Awakened_Pisces
12-15-2008, 04:20 PM
I was wondering where could I find a site that allows me to read my Solar Arcs.(Astro only has the Arcs combined with progressions and Natal, I just want to read the arcs). Or a program. I'm very grateful and I'll update the post with the Solar Arc charts to match my timetable:
Timeline of my life up untill now:
April-June of 1996: Mom leaves for an Alchol Party and I was left alone in my room. I highly doubt I started a lighter(even though I saw one) because as of this day and age at 16 years. I cannot fathom how to do it lol. But at any rate, our house caught itself on fire. And me and my family were able to escape unharmed. Dog died though :(
June of 1998(First Solar Return): My Life begins at a high motion. Education wise I struggled mightily and I was administered several tests that were damned near impossible for myself. As a result, I was labeled "mentally retarded" and sent to Devereux. This personal hell on earth may have improved my education. But only up to Age 9(Third Grade). After that, Devereux had become a nuisense and a living hell.
Sometime in 2006:(I don't remember the month). The horror that was and still is, is that they took me away from my beloved mother of 14 years to live at that despicable school. Inside an very below-average home. With a bunch of gangster-like males. Since I only stayed their 9 months. I'd suppose maybe a month or two after my birthday. April-May of 2006.
December of 2006(or perhaps early January of 07): I finally escaped my confinment in that horrible place. Actually, alot happened besides that. A month or so before then(September). I won my first election for President of the Student Council. Though I had to give up the position because after 9 or so years of being at that dump. I finally get my long awaited transfer back into the Public School System.
I seem to remember the Age of 14 being when your Saturn Return is first apparent. Well I most certainly had a learning experience that I still could not grasp: That people simply could not always be trusted upon. Or that you'd have to move away from them sooner or later.
Firstly, although I was "transferred" to Penn Wood Middle School(This was a disgrace, they enlisted me as a 9th grader but had me stuck with a bunch of kiddies). They still had me stuck in a Life Skills class, in which we ultimately did NOTHING at all. We might as well have not existed. I felt very inferior and very pathetic a part of this "special education" nonsense. It took me an extra month or so(So it was like I had 5 months instead of 6) to get inside a far superior classroom. Sure, the structure might not have changed much(IE: We almost did little to nothing). But the Education infrastructure greatly improved. I'll easily say that miss Kate Werner was by far my best teacher and I wish I could relive at least the Education Part of that 06 year.
That's not to say I accomplished all that I wanted to in that year. Nor is that to say the situation changed then or now. It actually all started in that 04 year. I had/have high respect and admiration for miss Kate, however the school administrators themselves were arrogant:
I mean, when you hear your assistant principal saying they will "change you", you've got to feel the least bit violated.
Well sadly, that wasn't the most arrogant of all of the things that happened in that year: Actually very early in the year, me and an assistant teacher had often feuds. This resulted in a conversation with my main teacher. In which she suggested the most foolish thing I ever heard of: Serving a detention, which essentially allows them to collect an extra paycheck for nothing. Despite their claims otherwise lol. I basically made the argument that I would never, ever waste my time and would think "over it" at home. Which I did and even took an extra day to ponder further.(A perfect example of how I feel when gulity).
When I started the week, everything went well for 8 periods. Then towards the 8th, miss Werner wanted to convince me to take a detention because I apparently "skipped" one when in fact she let me! I decided in the end, that obviously I didn't do anything wrong to deserve this so called "detention:". So when I walked out of the school, in traditional fashion. The Principal appeared in which I tried speaking with him, telling him that we can discuss this as men. But the arrogant son of a ***** refused to do so. In which I was truly angered. In all of this, I tried to work it out. But he refused to do so.
His arrogance was even more revealing in the meeting in which we had. In which he tried to say that my being a "Special Education" Student was at all a impact for my decision! Of course it wasn't. I don't think I implied my anger properly.(Moon-Mercury conjunct), but I was dead furious with him for even suggesting that. Basically saying I was inferior to the other students.
He crossed the line for me when he handed me the reinstatement papers(which clearly were to be handed to the teacher) and said to me "You know what to do with this right?" As if I were dumb. I snatched it out of his hands and I believe I said something but I don't recall what it is I said.
