Past lives, love, health, personality & gender issues

[labelledujour]

Hey guys!

Since current North Node is transiting my 12th, I'm totally in the mood for inner soul-searching and awareness! Especially researching about my past life is totally mind-boggling me lately!

First of all, for some reason, I always knew I was not comfortable in my own skin...though I'm a woman, I've always felt more comfortable to men and more aligned to their thinking rather than my fellow women with whom I tend to clash, because there is simply no understanding, plus the love-hate relationship with my rather over-protective mother (maybe the masculine South Node in Leo can shed a light?). Yet, I do find myself strongly attracted to women, men much older than me, especially with lighter features than me ( Saturn retrograde?) and I used to have some rather weird tendencies towards my father!

And yet, that Saturn has been bothering me, because I'm always told that when I was younger, I'd act like a grumpy old man! The issues with my joints, with my menstrual circle, my eyes and throat (the latter one, byproduct of my past addiction) do lead me to believe that maybe I was a man...but yet, actually I can be rather needy and only my exterior is tough!

I've always grown an interest for literature, maths and everything 'out there', plus traveling, mentoring along with being mentored (for some reason I fall for my mentors if they're men, or my muses if they're women...probably my Jupiter sextile my Nodes?), counseling, writing poems, being only too sensitive to music (Neptune retrograde?) and joining people for a common cause!

And as years go by, I've been growing a more averse attitude towards marriage & commitment, too, while my friendships have been growing even stronger and even in my current relationship there's that strong element of friendship that makes it work, I think (North Node in Aquarius?)

Anyway, while all this may be too much information, and most of them seem to be current issues, it's just my effort to complete the 'puzzle' surrounding my past live! So, what should I check to come to even a vague conclusion about a past life and of course, if you'd like to, you can share your charts and the issues you do face with the Nodes and any indicators with your past lives, I'd love to hear yours and I'll try to give you a rather vague idea, to the best of my effort about you might have been in a past life...however, do take this with a grain of salt!:lol: Thanks very, very much in advance!!

[rahu]

hmm you covered quite a bit.

the area that interested me was your adversion toward women.
this is clearly indicated in your chart by pluto conjunct the moon and pluto square venus.these dynamic is very similar to having a venus in scorpio .
many times these dynamics give a underlying "masculinity" which threatens other women.also the unconscious sexual aura of pluto can threaten other women in a sexual manner,that is your sexuality projects aggressively and many women are culturaly conditioned to be skeptical of sexually aggressive women.
your mars conjunction to venus and square to pluto strengthens your unconscious/subconscious masculine sexual aura.

as to past lives,i look to pluto again.so as pluto is conjunct to your moon, it is likely that many occurances in this life are predicated on previous existances.you might find out where orcus is posited in your chart as it also affects your past life rather directly.

rahu

[Amy Vir Sn Ari Mn Pis Ris]

I think I'll be finding out soon enough for myself. The transiting South node will make a precise conjunction to my Venus in Cancer 17 degrees on March 31, 2010. In Western astrology South Node would be a past connection touching upon my Venus...and Cancer often means past as well. My Venus is in my 5th house whether you use Placidius, whole house or Vedic astrology.

I've been googling trying to find out what that would mean with Vedic astrology....haven't found anything yet.

Time will tell!

I think we can look to our pasts to see what directions our future will take us. Congrats to you for what sounds like a lot of self reflection bringing you insight. I hope it benefits you!

[labelledujour]

Hi rahu!

Your insight is truly awesome, but yeah, Pluto did play stronger part than one can think! Yeah, I'm sexually aggressive and this intimidates women and men around my age, but for some reason it seems to draw much older men to me! Anyway, my Orcus is at 9 degrees 38 in Leo in the 7th exactly square my Moon and Pluto very closely!! Hmmm...Thanks very, very much!!

[Moulin]

One word: DRACONICS

Do your draconic chart and it will tell you about your past incarnation.

[labelledujour]

Hi Moulin,

I did my draconic, and I have Draconic Sun in Leo, Moon in Sagittarius, Ascendant in Aquarius, but what can I make out of it?

[Moulin]

Well you have to look at the chart.. see which houses, put in KARMA and then look at NN/SN position, house, aspects etc.

[labelledujour]

Amy,

Well, thanks for the charts, so that I can see more about you. Since I'm almost leaning to bed, I only can say that your Mars retrograde in Pisces conjunct your Ascendant did catch my eye!! Maybe a tendency to be a fighter in a past life, maybe a sailor in the war? Hmm...

