LadyV
08-29-2008, 10:10 PM
This is REALLY getting to me big time after I was awoken from a nightmare involving my father having sex with me when I was a child, I have memories of milder form of this abuse, but to be honest, my memories from my childhood are so foggy that I have never ruled out that anything worse happened.
Just now, I have gotten off the phone with the lawyer I think I am going to hire to represent me, and I'm using this as a one of a number of indications to decide if it is worth hiring an expert in repressed memory to first evaluate me and then to testify in court.
I've done 2 horary charts as I'm new to this, one from when I was awoken from this nightmare, one from just after I got off the phone with my lawyer and the thought crossed my mind of this is definately worth investigating. In the chart from just now when I finished speaking to my lawyer, the Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars and Saturn are all in the 8th House(also note that the Ascendant between this chart and my natal are more or less equal, so these planets are also in my natal 8th House), and Pluto is close enough to the 12th House to be interpreted as part of that one, which if I'm correct about this means that the planets were acting to draw pus from old wounds out so to speak. Plus there's a t-square between Mercury/Venus/Mars, Pluto, and Uranus, which seems to support this one further. Also, the Moon is in opposition with Chiron/North Node/Neptune and Uranus is in opposition with Saturn, which seems to support this one even further.
In the chart from right after I woke up from that nightmare, Mercury/Venus/Mars t-square Pluto and Uranus, Mars squares Jupiter, and the Moon opposes Jupiter and Pluto.
I am panicky about all of this at the moment, but I do need the full and honest truth badly of if this is really a repressed memory resurfacing or just a bad nightmare.
Also, if anyone knows of any good experts on repressed memory in the southeastern or midwestern US who will evaluate me either pro bono, on contingency, or for a minimal fee and then testify either in a deposition or in court, please PM me.
Thank you for taking the time to read and make feedback on this important question.
Just now, I have gotten off the phone with the lawyer I think I am going to hire to represent me, and I'm using this as a one of a number of indications to decide if it is worth hiring an expert in repressed memory to first evaluate me and then to testify in court.
I've done 2 horary charts as I'm new to this, one from when I was awoken from this nightmare, one from just after I got off the phone with my lawyer and the thought crossed my mind of this is definately worth investigating. In the chart from just now when I finished speaking to my lawyer, the Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars and Saturn are all in the 8th House(also note that the Ascendant between this chart and my natal are more or less equal, so these planets are also in my natal 8th House), and Pluto is close enough to the 12th House to be interpreted as part of that one, which if I'm correct about this means that the planets were acting to draw pus from old wounds out so to speak. Plus there's a t-square between Mercury/Venus/Mars, Pluto, and Uranus, which seems to support this one further. Also, the Moon is in opposition with Chiron/North Node/Neptune and Uranus is in opposition with Saturn, which seems to support this one even further.
In the chart from right after I woke up from that nightmare, Mercury/Venus/Mars t-square Pluto and Uranus, Mars squares Jupiter, and the Moon opposes Jupiter and Pluto.
I am panicky about all of this at the moment, but I do need the full and honest truth badly of if this is really a repressed memory resurfacing or just a bad nightmare.
Also, if anyone knows of any good experts on repressed memory in the southeastern or midwestern US who will evaluate me either pro bono, on contingency, or for a minimal fee and then testify either in a deposition or in court, please PM me.
Thank you for taking the time to read and make feedback on this important question.