfriend, who does not understand how serious her problem is and it is not going to get better even though she was "sober" for few weeks, she still has huge problems.
Well, anyway. This is my and her story in short. I don't really need too much advice, I am very much in a good place right now, I am moving to UK in few months and I will have an opportunity to cut our bond. I have done a lot of crying and lot of pain and lot of thinking and I am really getting better and I am the happiest that I have been in my life ever. :)
I just wanted to share this with you and see if there is anyone out there gone through similar experiences and how they have coped and what they had to do to get over these experiences. Especially one hard thing for me is to trust anyone when the person you trusted the most has betrayed so many times. Sometimes it's hard to believe in people.
So if someone has any wise words or experiences to share, I would love to hear and see if there is anyone out there. :)
Peace and Love,
Ebenia :love: