How to survive when life is one big TEST?

[Akyana]

Having intense life..
and intense transits..at the moment.
(involving Pluto, Uranus and Saturn..and ASC too)


Here I am trying to analyse natal chart.
Looking for signs of strength and weaknesses...EDIT and now observing myself changing the text, again and again.
Libra goes over Aries and deletes the most overconfident words and the forest of me's.
Watching the personality ways is quite fascinating, actually...there is fear in both Libra and Aries.
Libra has to balance and Aries has to keep the power of "I", because here is where it all starts and Aries is keeping the lightened torch with fire of individuality, own path, own power, independent and raw.
But Libra is so...gentle in its wise ways, so attuned and cool.


Would very much appreciate any comments...or advice...!


http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif#ASChttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gif
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ue.18.gif 1st house
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif
Is major part of it all.

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif12th http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gifASC gives intensity, that colides with both my stronghttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_lib.18.gif and http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ari.18.gif.
Pluto Scorpionic depth is too much for me most of my life..so I have tried to kill myself many times.
(It is a miracle I am still here. lolol)
But tho the http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif12 kills me, it also gives me power to survive and keep fighting.
He gives me inner need for enlightenment.. my life wish.
Hope, slowly...

Closehttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif#3rdhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_squ.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_mo.18.gif 12th gives me somehow lost feeling.
No home in the world.
I never felt really human.
Feels so lonely here..somehow.

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ue.18.gif in 1st ... maybe smart and definitelly crazy.
Weird is inspiring and... http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ma.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ju.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gif 5th will go for it.
Word danger is just an abstract idea for http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ma.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sa.18.gif in5th.
Travelling the word I went into places where devil would fear.
Did stuff, that angels would not dare, LOL .


But it is very hard to let go.
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gifASC, http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sa.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_squ.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif ?
Intense fights for a cause... usually view, I know http://forum.astro.com/yabbfiles/Templates/Forum/default/rolleyes.gif is real.
Plutonian ,http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif-shocking people .. to show what is hidden in an unusual view..
Breaking Tabus feels GOOD http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gif? grandhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_tri.18.gif with http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ue.18.gif?


http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif in 3rdhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sag.18.gif.
Expressing spirituallity to bring people (myself) closer to the .... Ones nature?
( words just flow sometimes - Airhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_tri.18.gif ?)
Subconsciousness becomes an open book..then ( or maybe even the collective one) Still http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif3rd, http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_mo.18.gif12th.
No major questions left really, I think...(all generational planets being personal?)
If - I look inside..and SEE.
Am no master, but can see
(do you know what I mean? )
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif 3rd...done heaps of travelling (both short and long ? trips)
and confused relationship with siblings ..indeed, lol.
(I am the oldest sister, but havent see them growing up, so now I still take them as those babies and they rather as a friend...and it is getting more complicated over time)


Protected.
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ma.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ju.18.gif#http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gif in 5th.
Sh-t happend..like rape and once gypsies sold me ,
but,- should be death long time ago.
(suicides, dangerous adventures,...)
Angels go well out of their way to help me, seems.
(Thank you http://forum.astro.com/yabbfiles/Templates/Forum/default/exclamation.gif)
Air triangle, possibly too?

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pis.18.gif mind dreamy ,intuitive, but 6thhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pis.18.gif inhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif 12th makes is very hard to ..well, control, lol.
Thoughts are happening .. they are often not mine..and are hard to live with .
Met clarvoiant people and now never know if someone knows what I think..or imagine.
Before that ...it was all about weeding- what was mine, and what not.
Now -mostly fighting it. Or learnng to let it be..
(anybody understands??)
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif#http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif makes the thoughts shocking and tabu.
It *****.

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_su.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ch.18.gif in 7th - need partner,loneliness hurts.
But..http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ue.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_su.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif ends the realtionships abruptly and just when you expect it the least.
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ch.18.gif there makes it traumatic.
and place of learning.
Partners .. interesting mostly http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ma.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_aqu.18.gif...when fall in love with someone and really want him..I can usually get him.

ASC Libra - pretty they say , tho http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ue.18.gif in 1st does not want to worry too much about outer appearance,
with the exeption when I can change the way I look often and I love look different.
But Libra gives me quite taste in what looks good on me..generally manage to look good even when I trying to look diferent.
Loved having orange hair .
And blue hair and other colors and styles.

