The Worst Moment of My Life

[Arian Maverick]

I am too numb to write a proper introduction, so I will simply present this as the chart of the Worst Moment of My Life. Hopefully, the sleeping pills will kick in soon...but alas, unconsciousness never comes soon enough :(

http://img361.imageshack.us/img361/2319/theworstmomentofmylifechart4yp.png (http://imageshack.us)

Arian Maverick

[Howl]

Hey Arian, hope you're morning's looking better! I'm not sure at all about event charts, this one looks formidable :(

I don't like the look of moon in the fifth opposite saturn/mars in the 11th, somebody (a friend) do something, or not do something they should have? Pluto on nadir opposed sun on MC, something public, that affected you deeply?

Your chart ruler, mercury, has some nice aspects...hopefully something good will come from it?
Thinking of you, sweet dreams :)

[Radu]

I'm really really sorry for this. I see your progressed Moon currently at the Serpentis degree 18Sco48 (=19th degree) and know that progressed Moon's passing through Scorpio is emotionally the hardest period of the entire prog. Moon cycle and of it Moon's conjunction with Serpentis is worst. The good part is that this is as bad as it gets, not possible going lower, yet it is bad enough.

Must have been a romantic involvment that went very bad (Moon in the 5th house in opposition with Mars - young men, and Saturn, 5th house ruler). Also transiting Venus at 18 Taurus opposing that afflicted progressed Moon at 18 Scorpio.
Also, Sun-Pluto opposition in the event chart in square with the AS-DS axis in semisquare with the malefics is also a testimonial of high relational stress.

Hold on there! Don't fall in depression or abuse of pills. Try to cheer up!

Blessings!

[Howl]

Hmm, my progressed moon is just about to leave the eigth house *whew!*

I didn't know about progressed moons at the time, but in retrospect, ouch!! I thought i had turned into a human pincushion, and had no hope of returning to the assured nature of my natural personality. In short, I thought I had suffered irreversible emotional damage over the past few years. Radu, why is the serpentis degree the harshest? Is that true for transits/progressions through any house?

Bring on the ninth house moon, I say!

[Radu]

Serpentis is known to be a sensitive malefic degree from antiquity. Some modern astrologers believed it was associated with a malefic fixed star, but the reality is that fixed stars advance at a rate of 1 degree in 72years and Serpentis remains at 18+ Scorpio.

I watch Moon's transits and progressions over this degree and it always brings a lot of emotional stress. My wife already knows that when the Moon is at that degree, she is very likely to find a reason to cry. (so I have to take care what I say).

I read that prog. Moon's movement through houses is less relevant than its position by sign, and so far it seems so. Aspects to natal planets also count a lot, pinpointing some important events.

[Howl]

Thanks :) If I'd been reading more attentively, I'd have noticed you were talking about Scorpio and not the eighth house!

[Arian Maverick]

Thank you both for your concern.

I do not even know where to begin...no one has died, no one has been physically injured...no property has been destroyed beyond repair. Indeed, MUCH worse events have happened in this world, but this does not prevent me from feeling pain.

Arian Maverick

[Howl]

If it comforts you at all, invisible destructions within are what brought me towards astrology, and to this forum. If something is only apparent to you that can make it more painful, not less! You never have to justify being hurt, and you don't have to apply 'relativity' to pain; because we all know pain one way or another :(

If it's the biggest thing to ever hit your world, then that's more than big enough, and more than worth our empathy and concern :)

You've already shown us your exceptional maturity and balanced, considerate character. If you do choose to talk about it here, know that you won't be judged for the feelings that you have ;)

[Arian Maverick]

I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS! :eek:

This entire situation, which has caused me so much suffering these past two day, was the result of MISCOMMUNICATION!

I received INCOMPLETE information from my best friend, who notified me as soon as the list for officer positions was posted...I am librarian AS WELL AS Music Lieutenant!

I don't know whether to swear and curse or celebrate!

Here's the chart:

http://img150.imageshack.us/img150/3440/misunderstandingcorrectedchart.png (http://imageshack.us)

Arian Maverick

[laliqueviolin]

Hahaha, hooray! Curse and then celebrate!

You'll be too busy now. :p

[Arian Maverick]

I believe there is a greater lesson here...indeed, after a fashion, I was able to accept the situation I found myself in. Considering where I came from, and what I have experienced these past few years, this is quite impressive indeed!

To me, this is so much than a title...it is my redemption after all these years of darkness, a beacon of hope, my motivation to continue to endure the hardships that will inevitably come my way. For a precious few days, I considered my life crushed; I was betrayed and emotionally raped; years of selfless service were promptly forgotten and discarded.