The year pretty much played out like that. Nothing really happened in the year 2007 worth mentioning. Or this year of 2008. But the later part of 2008-2009 was interesting:
Late June of 2008:
I came home from School on one of the very last, if not the last day of the School Year. I went on the computer as usual and our family "friend" came over. It all seemed calm and friendly. Untill A couple of Burglars came in and robbed us at gun point. Luckily no one got shot, even though father got beat up pretty badly. In the end, we analyzed that it was our so called "friend" who allowed them in. Indeed, they seemed so focus on father they didn't care about me or the "friend". But it was a pretty big shock.
September-current 2008:
School has started once again and I am an 11th grader. And I won my first serious concession in 11 years. (Hey, the number 11 is showing itself twice :D) I was able to get into my first real public school-like class. American Studies, which I currently am acing. But that admitedly small concession means nothing because of the way school has been:
Again acting and calculating via my emotions(rather then what "needs to be done"). I was signifcantly sick twice in these 3 months. And both times, I had felt as though that resting my body and getting healthy was the best thing I could do for myself and for others. However, those two times have bolstered up my absence numbers considerably. It was to about 16(Possibly 18/20 now). The end result of this was an endless amount of complaints to which I grew tired to rather quickly.
An example of this being this past week. Because of our door being broken(and me being persistent), I missed the Bus. I took a breathing treatment(I have Asthma), and my dad drove me to school. So, what happened? Even though I tried my best to go to school. Even though I had the effort to go to school. I was rewarded with criticism. For having done my best. I was rewarded with criticsm.
Conclusion of these 16 1/2 years of living: Sometimes you must move on. Theo said that the Global Transits suggested this movement for the world. So I guess it be no surprise that my life is not far behind the world of which I live. The people whom I work with are untrustworthy and unreliable. Nor have I ever been able to move signifcantly with them in my life. Not even all of the Education in the world would move me with them now. They are a dead old relationship that must have it's ties severed completely.
I am considering changing my name. And ultimately erasing my record and my memories of these past 16 years. My dreams and goals of one day being President of this country and marrying the woman of my life have not changed. But everything else will change. Starting right now.
Timeline of my life up untill now:
April-June of 1996: Mom leaves for an Alchol Party and I was left alone in my room. I highly doubt I started a lighter(even though I saw one) because as of this day and age at 16 years. I cannot fathom how to do it lol. But at any rate, our house caught itself on fire. And me and my family were able to escape unharmed. Dog died though :(
June of 1998(First Solar Return): My Life begins at a high motion. Education wise I struggled mightily and I was administered several tests that were damned near impossible for myself. As a result, I was labeled "mentally retarded" and sent to Devereux. This personal hell on earth may have improved my education. But only up to Age 9(Third Grade). After that, Devereux had become a nuisense and a living hell.
Sometime in 2006:(I don't remember the month). The horror that was and still is, is that they took me away from my beloved mother of 14 years to live at that despicable school. Inside an very below-average home. With a bunch of gangster-like males. Since I only stayed their 9 months. I'd suppose maybe a month or two after my birthday. April-May of 2006.
December of 2006(or perhaps early January of 07): I finally escaped my confinment in that horrible place. Actually, alot happened besides that. A month or so before then(September). I won my first election for President of the Student Council. Though I had to give up the position because after 9 or so years of being at that dump. I finally get my long awaited transfer back into the Public School System.
I seem to remember the Age of 14 being when your Saturn Return is first apparent. Well I most certainly had a learning experience that I still could not grasp: That people simply could not always be trusted upon. Or that you'd have to move away from them sooner or later.
Firstly, although I was "transferred" to Penn Wood Middle School(This was a disgrace, they enlisted me as a 9th grader but had me stuck with a bunch of kiddies). They still had me stuck in a Life Skills class, in which we ultimately did NOTHING at all. We might as well have not existed. I felt very inferior and very pathetic a part of this "special education" nonsense. It took me an extra month or so(So it was like I had 5 months instead of 6) to get inside a far superior classroom. Sure, the structure might not have changed much(IE: We almost did little to nothing). But the Education infrastructure greatly improved. I'll easily say that miss Kate Werner was by far my best teacher and I wish I could relive at least the Education Part of that 06 year.