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sa.18.gif in 9thhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_gem.18.gif high in the chart with many aspects gives obscession to learn and to know.
All I can http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sa.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_gem.18.gif
Conceptualising is now obstacle on my path ..but it is almost impossible to let go and just be..
without it.
Air grand http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_tri.18.gif learning and IMO even teaching is easy for me.http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sa.18.gif
I can talk with authority and with inner self confidence (but sometimes not at all) , because I learned and experienced my whole life , so I think have now and then good point.
My http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif in 6th does not lie or improvise too much.
I want to see it first http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif 3th
Or learn it http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_sa.18.gif 9th, http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif6th.
Also the http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif in 6th wants to get results.
So even when I talk about something trivial, often am I trying to show show something else there.

Libra ASC - all about harmony and approval, as long as http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_su.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ari.18.gif doesnt take over.
They so much frustrate each other.
Libra wants to be always diplomatic but http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ari.18.gif just doesnt care.
So...I need to be alone a lot not to harmonise all the time. (Muchhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_lib.18.gif influence in chart)

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_mo.18.gif12th in Koch (11th in Placidus) - kind of loner and emotions are for me hard to understand.
Also becausehttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif#http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_squ.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_mo.18.gif and http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_mo.18.gif 12th...
The Moon in 11th makes sense too tho.
I do not have many friends, but I met millions of people (http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ma.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ju.18.gif exageration I guess
LOVE meeting people.
( http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ju.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ma.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_aqu.18.gif?, too)

Also http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_mo.18.gif 12th -s I was many times institutionalised.
Spent years in hospitals and once I was even in prison for a week.
Dont ask. http://forum.astro.com/yabbfiles/Templates/Forum/default/rolleyes.gif
Studied psycholgy, teology, all kinds of spiritual paths and practices..yoga, reiki...you name it.

Once got involuntarily exorcised (http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif transit)

I lived in India with my Aghori master.
Aghori is the most extreme hindu sect...and among others they eat human meat..I didnt, but wanted to :cP
I KNOW there is burried wisdom in breaking tabus.

The only Tabu that I do my best tohonor is...do not harm.
Hmm, Neptune in 3rd?
Or virgo Moon in 12th ?
Sun conj Venus in seventh?
Libra ASC?
Probably Pluto con ASC from 12th...own suffering gives often compassion, I guess.

And...NN Cap tells me to grow up. .
While SN talks about how good it feels to be child for ever.Sensitive, weak, naive,
NN says...listen to father Saturn and toughen up!
Or Saturn will come in a form of Death and crush you like a lost baby crab gets crushed by feet of beach walkers LOL.

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What do you guys think?:love:
:unsure:

[starlink]

Akyana, I looked at that T-square of yours between Saturn, Moon and Mercury. I find 9° orb too wide (I use that orb for an opposition and max. 7° for other aspects with the Moon, but OK, the Moon is ingoing so that one could be felt by you. But the square from Saturn to Mercury of 10° orb is way too large. So I would not take this as a T-square formation.

Your emotional problems are largely due to that exact Moon square Neptune of yours and the Neptune - Saturn opposition shows me that it is related to your childhood.

Your suicidal tendencies could be explained by the ruler of your 8th house conjunct the Sun. It is also combust and opposing, together with your Sun, Uranus. That + Chiron in your 7th shows me that you have been hurt by others in such a way, that you are now incapable of forming close relationships. You are trying however to find some sort of love and a sense of belonging to something, through your involvements with all sorts of spiritual and religious practices. Canabalism, I dont think will help you much in attaining that, but finding peace in spiritual practice, can be very helpful but with your Moon-Neptune square, dangerous ,as you could easily be misled into using all sorts of things, including drugs (probably the cause of your prison sentence).

You seem to know very well what the energies of the planets in your charts are doing to you. You also know deep down, that commiting suicide wont be the best thing to do. It is a cowardly act of course and someone with the Sun in Aries is usually not a coward, so I think it is not such a surprise that you did not get killed. You probably made sure you would be found in time. You dont really want to die.