Yet now, well, I cannot recall ever being this excited about my future and all of its possibilities...and as an Aries, that's truly something! :p

Arian Maverick

[Francesca]

So happy for you, dearie. What is it you do anyway? I thought you worked on a ferry.

[Howl]

Someone on this forum does work on a ferry/ship, but it isn't arian, I'm fairly sure :) Arian I don't know you well enough to grasp the full extent of your explanation, but it's fantastic that you only had to go through the worst moment of your life for two days before it was magically removed :D

Do you think it significant that mercury, ruler of the original Worst Moment chart, was well aspected? I'm wondering ;)

P.S. I miss your woolly avatar, it was so cute!

[Arian Maverick]

No, I don't work on a ferry, though it sounds like it would be a splendid summer job! :)

I have been referring to the auditions for marching band and the subsequent posting of officer positions, although I believe this is the first time I have made mention of such in this thread. I apologize for the confusion; for the past few days, I was simply not of the proper emotional state to explain--and thus relive--my situation.

I have not attended public school for the past two years due to circumstances beyond my understanding or control, yet I have been an extremely dedicated member of my town's music department since I was in fourth grade. I do not wish to divulge the unsavory details that rendered me incapable of even attending class, but throughout it all, the music department was incredibly supportive and accommodating, inviting me to participate in activities regardless of my highly unusual circumstances. In return, I remained fiercely loyal, volunteering countless hours to further The Cause. It is difficult to describe The Cause to those who are unfamiliar to our program; suffice to say it is a vision that unites us all through extreme temperatures on both ends of the thermostat, throughout the marching season--indeed, throughout the year. It is the primary motivating force when I remove my sneakers after a long day at band camp, literally too exhausted to move. It impels me to do the odd jobs no one else dares--to climb inside the bus compartment to retrieve hard-to-reach instrument cases, to straighten chairs, to organize folders, to hold doors as the band trudges through. I have been ridiculed for my devotion, as so many others are, yet I remain steadfast and unwavering in my devotion.

Therefore, you can imagine my sense of betrayal when I mistakenly learned that I had been appointed to the position of Librarian. I suppose the position in and of itself is respectful enough, yet when I considered the candidates I had seen perform this duty years prior--one of whom was a reasonably dedicated member of the band yet too lazy to submit an officer application--I was confused, angry, upset, disappointed, and beyond rational thought; I was only capable of feeling the deep, primal pain of this injustice, which had so disordered my life and jeopardized my plans for the future.

Now, I have undergone my share of traumatic experiences, yet I know from personal experience that life seldom provides one with unexpected, happy endings. Therefore, I had no reason to question my best friend, who has been an asset in keeping me informed and signing my name to bus lists, hotel rooms, etc. and has never made such a grievous error in relaying information to me. As I mentioned, I was beyond rational thought, and if some strand of hope remained inside my shattered soul, I was certainly unaware of its presence.

This same friend, completely unaware of the distress she had unwittingly caused, dialed my home phone number earlier tonight, which my mother answered. There was no introduction, no exchange of pleasantries or indeed any identification of herself whatsoever. "Would it make any difference," she asked, "if Beth was Music Lieutenant as well as Librarian?" My mother, perhaps for the first time in her life, was rendered temporarily speechless. She quickly finished the conversation and drove to the high school to verify the sheet herself, and notified me of this sudden developed. As soon as I recovered from my initial shock, I recorded the time and gleefully ran downstairs to update everyone.

I must say that the support I have received from this community, through both personal messages and public responses, has been unbelievable. I am incredibly thankful to have found an online community such as this, to exchange knowledge and share my successes and failures.

Thank you, everyone! :D

Arian Maverick

[Arian Maverick]

P.S. I miss your woolly avatar, it was so cute!

Howl, check again...I have replaced my avatar just for you! ;)

http://img240.imageshack.us/img240/4289/ariesart3vv.jpg (http://imageshack.us)

Arian Maverick

[jenluvsblackcat]

I was a librarian once....fun times indeed. But of course, you will be keeper of the music library...right? Never had that job. Broke too many bassoons and played too loud of a guitar to be trusted by my band directors.

Glad your meltdown didn't last!
Besides, you're young and there will be plenty more times where life will seemingly crash down around you. Remember this experience and how you reacted for when life plops down another nuke.

What exactly is the lieutenant's job any how? Is it like a section leader?
Hizzle Bizzle,
Jen

[Howl]

Yay, the slighly sly looking woolly ram is back! One day I'll find myself an avatar that cool :D