I don't use vedic astrology, since I think it's rather too fatalistic! Just my opinion, though! ;)

[Amy Vir Sn Ari Mn Pis Ris]

Hey Gina......I am typically not a fighter but I do stand my ground and make my points. I WILL fight if necessary. I actually prefer to talk things out to mutual resolution. I remember years ago a gang of kids wanted to pick on my oldest (but then shy) daughter and I got in the middle of 6 of them wearing bandana's and looking tough and told them I would be able to take down one of them at least. lol. Oh and I am just shy of 5 feet tall. (1.51 m) But that Pluto conjunct Sun makes me feel tall in my mind. lol. BTW the kids left my daughter alone. My x husband told me I had to quit doing things like that. I did that about 3 times including knocking on all their parents doors and getting invited inside for civil discussion.....so between all my efforts they did leave my kid alone and that was what I was after.

I have plenty of fire in me to get the necessary work done when needed.

[Amy Vir Sn Ari Mn Pis Ris]

Moulin I did my first ever Draconic chart and my Draconic karma is Aries 3 degrees (9th Placidius, 10th whole) right where my oldest daughters Aries moon is. I also note my Draconic Saturn (23 Pisces) is conjunct my natal Mars (22 Pisces)

Karma is also conjunct the Draconic north node at 0 degrees Aries. My Draconic Venus is in Scorpio and my Draconic rising is Cancer. (with a Draconic Leo moon) I see the planets are still in the same locations and my grand water trine is still there. Most signs remained in the same element but my Sun changed to 29 degrees Sag Draconic and is now 6th house whether Placidius or whole house. I like my fiery moon and was happy to see it remained in fire. lol.

I always heard to look at your past lives to have your 12th house cusp as your first house leaving all the planets in their same locations.

[vanila]

Labelle,

this Moon Pluto conjunction works in the same direction for me...

I've always felt more comfortable to men and more aligned to their thinking rather than my fellow women with whom I tend to clash, because there is simply no understandingI have only 2 or 3 close friends that are girls....and I'm still not sure is it right to call them friends......may be 1 is for sure.....but yes I too prefer man company and feel better with men surrounded...
this is from cafe astrology:
"... Men may be especially intimidated by your sensuality, and if you have control issues, you may even project an aura of power which can overwhelm any man who gets close to you (at least occasionally). You may also be somewhat intimidating to other women, especially if you harbor a mistrust of women. The connection you feel with your mother may be especially strong, and it is quite possible that you felt inundated..."

http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/moonplutoaspects.html

About the past lives they say that you have to look at your 12th house, South Node and any conjunctions with.....and yes draconic chart, retrograde planets and the houses that they occupies....

:)

[labelledujour]

Hi my beloved vanila!

Oh, well, boy does it depict me! Well, men around my age are fearful of my power, while my much older ones, along with my mate, seem to be rather attracted by that energy!

My 12th house is busy with 3 retrogrades, Uranus/Saturn/Neptune, and my Pluto is retro on the 9th...my Draconic sun conjuncts my South Node in the 7th and ironically it's in the exact degree with my sister's natal Sun in Leo, haha!! Hmmm...

[shaggy]

i think it's the moon/pluto/mc conjunction dat intimidates women.
i've it natally but women as such rn't afraid of me. when i get angry,people are.
venus square pluto could be another factor.
my venus squares chiron & the descriptions say dat i was a guy in my past life. I do behave like one most of the time. can't blame it on the fire in my chart coz there are many more gals with the same amount of fire yet act like "how women are supposed to be". the worst of all is the way i pursue men. one of my vivid fantasies was to ask a dude out on my knees in a mall....like wat?

nnode's transiting my 12H conjunct natal uranus/neptune...
till now life's stable...
in my last years SR chart nnode was conjunct my asc(aqua) & opp my partners' venus in leo. when we met,transiting venus/mars conj our natal snodes.

[shaggy]

haha
amy vir: looks like we've got some karma....:P
my draconic arian venus & nnode r @ 2 and 0 degrees resp...

draconic charts look krazzy!
my pluto is in pisces!!!!dat's like how many years back?????
draconic natal
pluto/merc opp moon
saturn opp sun/mars
uranus/nept conj ic

i was an arian with cap moon & gem rising.
my partner was a cap with libra moon & cancer rising.
looks like our synastry was doomed during dat life time...:((((((