The ruler of your Sun is conjunct Jupiter in the 5th (Leo) house. It is full of energy there and like you also wrote,it makes you want to meet peope, have fun together and feel happy. Jupiter also will keep your hopes up, your optimistic side going.

With the ruler of your Ascendant, conjunct your Sun in the 7th house of relationships (others), you just crave to be with others, but you have been hurt by them and you are blocking yourself (Uranus) from getting close to others. Oh yes, you can live with them, eat and sleep with them, but you are somehow separate from them. Moon in 12 very often makes one to keep certain feelings, especially painful one's, hidden and that Moon does not want to open up completely, it will always keep a part back, you will never give yourself totally out of fear to be hurt again. Saturn square Moon makes you suspicious of others and fearful.

Pluto on the Ascendant can give you however the power to change yourself, to let go of negative memories and replace them by better things. It could even change your physical body at some point in your life. Being the ruler of your 2nd house of selfworth, you will develop your own selfworth, due to what happens to you in your life.
Pluto in Libra often leaves relationships abruptly and you might have done that.

My http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif in 6th does not lie or improvise too much.
I want to see it first http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ne.18.gif 3th

Pluto opposes your Mercury in the 6th of health, probably indicating your mental problems, as does the ruler of your 6th in your 3rd house of the mind in square to your Moon. Neptune in 3 in fact, cannot see clearly at all. It just dreams and imagines with that square to the Moon. Good for poetry maybe but not good when you want to think straight.

I KNOW there is burried wisdom in breaking tabus.

Sorry Akyanan, but this has been put into your pretty head. Breaking tabus (like eating humans) is usually done by people who crave for attention and excitement. Wisdom is very hard to find here.

there are tabus though which are set up out of religious or cultural convictions. When they are broken, then some freedom could result from it, but not wisdom I think.


Or Saturn will come in a form of Death and crush you like a lost baby crab gets crushed by feet of beach walkers


Oooh, this sounds very desperate to me. Saturn should not be viewed like death coming after us. Saturn in astrology represents the discipline we all need in order not to cross borders. You need Saturn, especially with that Moon square Neptune. You need Saturn to bring you to see things more realistically, to discipline you into focussing and knowing what you want to do with your life.
You are an intelligent woman. You have studied and travelled, you learned a lot. It would be a waste to let that all go to pieces. So Saturn will strongly oppose that Jupiter conjunct Mars of yours which only seems to like the lighter part of life. That Grand Trine shows that. Your Saturn is weakened by it and by having it's ruler Mercury in Pisces in detriment. Not easy for this Saturn. In other words, not easy for you to discipline yourself into doing things which will be productive and lasting. Saturn also squares it's own ruler, weakening it even more.

Now about the transits. That tr.Saturn is clearly bothering you right now. It is hoverig over your Ascendant and will retrograde back to your Pluto. It wants to teach you another lesson in selfworth. It will also conjunct transiting Pluto, so I think that it is a time of big transformation for you. It will feel awful and heavy, but it will in the end be worth going through it. Dont get beaten by it, just go with the flow and take everything day by day. Dont plan (yet).

In a few years from now your progr. Sun will enter Gemini and then your 9th house where you find yourself at ease because you love to learn. Now the progressed ruler of your Ascendant is already there and approaching the conjunction with Saturn. This is good, because it will be you who now wants discipline and this at the same time when Saturn conjuncts your Asc. and Pluto again, could then bring results.

Progressed Mars entering your 6th house could mean that you will start working, but the opposition to Mars could also mean that you might take the initiative to do another therapeutic session in order to sort yourself out. Pluto squaring your natal Pluto and your Ascendant could help with this. It will of course need effort on your part, always with squares, but you can do it. Any person with a Pluto conjunct the Asc. is strong and usually does not give up! Besides this, your progressed Ascendant just entered Scorpio which makes Pluto your secondary ruler (as I call it) for a long time to come. Also, your progressed Ascendant will finally be in harmonic trine with your natal MC. Transiting Jupiter will enter it's own sign soon which will bring more positiveness into your life and when transiting the 6th house could bring healing power.

Wishing you much strength and good luck!