That's not to say I accomplished all that I wanted to in that year. Nor is that to say the situation changed then or now. It actually all started in that 04 year. I had/have high respect and admiration for miss Kate, however the school administrators themselves were arrogant:
I mean, when you hear your assistant principal saying they will "change you", you've got to feel the least bit violated.
Well sadly, that wasn't the most arrogant of all of the things that happened in that year: Actually very early in the year, me and an assistant teacher had often feuds. This resulted in a conversation with my main teacher. In which she suggested the most foolish thing I ever heard of: Serving a detention, which essentially allows them to collect an extra paycheck for nothing. Despite their claims otherwise lol. I basically made the argument that I would never, ever waste my time and would think "over it" at home. Which I did and even took an extra day to ponder further.(A perfect example of how I feel when gulity).
When I started the week, everything went well for 8 periods. Then towards the 8th, miss Werner wanted to convince me to take a detention because I apparently "skipped" one when in fact she let me! I decided in the end, that obviously I didn't do anything wrong to deserve this so called "detention:". So when I walked out of the school, in traditional fashion. The Principal appeared in which I tried speaking with him, telling him that we can discuss this as men. But the arrogant son of a ***** refused to do so. In which I was truly angered. In all of this, I tried to work it out. But he refused to do so.
His arrogance was even more revealing in the meeting in which we had. In which he tried to say that my being a "Special Education" Student was at all a impact for my decision! Of course it wasn't. I don't think I implied my anger properly.(Moon-Mercury conjunct), but I was dead furious with him for even suggesting that. Basically saying I was inferior to the other students.
He crossed the line for me when he handed me the reinstatement papers(which clearly were to be handed to the teacher) and said to me "You know what to do with this right?" As if I were dumb. I snatched it out of his hands and I believe I said something but I don't recall what it is I said.
The year pretty much played out like that. Nothing really happened in the year 2007 worth mentioning. Or this year of 2008. But the later part of 2008-2009 was interesting:
Late June of 2008:
I came home from School on one of the very last, if not the last day of the School Year. I went on the computer as usual and our family "friend" came over. It all seemed calm and friendly. Untill A couple of Burglars came in and robbed us at gun point. Luckily no one got shot, even though father got beat up pretty badly. In the end, we analyzed that it was our so called "friend" who allowed them in. Indeed, they seemed so focus on father they didn't care about me or the "friend". But it was a pretty big shock.
September-current 2008:
School has started once again and I am an 11th grader. And I won my first serious concession in 11 years. (Hey, the number 11 is showing itself twice :D) I was able to get into my first real public school-like class. American Studies, which I currently am acing. But that admitedly small concession means nothing because of the way school has been:
Again acting and calculating via my emotions(rather then what "needs to be done"). I was signifcantly sick twice in these 3 months. And both times, I had felt as though that resting my body and getting healthy was the best thing I could do for myself and for others. However, those two times have bolstered up my absence numbers considerably. It was to about 16(Possibly 18/20 now). The end result of this was an endless amount of complaints to which I grew tired to rather quickly.
An example of this being this past week. Because of our door being broken(and me being persistent), I missed the Bus. I took a breathing treatment(I have Asthma), and my dad drove me to school. So, what happened? Even though I tried my best to go to school. Even though I had the effort to go to school. I was rewarded with criticism. For having done my best. I was rewarded with criticsm.
Conclusion of these 16 1/2 years of living: Sometimes you must move on. Theo said that the Global Transits suggested this movement for the world. So I guess it be no surprise that my life is not far behind the world of which I live. The people whom I work with are untrustworthy and unreliable. Nor have I ever been able to move signifcantly with them in my life. Not even all of the Education in the world would move me with them now. They are a dead old relationship that must have it's ties severed completely.
I am considering changing my name. And ultimately erasing my record and my memories of these past 16 years. My dreams and goals of one day being President of this country and marrying the woman of my life have not changed. But everything else will change. Starting right now.