Starlink

[astrologer50]

Well done for attempting analysis,

Your prog moon will change in approx 3months into Cappi back into another earth sign like your natal, so this should help ground you moore. In approx 10 month it will conj your IC. So changes in the home arena, redecoration, remodelling, feeling within family may strengthen. You probably will become more concerned with your own inner security, friends may become bit clingy or vice versa, you could even work from home or start a new business poss. Watch for prog moon conj transiting pluto in approx 6months as this may herald some emotionally intense exchanges

T Saturn conj Asc is not good for starting new ventures and may knock your confidence a little, good time if you want to loose a bit of weight though.

Regarding your pluto conj Asc -- any planet within 5' orb of house cusp is considered more effective in next house along going anti clockwise.

· Tends to be a loner and hold innermost self aloof from those around. Penetrating gaze. Person power and will is indicated. Much more below the surface than is shown above. Very private person – holds secret
· Tunnel vision when concentrating will always finish things.
· Usually deep penetrating eyes. Intensity comes over ‑ even when being silent
· A marvelous sense of purpose is generally present, and must be expressed and fulfilled otherwise an inner seething and sense of dissatisfaction may be the result
· If Pluto is afflicted and could cause deep‑rooted psychological problems that can emerge as physical ailments.
· The nearer Pluto lies to the Ascending degree, the stronger its influence will be. The planet's influence will darken the personality, adding an incisive and deep, emotionally intense quality.

Do you recognise these traits?

http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gif#ASChttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_con.18.gif
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_ue.18.gif 1st house
http://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_pl.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_opp.18.gifhttp://forum.astro.com/im/sym/s_me.18.gif
Is major part of it all.

Pluto opp mercury
You are very incisive and aggressive with your opinions. You have a tendency towards fanaticism and often want to impose your ideas on others, sometimes in a subtle manner and sometimes more imperatively. You will find yourself attracted by the occult and other mysteries but it is recommended that you avoid those subjects because they can generate certain fixations or obsessiveness. You must learn to control your impatience and impulsiveness, to think things over before speaking, and to respect the weaknesses of others
http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/mercuryplutoaspects.html
to read the full article click on link

You have high ideals, yet are often lacking in self-confidence over your ability to express them or live up to them; generally, no one can live up to high ideals, so relax a little, create a little space between you and this inner obsession, and devote more time to internalising this energy to transform yourself.
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/astrological-aspects/mercury-opposition-pluto.php

lst House – Angular house
· You will have a strong drive for personal freedom and will seek out unusual friends and activities. Individuality very strong Unusual in some way
· often possessing scientific and intuitive talents.
· Personal behaviour unpredictable.
· Good organiser and leadership qualities. Occasionally act the opposite of what is expected of you.
· Dissatisfied with appearance in some way (quite common ‑ hippy type, earring through noses, bright coloured pink or red hair etc.) Can dress provocatively – aiming to shock
· Very original theories and methods of working.
· Erratic and sudden impulses not always understood, not only by others but by themselves. Not a conformist and apt to be too direct and blunt with opinions. Must surrender the willfulness inherent in this position.

Do you recognise these traits?
Uranus opp sun/venus suggests when you do get close to people, you then develop issues to do with freedom and independence and worry that your individuality may be compromised maybe?

Moon square Neptune, suggests emotional disillusionment, Neptune opp Saturn suggests your dreams, ideals were crushed by reality or parents in childhood and may suggest a 'fear of the unknown' as a result

T uranus is fast approaching your natal mercury and this may cause some mental health issues -- possibly suffer with nerves?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Medical_astrology

At the same time uranus will square Saturn, creating issues with Freedom (uranus) v convention (saturn) connected to 9th house issues and 6th house matters.

Your moon square saturn can show depression, maybe you saw your mother endure financial hardships in formative years and this results in a cautious reserved nature

Progressed sun has been been going through your 8th house of joint shares finances, resources but more importantly, 'other people's values and beliefs' and this is where you are and have had major transformations, death of old and rebirth of your new developing value system

The suffering experienced by 8th House people, is always at the hands of people with whom they have a close personal relationship, and although there may be physical cruelty also, it is at the emotional level that the pain is registered. The pain is nearly always that of rejection and the knowledge that the intensity of their feelings is neither understood nor valued.
http://www.dkfoundation.co.uk/dkfoundation/BookKarmaHouse8.htm
click on link to read more - although this is for someone with natal sun in 8th it does give you a strong flavour of what you have been transforming through

In another approx 7years (Equal house) your progessed sun will go into 9th house but next year will change signs into Gemini and this should make your more inquisitive

T Neptune has been going over your natal mars and this can cause major energy drains and illnesses

We all have to go through major transits in our lives because this is how we grow and develop unfortuantely. Best of luck on your journey. hope these comments help.

[starlink]

The suffering experienced by 8th House people, is always at the hands of people with whom they have a close personal relationship, and although there may be physical cruelty also, it is at the emotional level that the pain is registered. The pain is nearly always that of rejection and the knowledge that the intensity of their feelings is neither understood nor valued.
http://www.dkfoundation.co.uk/dkfoun...armaHouse8.htm (http://www.dkfoundation.co.uk/dkfoundation/BookKarmaHouse8.htm)
click on link to read more - although this is for someone with natal sun in 8th it does give you a strong flavour of what you have been transforming through



In Akyana's case the ruler of the 8th house, Venus, is conjunct her Sun/Chiron conjunction in 7. it describes those feelings very well.

[Akyana]

Starlink,

Now about the transits. That tr.Saturn is clearly bothering you right now. It is hoverig over your Ascendant and will retrograde back to your Pluto. It wants to teach you another lesson in selfworth. It will also conjunct transiting Pluto, so I think that it is a time of big transformation for you.OK!
Your suicidal tendencies could be explained by the ruler of your 8th house conjunct the Sun. It is also combust and opposing, together with your Sun, Uranus. That + Chiron in your 7th shows me that you have been hurt by others in such a way, that you are now incapable of forming close relationships.
I have been hurt many times, but the need for relationship is overwhelming.
So..I make close relationship within few hours:innocent:...but just platonic, sex much later..and optional.
See-Sun, Venus 7th, ASC libra, Pluto and Uranus libra...
And even the opposite with Uranus from 1st gives it importanceIMO, as 1st is about ME.

I dont think will help you much in attaining that, but finding peace in spiritual practice, can be very helpful but with your Moon-Neptune square, dangerous ,as you could easily be misled into using all sorts of things, including drugs (probably the cause of your prison sentence).
No it was not because of drugs.
I was basically innocent.
Just stupid.

Sun in Aries is usually not a coward, so I think it is not such a surprise that you did not get killed. You probably made sure you would be found in time. You dont really want to die.
Oh no, I was longing to die.
But never got enough courage to jump or hang myself.
When it comes to pills...you will get drugged and then the body takes over and usually seeks some help.

With the ruler of your Ascendant, conjunct your Sun in the 7th house of relationships (others), you just crave to be with others, but you have been hurt by them and you are blocking yourself (Uranus) from getting close to others. Oh yes, you can live with them, eat and sleep with them, but you are somehow separate from them.
YES, exactly...

in 12 very often makes one to keep certain feelings, especially painful one's, hidden and that Moon does not want to open up completely, it will always keep a part back, you will never give yourself totally out of fear to be hurt again. Saturn square Moon makes you suspicious of others and fearful.Indeed..lolol

Pluto on the Ascendant can give you however the power to change yourself, to let go of negative memories and replace them by better things. It could even change your physical body at some point in your life. Being the ruler of your 2nd house of selfworth, you will develop your own selfworth, due to what happens to you in your life.
May it be soon...

Neptune in 3 in fact, cannot see clearly at all. It just dreams and imagines with that square to the Moon
Yes, but...Moon is in 12th, so Neptune is contacting own house.
So it can IMO deepen intuition and the square could show up as oversensitivity.

Sorry Akyanan, but this has been put into your pretty head. Breaking tabus (like eating humans) is usually done by people who crave for attention and excitement. Wisdom is very hard to find here.

there are tabus though which are set up out of religious or cultural convictions. When they are broken, then some freedom could result from it, but not wisdom I think.IMO It depends on the person.
You need to be Plutonian with strong Uranus to walk this path.

In a few years from now your progr. Sun will enter Gemini and then your 9th house where you find yourself at ease because you love to learn. Now the progressed ruler of your Ascendant is already there and approaching the conjunction with Saturn. This is good, because it will be you who now wants discipline and this at the same time when Saturn conjuncts your Asc. and Pluto again, could then bring results.
Ok, so good have somethink to look forward to. :)

Thank you!

[Akyana]

Astrologer50,

T Saturn conj Asc is not good for starting new ventures and may knock your confidence a little, good time if you want to loose a bit of weight though.
Good to know...
Watch for prog moon conj transiting pluto in approx 6months as this may herald some emotionally intense exchanges
Lol, ok...well, what do you think..is it possible to somehow move the heavens bodies a bit?:pinched:

Regarding your pluto conj Asc -- any planet within 5' orb of house cusp is considered more effective in next house along going anti clockwise.

· Tends to be a loner and hold innermost self aloof from those around. Penetrating gaze. Person power and will is indicated. Much more below the surface than is shown above. Very private person – holds secret
· Tunnel vision when concentrating will always finish things.
· Usually deep penetrating eyes. Intensity comes over ‑ even when being silent
· A marvelous sense of purpose is generally present, and must be expressed and fulfilled otherwise an inner seething and sense of dissatisfaction may be the result
· If Pluto is afflicted and could cause deep‑rooted psychological problems that can emerge as physical ailments.
· The nearer Pluto lies to the Ascending degree, the stronger its influence will be. The planet's influence will darken the personality, adding an incisive and deep, emotionally intense quality.Do you recognise these traits?

To tell you the truth...not so much.
I can be intense, but most of the time I am too busy balancing, lol.
Have the intensity when I talk about spiritual matters tho.
As Aries I do not very often finish things...only when it make sense.
Like swim cross freezing river water.
The Pluto does shine into the first, but mostly I supress it.
Pluto 12 fits me much more.

Pluto opp mercury
You are very incisive and aggressive with your opinions.
TRUE
You have a tendency towards fanaticism and often want to impose your ideas on others, sometimes in a subtle manner and sometimes more imperatively.
VERY TRUE
You will find yourself attracted by the occult and other mysteries but it is recommended that you avoid those subjects because they can generate certain fixations or obsessiveness.
YOUR WORDS CAME TOO LATE.:smile:
You must learn to control your impatience and impulsiveness, to think things over before speaking, and to respect the weaknesses of others
OK

You have high ideals, yet are often lacking in self-confidence over your ability to express them or live up to them; generally, no one can live up to high ideals, so relax a little, create a little space between you and this inner obsession, and devote more time to internalising this energy to transform yourself.Hmm, interesting...

You will have a strong drive for personal freedom and will seek out unusual friends and activities. Individuality very strong Unusual in some way
· often possessing scientific and intuitive talents.
· Personal behaviour unpredictable.
· Good organiser and leadership qualities. Occasionally act the opposite of what is expected of you.
· Dissatisfied with appearance in some way (quite common ‑ hippy type, earring through noses, bright coloured pink or red hair etc.) Can dress provocatively – aiming to shock
· Very original theories and methods of working.
· Erratic and sudden impulses not always understood, not only by others but by themselves. Not a conformist and apt to be too direct and blunt with opinions. Must surrender the willfulness inherent in this position.

Do you recognise these traits?

YES

Uranus opp sun/venus suggests when you do get close to people, you then develop issues to do with freedom and independence and worry that your individuality may be compromised maybe?Hmm, not really, it rather shows in liking weird people and also lots of changes when it comes to relationship.

Moon square Neptune, suggests emotional disillusionment, Neptune opp Saturn suggests your dreams, ideals were crushed by reality or parents in childhood and may suggest a 'fear of the unknown' as a result

Well, the fear of unknown is deleted by mars con jupiter in 5th imo
But yeah...my dreams are being crushed all the time.

Progressed sun has been been going through your 8th house of joint shares finances, resources but more importantly, 'other people's values and beliefs' and this is where you are and have had major transformations, death of old and rebirth of your new developing value system

Interesting..
In another approx 7years (Equal house) your progessed sun will go into 9th house but next year will change signs into Gemini and this should make your more inquisitive
Even more inquisitive, eh:smile:

We all have to go through major transits in our lives because this is how we grow and develop unfortuantely. Best of luck on your journey. hope these comments help.Thank you, :love:interesting and helpful!